Lavender

Chapter 20 - Secretly

LAVENDER'S POV

Days already passed after my heartwrenching talk with Daisy. Daisy stayed lively and smiley after our heart-to-heart talk but I can see that she's affected as I notice how she's also spacing out like what I usually do whenever I'm thinking too much. 

That's why today, I'm planning to tell Damon about my conversation with Daisy. Now that I know what's Daisy thinking for her brother. I need to come up with a plan that will make help Damon and Daisy have time together. 

Damon has been really busy since I moved here and started working as Daisy's caregiver that's why I know it's going to be hard to wait for Damon. I don't also want to go to the office as I'm just a caregiver and people around the office might get the wrong idea that's why tonight, I'm willing to sacrifice my sleep. I'm going to wait for him so that I can talk to him.

Well, I can just call him but as of the moment, I don't have Damon's number. I also feel shy to ask Daisy or anyone around the mansion as I'm still new here. I have Larry's contact but I know that man and I know how he thinks badly as he was the reason why I'm also here working for Damon. Not that I don't like ending up working here but still, Larry planned this. Larry knows my history with Damon so he used the opportunity for Damon and me to see each other again though I must say, my world and Damon's world have a huge gap. Now that he's living his life being rich and as CEO of one of the famous companies here in Florida. 

But still, being here means a lot as I met a woman who's so strong and lovely like Daisy, and meeting Daisy, I feel like I'm blessed. I will do anything to help Daisy. Anything to make her happy together with her brother though I wish Damon will cooperate.

I will wait for Damon who usually comes home around dawn and goes to the office by morning, way too early for me and Daisy to encounter Damon for the morning breakfast. I just found it out as I asked one of the old maids here who has been working with the Ellington family since Mr. and Mrs. Ellington's marriage. 

After finding out that Damon comes home at dawn, I can't help but feel impatient. I want to have a word with Damon immediately. He must know that Daisy still wants to fix their sibling relationship. Damon must know that Daisy just waiting for her brother to move and talk to her. 

Now that I still have many hours to spend, I decided to just watch Daisy again. We are currently here in the back part of the mansion where a large and beautiful garden is located, facing the beach here at Sunny Isles Beach. 

Daisy is wearing a rose dawn curvy camisole top matched with the same color in a pant as she holds a medium pot in her hand, putting soil inside of it. Daisy looks strikingly sexy when she stood up, sunlight touching her flawless skin as she walks to another side of the garden and put down the plant pot before lowering herself after taking a pouch of I don't what kind of seeds and pour it into the soil inside the plant pot. 

Daisy looks peaceful and still gorgeous even if beads of sweat started to form on her face. I smile widely as I can feel my heart beating again, but this time, it's slower as if my heart is taking its time as I also take my time, watching Daisy so beautiful.

I sigh, wondering what will happen if I did not meet Daisy. If I did not meet her as a caregiver but someone stranger whom she will soon trust. I admit that my heart has been acting crazy whenever Daisy's around. She's beautiful and someone who deserves to be loved like she doesn't have her condition as a reason to not be free at all. 

Daisy is easy to love. She's kind even if she's acting b***h. She's genuine even if her sarcasm can be annoying sometimes. She may act tough in front of her brother or Larry, she's a person I know who has the most fragile but precious heart. And I admire her for being herself. For staying who she is even if the world has been unfair to her, she stayed strong and compassionate. She loves Damon even if Damon has been unfair to her too. 

I'm starting to like Daisy. Before I even meet her, I did say that I like her already for helping to caught Larry letting Damon listen to our conversation but this. 

This thing I'm feeling is not just some a simple like. I know it's different as my heart continues to beat crazily whenever I see Daisy. Her genuine smiles that always make my breathing stalled. The strong personality that makes me want to adore her. I can't deny that maybe soon, I'm already in love with Daisy, but I don't want to scare Daisy away like what I fear of. I don't even know her views about people like me so as much as possible, as much as they don't know that I'm a bisexual, I think I'm going to be okay liking or loving Daisy secretly as I continue to stay here in their mansion. 

"You know, if you want to talk to my brother, you could have just asked his number to me, that way, you can contact him easily," Daisy suddenly said that made my eyes widen. 

H-how the f**k she knows that I want to talk to Damon? I never thought that she will know, but still, I don't want her to think that I'm asking when Damon will come home because I like her brother, I mean. Damon is indeed handsome and all but even if I have become attracted to him back then, I don't want to end up liking him. 

