You know how when you' re at an amusement park and you see the most intimidating , most dangerous and thrilling ride in the entire park and you give in , ready to get on but the second you grasp the reality of how close you are to being on one hell of a ride , you want nothing more than to get out and be right back against the ground but , by then , it' s far too late to back down .This was me right now.
I spent my entire Sunday , or at least a huge chunk of it , pacing the perimeter of my entire apartment and , when that did not calm me down , I resorted to scrubbing the bathroom tiles to distract myself until I exhausted myself and fell asleep on to the couch all the while I was still in my pajamas . I only woke up because Elliot had called to say that he will be picking me up at seven
