Alpha Joshua's p.o.v
We have been at Amanda's pack all week. My grandfather has been keeping a close eye on me, making sure I make no mistakes. 3 days out of this week I have woken up in bed with Amanda, but I can't remember anything. There's times of the day where she looks so good to me. Sometimes I catch myself staring at her. I have never been attracted to her, but I guess knowing that there is no way out of this and we are going to get married and marking each other is making it easier. She says I have been trying to put a pup in her, but I just don't remember. It is finally Friday and we are going home tonight. Tomorrow we are having multiple ceremonies. I lost my mate, even if I find her in the future. She won't feel the bond anymore. My love, the one that got away. I will never fo
