Kingston Easton holds Cole tight, whispering in his ear as we wait in this conference room for Jessie.. “I know. I love you Daddy.” He sets him down and my big brother’s usual cold reserve has slipped, showing the agony he’s in. Cole jumps into Luci’s arms. She sits in the chair holding him so they are face to face. I’ve always appreciated the way she gets on his level like that. “Remember this is Cole’s show. You get to ask your questions and talk about things you want. If there is something she asks that you don’t want to talk about, that’s what you say. I don’t want to talk about that today. And Uncle Kingston will be with you if you get very upset or sad and need to leave.” His eyes turn to me and I nod. I will break down walls if I need to for my coconut. I struggled hard with our

