Holden
"She has cancer" the doctor tells me. I am glad I am sitting down, because I feel like I have been punched in the gut, no worse, shot, no, like if someone is choking me and I can not breathe. I feel like I was pushed off a building and just landed on my head. I don't even know what any of those things feel like, but I know it is bad and that is what I feel right now, bad, horrible, like sh!t. I feel like I am floating and not even in my own body right now. "This can't be. She was fine and..and then she wasn't," I say. I feel the tears coming and I can't even hold them back. "It is aggressive, this is why she was fine and all of a sudden she was not. It is moving very quickly. I don't even think she has 6 months to live," he tells me. I turn looking for the trash can and begin pukin