"U-uh, actually, I wanted to talk to Damon because of I-uh..." Damn it! I must think something. Something that will get Daisy's mind off from thinking that I might like her brother. "I-I wanted to talk to Damon because I want to have my day-off for this month."

Right! I remember that I can ask whenever I want for one day to go home on our terms. Good thinking, Lavender. 

Daisy stood up and look at me with seriousness on her face. "Oh, did something bad happen? Tell me so I can contact Damon immediately," she said, concern but I just shook my head, smiling as I'm grateful for how kind-hearted Daisy is.

"No, no. Everything is fine. It's just, I already miss Dad," I said, also telling the truth. 

It's almost just two weeks since I got here and started my work as a caregiver of Daisy but I really, really miss Dad now. Even Jada who has been so busy like what she said in the last message that I have received from her. I was still not able to tell Jada about but maybe when I encountered her on one of my day-off when she's not so busy anymore, I will tell her about Damon.

Daisy sighs as she sits on the wooden chair next to me as we both look at the sea in front of us. "Tell me about it. I miss Dad and Mom too," I heard her said as I still look at the sea that is sending breeze into our position, making me put up both of my feet and hug my knees as the cold breeze continues to touch my skin. 

"Dad is a talkative person. He's always the one who will always put noise in my peaceful days, Issy. That's why I miss him. I miss his cooking and everything dorky acts he always does," I said, smiling while still hugging both of my knees. 

"I understand, Lavender. My Dad is also a clown too. Even if he looks serious in his business tycoon facade, he's also a dork who's trying hard to not act crazy," she said that made me look at her at the same time that she also looked at me. 

She put a genuine smile as she continues to look at me with her eyes void with sadness. "Lavender, do you think my brother even cares about what I'm feeling?" she asked which made me sighed. 

"Of course, Daisy. If he doesn't care about you, he will not act as a brother who's overprotective for you," I said but Daisy instantly shook her head, looking not agree with what I said.

"Lavender, I'm still young. Usually, some condition like me only comes out when we are in the age of forty. I'm twenty-eight right now, Lavender. I can still live normally even if I'm sometimes forgetful. I don't know if this ever comes across Damon's mind but he should help me live my life to the fullest. He should be here beside us, hearing me and you missing our parents but sometimes, the more that I expect, the more I'm hurt whenever I see the Damon do not even care about me," Daisy said, displeasure and sadness written in her face. 

I continue to stay silent because I don't know what to say. I just met Damon again and he's changed. He changed big time. And I don't know what to say to comfort Daisy from feeling bad because I also don't know what Damon is thinking. Damon right now, I think is someone who keeps his thoughts private or maybe he shares some with Larry but Daisy and I know where's Larry loyalty so asking is not one of the choices. 

"It's not just Dad and Mom I am missing, Lavender. I also miss my brother.  The Damon who likes playing basketball but loves his sister more. The man who likes boasting whenever girls are swarming for him back then. My brother who likes to wake me up early, making me want to always punch him in the face but he's good at dodging so I never really got to do my revenge on him, Lavender," Daisy said with thick sadness in her voice. "And I wish that we are given a chance to be okay, so that I can still have a chance to do my revenge on him. So that before my condition even gets worse and I start forgetting people who are important to me, I can say that I'm okay. because at least, I was given enough time to bond with the people whom I love." 

What Daisy said made me feel my heart being clenched inside. I understand what Daisy is feeling and I completely get what she's talking about. 

Being someone who has early-onset dementia like her, it's like a timer continuing to run until its last second where Daisy's condition is going to be much worse. And just by thinking what she said, it's painful to watch someone slowly forgetting the people they love. Slowly not recognizing the people she used to smile and become more distant. Just imagining it after knowing that Daisy also has this thought while she's still okay, it's really heartbreaking. 

"Don't worry, Daisy. Before I quit this job, if ever, I'll make sure that the both of you are happy again. I will make sure that before I quit, you and your body speak to each other again," I said, promising which made Daisy smile. 

This is a promise I'm planning to keep and happen. I will help Daisy grant her wish with her brother and everything will start once I have talked to Damon. I just wish he cooperates without saying any excuses. 

"Thank you, Lavender. Don't worry. I'm not angry about you wanting to help. I feel like my life had started to get better when you came. I don't have someone to talk to since Damon locked me in here," she said that made my heart swell. 

Oh, god! I wish that I don't fall in love deep with Daisy. I'm afraid the heartbreak is going to hurt more than I expected.