Undeniable Love For The Bad Boy

Chapter 10 ELIJAH POV

I left the party Friday night in a fit of rage. I didn't want to see anybody, speak with anybody, care about anything all because of the fact that I am starting to feel more for this one girl and it's breaking me inside. I have never felt this way before. Yeah, I have dated girls in the past. They were all pretty, sweet, a bit fast but I never took it far with any of them, including Tammy.

They didn't light a candle to Emma. They were absolutely nothing like Emma. Everything is different with her. Everything I think I could want in a girl resides within Emma. I am beyond furious at Noah to ever imply that I do not deserve her. I understand that I have tormented her throughout the years to boost my own ego but who was I really kidding? I did it all because I was scared. I thought it to be the only way to get closer to her. She has rooted her being inside of me and I can't escape without drowning.

I wanted to change- to be be different for Emma. I knew my opportunity was waiting for me Saturday morning with tutoring. I woke up determined. I woke up with a new attitude. I was adamant on showing her a side of me that she never saw. The nice boy side. However, when I got to school, I noticed that Noah and Allison were already there. Damn sneaky jerk. He is trying to show her that he is better than me. Maybe he is, but I am going to prove him wrong about deserving to be with Emma.

I head into class to sit with Allison and Noah. I also noticed that Tammy wasn't here. Better for me. I figured I will remain civil with Noah so I nod at him and Allison and I take my paper and pen out. I decided to doodle on the page while waiting for Emma to show up. If she shows up. Like fate was right there to grant me my wish, Emma comes walking in and Noah and Allison immediately say hi like they were lifelong friends. I grimace and Emma looks straight at me, but what do I do? I look right back at the paper I was drawing on. I took the cowards way out. Real smooth Elijah.

Emma starts asking questions about what we all need help with and the two ass kissers next to me tell her their problems. She turns her beautiful face to me and asks what I need help with. My inner jerk decides to show up.

"I'm good" That is the response I give her. What the hell am I doing? I am not good with the being nice crap. I am messing all of this up. By the time tutoring is over and Emma is looking over the work we had done she looks at me with curiosity in her eyes and I begin to panic. She knows.

"Elijah you got every answer right. Why does Mrs. Russo think you need tutoring? Why don't you show her that you know what you are doing?" I think to myself about what the right answer to tell her should be, but what comes out of my stupid mouth is something totally different.

"I know the work I just choose to not care really. With who I am, I am not going to be denied graduation next year so I am not going to stress it." So not the right answer. She looks at me like I am the most obnoxious person in the world and sadly, I think I am and forever will be.

"At least show some initiative, Elijah. Yeah you might get away with not doing the work but money is not going to always buy your way out of things. Stop hiding your smarts and just do the work. You clearly do not need the extra help so I'll let Mrs. Russo know on Monday." I grit my teeth knowing full well she is right but the stubborn side of me remains.

"Whatever." I just crumble the paper I was doodling on and toss it into the trash can before leaving. I power walk through the hallways steaming mad. I manage to punch one of the lockers before I get outside. I then see Melanie just eyeballing me. I'm downright furious with myself. Why did I show that I knew all the work? Wasn't I suppose to act dumb in order to remain close to her? I navigated this tutoring session all wrong. I sure as hell am not letting Noah stay with her at tutoring sessions without me there. Nope not going to happen. I need to fix this and fast.

I throw myself into my car and speed away. I need to relax. I need to clear my head. I drive with no actual destination until I hit the parking lot of the mall. I debate on whether or not to go in but I do not want to go home. There is nothing or no one there. It is just me. Honestly, I feel alone there. I feel alone everywhere. I am a sad human being.

I walk around for some time and I then hear my name being called. I turn around and see Stacy striding over to me.

"Hey Elijah. Didn't expect to see you here. Since you are here, want to maybe catch a movie with me?" Stacy is one of the girls from my past. She's nice and all but we never clicked. I was about to decline when I saw Noah and Emma with Allison and Melanie. What the hell?! Well that sure as sh!t changed my mind. F!cking Noah is all over her.

"Yeah sure. Sounds good." I immediately tell Stacy instead of the rejection she was going to get.

I overheard them buying tickets for the new horror flick so that is what I decided for Stacy and I to see. Stacy wasn't all too thrilled with my choice but once I delivered my dashing smile, you could see she was weak in the knees for me. If only she knew the real reason I am here. Girl would probably kill me.

I saw Noah glance in my direction with a slight smirk and now the f!cker has seen me out on a daye with another girl when we just argued over Emma last night. F!ck! I know he will find a way to throw it in my face later on. He'll probably out me in front of Emma.

We started heading in and Stacy and I made our way down the aisle and I am also making sure to watch where Noah and Emma are sitting. Of course they are sitting together. Not a complete surprise. During the movie Stacy kept trying to slip her fingers through mine but I kept moving my hand away. I was too busy watching Noah. Didn't I warn him yesterday about being close to her? I didn't watch any of the movie. I kept my eyes focused on where they were sitting. She kept leaning into Noah and that just pissed me off even more. After the movie was over I was seeing absolute red. Fury was my driven force. Seeing Emma leaning into Noah throughout the whole damn movie drove me insane. Stacy must've seen that I was mad because she looked at me with suspicion.

"Umm, are you ok? Did you like the movie? I think..." but I cut her off.

"I got to go." I leave her in the middle of the mall. I couldn't deal with anything anymore. I stormed out and went straight to my car. I saw all of them walking together so before I could think, I was calling out for Emma. She turned and frowned when she seen me. Of course. She said something to the group and started walking over to me but sure enough Noah is walking along with her right by her side. Pathetic puppy.

"Yes, Elijah?" The way she says my name drives me crazy but she seems less than thrilled to see me.

"No hi, how are you? Guess getting straight to the point, huh?" Two can play that game baby.

"We just saw each other this morning when you rudely left tutoring. What do you want Elijah?" Damn, now this girl decides to have a reaction to me. Her reaction fuels my need for her. It intoxicates me. She intoxicates me. Noah speaks and of course he is going straight for the kill and is about to mention seeing me with Stacy.

"Hey man, knew that was you I seen in the movie theatre. Where's your date?" F!cking jerk. However, my heart clenches when I notice Emma slightly frown from what he said about me being on a date.

"I was but she went home."

"Oh." Noah says. Good leave it at that. He takes out his phone and starts scrolling through it and Emma speaks once again.

"What do you want Elijah?" Say my name. Say it over and over. I f!cking love it. That's it. My minds made up. If Noah wants to play dirty, so can I.

"Yeah I actually do. Don't tell Mrs. Russo about the whole not needing tutoring anymore. I'm still going to be going every Saturday." Well that gets Emmas attention real quick because her eyes widen with shock.

"You sure about that? I don't see the need for it if you already know what you are doing. I think Noah and Allison need more help and I don't want you to waste your day sitting in school getting tutoring when you don't actually need it." Stop saying his damn name! I know I am glaring at Noah but I immediately stop.

"Listen. I'll be there every Saturday whether you like it or not. I don't have to be there for tutoring. I can easily catch up on missed assignments or homework. Doesn't matter to me but I will be there so stop pestering me. What I do on the weekend is none of your business." Yeah just be rude. Perfect.

"Noah, I'll text you later to hang." Yes you Noah you damn arrogant jerk.

Noah finally looks at me.

"Yeah, sure man. Hit me up."

I watch them all walk away. It honestly hurt to see her walking away with them. I screwed this whole day up royally. I had every intention of being nice but the aide of me that hates the world decided to shine brighter than the sun. I continue to watch them walk away, but Emma catches me by surprise by turning around to look at me. What is this girl doing to me?