Unordinary Love (Book 2)

CHAPTER 6

"Maybe one day we'll find the place where our dreams and reality collide."

Faded. 

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Bellarose Martinelli.

I was so happy that finally I'm with the love of my life in this dream where I can hold her, kiss her, hug her and make love with her.

Yung walang kaagaw. Tanging siya lang at ako dito sa mundong pwede kaming maging masaya.

"Huy, ang lalim naman ng iniisip mo. We're you thinking about me at least?"

Nahawa ako sa nakakahawa niyang magandang ngiti. Those dimples that making my heart flutter.

Naka unan ang ulo niya sa lap ko habang nandito kami sa isang puno na saksi sa pagmamahalan namin.

I was stroking her smooth hair with my hand with a smile on my face. I lean in and planted a sweet kiss on her addictive lips.

I involuntarily close my eyes at the comforting feeling I felt on her lips.

Ang isang damping halik ay napunta sa nagbabagang halik. I pulled her to sit on my lap. I heard her gasped when I carry her and pin her back to the tree.

Napa hawak siya sa magkabilang pisngi ko at mas lalong pinalalim ang halikan namin.

We were getting on nuong narinig namin ang pag biglang kulog ng langit.

Sabay kaming napa tingin sa kalangitan. My heart is starting to pound on my chest to what I just realize.

Napamura ako ng paulit ulit sa loob loob ko.

Oh no no no..

I felt goosebumps all over my body when everything started to fade one by one..

Napalunok ako at agad hinanap ng mata ko si Mara. Agad ko siyang hinila sa tabi ko at niyakap ng mahigpit.

"I think, you need to let go, Bellarose.."

Mara said with a sweet smile on her beautiful face.

"We both know that we can't live like this. You can't lived like this.."

I shook my head pervently. Mas lalo ko pang hinigpitan ang yakap ko sakanya. Afraid that she will fade away into my arms.

No please. I don't want to go back where I can't remember everything about her..

"Come on.."

Hila ko sakanya sabay takbo sa malayo..

The sky is now angry, nagsisimula ng pumatak ang ulan.

"Bellarose! Stop running away! We can't run from this."

Mara stop my hand.

"We can! I don't want you to fade away. Kaya tara na! We need to run."

Natutupok na kami ng malakas na ulan.

"No. Just let it go, Bellarose. You can't lived like this. Hindi mo pwedeng iikot ang mundo mo dito sa panaginip mo."

My tears fell down my face. Mara smile at me, the kind of smile that means it's okay.

I let out a loud sigh. Nanghihinang napahawak ako sa tuhod ko at duon pumatak ang mga luha sa mata ko.

"I can't.."

Garalgal na turan ko.

"I can't lose you please.."

Mara pulled me for a tight hug.. I hug her back as tight as I could.

"Let go.. You need to go back.."

Madiing napa pikit ako ng mata as I let out all the pain..

"I-i love y-you, Mara. Ayokong kalimutan ka.."

I felt her caress my back and kiss my cheek.

"Maybe one day we'll find the place where our dreams and reality collide.."

She whispered.

"I love you. Always.."

Kunot noong napa tingin ako sa umuulang kalangitan.

Kumabog ng malakas ang puso ko ng mapagtantong boses yon ni Mara.

As I looked at her, wala na siya sa paligid.

No please! Please!

Napa luhod ako sa sobrang sakit at sumigaw hanggang sa mapaos ako kakasigaw ng pangalan niya.

Everything is now fading away, even me..

Then next thing I know, I'm staring at the white ceiling of an Hospital. There's a strain tears on my eyes as I felt my heart beats with nothingness.. I felt empty..

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Howling.

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Mara Santos. 

"Best are you sure you want to see this?"

I heard Violet whispered to me as my eyes only focus on that particular person who stole my married heart.

"Yes."

Maikling tugon ko, not minding looking at my worried best friend.

Nandito kami sa isang kwarto kung saan may isang malaking salamin sa harapan namin, where we can see and hear what was happening inside the room of Bellarose.

Bawat hiningang pinapakawalan ko, milyong milyong karayom ang tumutusok sa puso ko.

"Do you want to be alone?"

Violet asked, concerned. Isang tango lang ang naisagot ko dahil feeling ko may naka bara sa lalamunan ko ngayon.

Violet caress my back and left the room after.

The defeaning silence is killing me and ripping my heart apart.

