ZARA As soon as I settle into my seat in first class , I fall asleep like a stone , I am tired , my shoulder hurts and I must have the most horrible dark circles after the shitty night I had , I know because the flight attendant gave me a worried look , and when I asked her for a bottle of water so I could take the sleeping pill Susan got me this morning , she didn't hesitate to bring it to me , even though people were still coming on the plane and she was supposed to help them first. After Tom left my room last night , I kept thinking about what he told me, pacing back and forth in my room , and having a slight anxiety attack when I realized that he was not coming back , I tried to lie down and trying to sleep but couldn't , I also tried to watch a movie , but it was definitely a

