Rain I can’t believe I’m graduating today. How can that even be possible? It doesn’t seem possible. Something is wrong with me because I’m not as excited as I thought I would be. I’m more nervous, wondering what the hell I’m going to do with my life. None of us had gotten any responses from the scouts. I knew something like this could take time, but it didn’t help my anxiety. What if I didn’t get on any team? Rugby was all I knew. Matt liked to keep pointing out that we had our backup plans but I wanted to respond that I didn’t want my backup plan. I wanted my first choice! It was immature of me to think this so I didn’t say anything. I should be focused on graduation, on this next phase of my life. Look at Lia who had graduated and was thrilled with starting college soon. Speaking