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I struggled to get work done that afternoon. By dinnertime, I ordered Thai and collapsed in front of the TV to watch something trashy.
But as a stupid dating show came on, it reminded me of Melanie. For a brief time when we'd been roommates, we'd loved watching these types of shows together. We'd make it an entire occasion, with takeout, wine, and wearing our comfiest PJs.
I reminded myself that I was still mad at Melanie. We hadn't spoken since our blowup fight at Mia and Jackson's wedding. I hadn't even asked her why she'd been there.
But in that moment, with neither my best friend nor the man who'd become just as good of a friend, I felt unbearably lonely.
Sometimes I wasn't sure pride was worth being alone like this.
I scowled. Don't be pathetic. Begging people to love you
