Chapter 166
~ Nathaniel ~
I felt regretful after s*x with Frankie. More than regretful — disgusted with myself. Ashamed in a way I hadn't felt in years.
I'd used her. Had literally used another human being as a masturbatory aid while fantasizing about someone else. Had called out Hailey's name while inside Frankie's body.
That wasn't just inconsiderate. It was cruel. Degrading to both of us.
I suddenly hated myself. Beat myself up mentally for what I'd done. For who I'd become. For this pattern of behavior that had seemed so harmless and fun when I was younger but now just felt empty and wrong.
And I decided, sitting in my car outside Frankie's apartment building, that I was done running from this. Done pretending I didn't care. Done letting fear and pride keep me from going after wh
