By the end of the day I was willing my body to be dragged en route to my apartment . I switched of all of the lights and closes a few windows Ellie missed but as I did so , I couldn' t get Camilla' s lingering m words out of my head neither did the solumn , defeated way her shoulders hung as reminisced over her persuit , and failure , of Nicholas . I groaned bitterly , filled with self - pity , as I slid the key in to the key hole to lock the office doors . What was I even expecting from him anyways ? To appear at my door step with a bunch of freshly picked roses uttering everything I wanted to hear ? He made it clear from the start that this whole arrangement between us was merely go satisfy out sinful desires that never seemed to lessen no matter how much we tried . The skin at the bac