Chapter 2
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I couldn’t believe what I just saw. f**k. Is this really happening? What does this mean? Why am I smelling the scent of my mate in Marcus? Is he my… doesn’t he feel me too? I was so confused. I didn’t know what to say or what to do. I just stood there, feeling numb as pain pierce into my heart. I didn’t know if it was the pain that stopped my urge to run to Marcus.
“Louve, o-oh gosh!” Laria exclaimed as she was putting on her clothes. I didn’t blink nor say anything to her. I was just staring at nothingness while waiting for them to finish. I must have been so stupid right now. I mean, after what I saw, I must say, I was quite a martyr to even wait for them…to wait for my mate and his lover to finish banging each other.
“Louve! s**t!” Laria rushed to me. She was wearing this worried look on her face. She was like a teenager who was so afraid that I might rat her out to her parents because of what I saw. She bit her lip and reached for my hand. I looked at it but never spoke a word to her.
I was still looking at them intensely as Marcus was looking at me, too, with eyes wide open. “Louve…” he managed to utter as well. I saw Laria look at him in confusion. He then looked at her, too, holding her hand and squeezing it tightly before he gave her a smile.
“Can you leave us for a while, first? I-I just have to talk to Louve…” he whispered to her sweetly. I secretly gasped as I looked at how lovingly he was staring at her. I couldn’t help but feel the pain creeping into my chest. I bit my lip hard. Laria looked at me, forehead creased.
Instead of looking at her, too, I immediately avoided her gaze and turned my back on them. I clenched my fist and without a word left them in the middle of the forest. I didn't know where I was going. All I knew at that time was that I didn’t want to be near them. I walked as fast as I could until I was able to reach the end of the forest. I was panting and holding my chest already as I felt like my heart was going to go out of it. Damn it! Damn this situation and damn Marcus for being a jerk!
I quickly wiped the tears that were quickly coming down my cheeks. I heard some footsteps coming from behind, so I immediately walked away again.
“Louve! Hey! Come on!” I felt like my whole body just heated because of the anger that was burning up inside me.
I walked faster and faster until I was able to reach the outside of the forest. I took a deep breath to calm myself. Suddenly, I felt him beside me. I bit my lip and immediately looked at him. Our eyes met and I could feel his stares bearing deeply into my soul. I swallowed hard. I looked around only to see that my cousin wasn’t there already.
“Where is she?” I asked him, my voice was as cold as the ice.
He didn’t reply immediately. Instead, he sighed and looked a t me intently. I raised a brow on him.
“What?” I asked.
“Louve… about what you saw…”
“What about it? You’re going to reject me, are you?” Shards of glass crippled my heart the moment I said those words to him. I knew it. I knew it. He closed his eyes tightly and immediately took a deep breath after.
“Louve, look, I know you felt it…I-I felt it, too…but…”
He stopped For a moment, he looked me in the eyes but then he suddenly shifted his gaze as if he was being burned just by looking at me. The shards that I felt earlier went deeper. I don’t know what to feel or how to react.
When I saw them earlier, I thought I already knew how this would end and I thought that I would be able to accept it easier, but now that we are facing each other and with me feeling this stupid mate’s pull. I suddenly wondered how he was taking this mate’s pull. I mean why does it seem like he was not affected at all? Why does it feel like this mate’s pull is one sided? What the heck is happening?!
“But what?” I asked, still trying to sound strong even though I felt like I was just barely holding on because of a freaking mate’s pull.
“I’m sorry… I know you’re my mate and-”
“But why were you banging my cousin?!” I gritted my teeth even more. I couldn’t take the anger that I was feeling anymore. I felt like I was just going to burst out if I didn't shout this out already.
I was breathing heavily while looking at him angrily. He bit his lip hard and eventually let out a heavy sigh.
“I’m sorry Louve, I love Laria…it wasn’t just about s*x. We have been together for a long time already…and I-I…I plan to introduce her to the whole pack and to my parents on my coronation night. I’m sorry, Louve.I am so sorry. You are dear to me, I swear. I treat you as my best friend. We have known each other ever since we were kids, and I will forever treasure what we have for each other…but I’m sorry. I am so sorry if I cannot do this with you. I’m sorry if I will have to reject you. I intend to make Laria my Luna. I will marry her, Louve, and as much as it pains me to do this, I will have to do it eventually. To save your face, I will have to do it now…”
I couldn’t move or say a thing. I knew where this was going…and I felt like my whole body just froze. I was getting dumped, and my body was getting numb. Great.
“Louve of Riverstone, I am deeply sorry… but I am rejecting you as my mate…”
I closed my eyes tight when I felt like my chest was cracked open. The pain ran deep through my whole body and it felt like I was being ripped apart. f**k!
“Louve, please…accept my rejection…” I heard Marcus’ hoarse voice. s**t. The pain was worsening every second that passed. I clenched my fist hard. I could hear Marcus begging in the background. I felt my tears wanting to come out already, but I didn’t let them. f**k.
I wanted to scream…I wanted to shout and just let the pain take me, but then something in me just wanted to slap me. My wolf was yelling at me to let go and stop being a freaking martyr. I gulped hard as I slowly opened my eyes to look at him. I was greeted by his worried look. He was about to go near me but I immediately took off his hands.
“Get off me!”
“Louve…”
I breathe deeply again. “I accept. I f*****g accept your rejection.” And with that, the excruciating pain just went away.
I saw how Marcus was able to breathe in relief. “Thank you…thank you, Louve.” and he left me after that. I was left in an empty forest, dumbfounded with all my hopes about having someone to be with me crushed into pieces.
“f*****g great.”
- Writer
