The Please, can you love me? solitary heart.

" Really ?!" I accidentally skipped that word with gaping mouth, eyes wide, dazed by the words on a piece of paper. " What the hell is wrong with you ! Acting like he's shocked like that .... Hey, did you hear me say that? What's wrong with you ?!" Mei is my own name that may sound like a female name. But in truth, it is not what everyone thinks. I am a man. I hurriedly turned to the voice because I felt that the occipital area felt pain. It was like I was hit hard enough by something to bring me back to my senses. " Why did you hit me on the head ?" " Then did you hear what I called? I asked what's wrong with you, why do you have symptoms like this? What are you shocked about? I've asked many times, why didn't you answer me? Mei !!" " You read this and you will be shocked like me, Bae Pae. " Pae is one of my close friends from the first year until the fourth year , and during this time, all students are waiting to be called from various medical institutions and hospitals. that we used to send books to ask for internships There are many people who have received acceptance letters from hospitals or medical institutions that allow us to do internships there, and one of them is me, Mei. First of all, let me Let's talk a bit first. I'm Mei Pichaya Naphaphongpan. Listening to my nickname or my real name, you think it looks feminine...Yes, but I'm a man . All sticks, one person. I asked to listen to the flag myself. I was a potential medical student. Someone who is an expert in oral hygiene for all of us. Whether it's wisdom teeth, caries, tooth decay, limestone, toothache, and many other problems related to the oral cavity. I can handle it all. Everyone will call me a dentist or a dentist for short. Yes, I am a dentist. and is the most handsome and cutest dentist in the world Talking about me being the most handsome in the world might sound like an exaggeration. Then I'd rather look good and be the cutest in the group. It might sound more believable. " This is true, isn't it, Mei !! where you get to do an internship at one of the most famous big hospitals in the country. Hey everyone come here quickly We 're going to tell everyone the good news ! " " What are you going to do with me, bastard? What are you going to tell them? Don't tell me that you will ......" as soon as I finished speaking. Pae announced loudly to the classroom. " Friends, we have good news to tell you that in our Faculty of Dentistry, Ai Mei Pitchaya has become an intern at the number 1 hospital in the country. we ask friends Clap your hands and congratulate Mei. " " Wow !!! Awesome / So good / Congratulations Mei ......." A round of applause and congratulations echoed throughout the classroom. Until I could hardly stand because I felt embarrassed, overwhelmed, delighted with the congratulations of my friends. while inadvertently raising the back of his hand to wipe away the streams of tears " We would like to thank all our friends very much. It's not because we are good or great. Everyone has the right to work internships at major hospitals or medical institutions. It's the same with us, but it all depends on the person who considers us for internships. We believe that everyone has a good right like us. Let's all keep fighting, my friends . heart From my words, I have created love and unity with my friends. Let's give each other a last hug before departing for internships in different places. Continue in the next few days. The first day I stepped into the most prestigious medical institution at the moment. It's almost unbelievable that a tiny medical student One will have the opportunity to stand on the grounds of a great place. that everyone dreams of coming to do a lot of internships I am the only one who has come to do an internship at the hospital of my dreams. When one of the passenger vans that I was on came to a stop in front of the entrance of a famous hospital excitement, nervousness They resonated in my mind almost all the time. As soon as the door of the van closed after I stepped out of the van I felt a sense of abandonment, adrift, loneliness, as if I was standing in the middle of a field with no purpose, what would I do next? What had been thought and planned before, did not go accordingly. When it comes to its actual location, it looks much bigger than I expected. I stood confused in the bright sun. Even though both hands are still hungry, the big bag is not placed. While I was standing, turning left and right, waiting for my brain to do what it was supposed to do. But I had to startle from being grabbed by my wrist and shook my wrist vigorously. by someone's big palm until I was almost out of the reverie " You ! Do you have anything I can help you with ?" " Err .... It's me .... I came to practice. Here is the acceptance document from the hospital. " I stood sweating as I began to regain consciousness before handing over the documents in my pocket to the security guard . " You're a medical intern from the university, right? " " Yes, sir. " " Just a moment, I'll contact the administration first. " I smiled instead of a friendly answer. Less than a minute passed and a security guard ran out from under the building. Came straight to me swiftly " Your name is Pichaya, right? " " Yes, I'm Pichaya Achamas. " " Please follow me and come this way. " That security guard grabbed my two big bags and carried them so quickly that I was shocked because I thought that I was going to be robbed. " I'll help you carry it. " " Thank you very much, brother. " I raised my hand to thank him politely and followed the security guard . security guard for some time , and he took me up the elevator to the 7th floor. It was my only close friend who I was with, like I was among hundreds. It will always talk about things to me. There are times when I tend to say that it's very often that it's in the wrong faculties or not. Well-spoken, able to analyze things conscientiously. It's probably going to be more of a faculties. Major in Mass Communication Ake is suitable for it. The more I think, the more I miss it. Pae has gone to do an internship at a clinic near his house over there. I'm so lucky that I don't have to be far from home like me. " It's here, Ms. Pichaya. " I barely stopped walking until I almost bumped into the broad back of the security guard . “ Brother, I'm sorry. I almost ran into him. " " It's nothing. I'll wait outside. " Before I could answer anything, the security guard knocked on the large opaque glass door in front of me. " Knock, knock, please. " Hey brother ! Where are you going in a hurry? You still haven't told me whose room this is. I swept my gaze around. Just a few seconds to explore where I stand. Oh, how did we pass by hundreds of people without even realizing that the doctor The nurses and patients were all over the place. Why do we seem to walk with just the two of us? Sigh !! Is this our symptom that is so heavy? The moment when the security guard is about to push the big door in A man's voice came out first. " Don't just come in Let me clear the desk for 2 minutes . " Yes, doctor . " The response from the security guard made me know and hurriedly remembered the pronoun used to call the man inside the room without telling me. I still have more than a minute left so I don't hesitate to explore my surroundings in detail again. Dr. Mahannop Chinnaradura, Director, My eyes stumbled upon the name affixed on the glass door. Do we have to meet with the director of the hospital? Oh !!.... Are we going to die? How should we behave? oh _ " Can you come in, student intern? " " Yes, I'm asking for permission to take Khun Pichaya in. " " Confused !!!.........."