Stella I hate how easily I gave into Luca’s wishes. I should have fought more, fought for Sebastian, but the look on my boyfriend’s face told me everything that I needed to hear. It gave me the reassurance that I needed to leave with as much dignity as I could. Silas and I sit in the car together. It is silent. Not even the radio plays, just the hum of the SUV’s engine and the faint clicking sound of the car’s blinker whenever Silas changed a lane or turned down a street. We share the occasional look every now and then. I know that the two of us want to speak about what happened but we have never been close enough to have a conversation like this to begin with. I wish that we could, but I don’t know if Silas wants to have that kind of relationship with me after finding out about my rela