I didn' t expect tears to roll down my face until I was staring at me Nicholas with my mouth agape . He looked like he was ready to murder someone . His green were looked nearly black from the rage that unleashed itself . " What are you doing here , Nicholas ? If she sees you here she will talk . " I whispered at him but he didn' t seem to care at all . Instead , he ran his gaze from my head and then down to my bare feet . " Nicholas ? " I called out to him , peaking to see if my mother was coming this way . Luckily , she was still brooding over being kicked out and didn' t seem like she' d leave any time soon . His eyes trailed all the way back up to meet mine and his face became expressionless ." She used to - " I shook my head , clenching my eyes together . " Please don' t say it