My lips trembles when I saw her sat on her hospital bed with a smile on her lips when she sees the doctor in front of her.

The doctor is holding a chart while Bellarose is still wearing her hospital gown and I can't help but to see the blankness written on her eyes.

And I can't help my heart from crying..

"Hi, I'm doctor Kapta, you've been in an accident, do you mind if I ask you some questions?"

Bellarose replied with a curt nod.

"Okay, first do you know your name?"

"Yes."

Napalunok ako ng marinig ang boses niya. It's heavenly.

"Can you say that to me?"

Her doctor asked politely with a comforting smile on her lips.

"Bellarose Martinelli."

"Good, next question, do you know your parents name?"

"Yes. My mum's name is Rosemarie Martinelli, while my dad's name is Abel Martineli."

"Good. Now, for the next questions I will ask you, you'll just have to answer with yes or no then tell me what is your relation with them okay?"

Again, Bellarose nod.

Nagsimula na akong huminga ng mabilis at pinagpapawisan na ang mga palad ko dahil sa kaba.

"Hunter De Laurentis?"

"Yes, she's my best friend."

Kita kong tumango yung doctor. She looked down on her chart and I don't know but when Bellarose made contact with the glass that sepearate us, my heart beats so loud habang nararamdaman ko na naman ang pag porma ng mga luha sa mata ko.

"Carly Giordano?"

"Yes. She's my first love, my ex-girlfriend and ex-fiance."

Napasinghap ako ng malalim. I don't know why this hurt so bad..

"Sierra Gaston?"

"Yes. She's my ex-wife."

"What about, Miranda Santillian?"

With that question, I saw how Bellarose's eyes lighten up dahilan naman ng pag guho ng mundo ko.

"Yes. She's my stubborn friend."

"Okay, good progress.. Now, for my last question.."

Nanlamig ako bigla.

"Mara Santos?"

Napasinghap ako sa narinig. Nagsimula ng manginig ang buong katawan ko.

Bellarose knotted her eyebrows..

"No. I don't remember having any relation with that person named Mara Santos."

Nagsilaglagan na ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilang maka wala.

I bite my trembling lip as I put my hand on my mouth to suppress my sob.

Ang sakit sakit marinig. Damn.. At mas masakit malaman ang katotohanan.

"Oh. That would be all, thank you for your cooperation. You can leave whenever you want, your sister is waiting outside."

Truth hurts badly. God damn it!

"Do you mind if I wrote something in the mirror?"

I heard Bellarose asked. The doctor immediately say yes and handed her marker to Bellarose.

Kinuha niya iyong marker at ng makarating ito sa harapan ng salamin, hindi ko namalayang lumapit ako sa salamin at hinawakan ang kamay niyang naka daop sa mirror.

My lips are trembling as I sob quitely.

She started writing something on the mirror.

"I don't know why but my heart makes me write this. It's really weird I know."

She said out of nowhere. Pinagmasdan ko yung sinulat niya.

And I gasped upon seeing what she wrote on the mirror.

It says - Maybe one day we'll find the place where our dreams and reality collide.

"Is there anything you recall in your past?"

The doctor asked intently staring at Bellarose's back.

Naka tingin lang siya sa akin na parang alam ng puso niyang nandito lang ako sa harapan niya.

"No.. Nothing that I already know."

Kita kong tumango yung doctor at tumingin siya sakin at binigyan ako ng malungkot na ngiti.

I rested my forehead in the mirror at duon ko na pinakawalan lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Iniyak ko lang hanggang sa nakita ko siyang tinanggal yung kamay niya sa mirror at nagsimulang maglakad papunta sa pinto.

"No please.."

I whispered as I watch her leaving.

"Don't leave.. Please.. Bellarose!"

I hyterically screamed, calling for her as I storm out of the room to run after her.

Pero bago pa ako makarating sakanya, Violet's hand grab my wrist.

"Best please gusto ko lang siyang makita! Gusto ko lang siyang mayakap.."

Pilit kong inaalis ang kamay niya sa kamay ko pero mahigpit ang pagkakahawak niya dito at seryoso lang niyang pinagmamasdan ang lumuluha kong mukha.

"No. It can't be, Mara. Hindi ka niya pwedeng makita."

Pilit ko paring inaalis ang kamay niya.

"Please! I just want to see her! Kahit ilang segundo lang please best.. Sige na, let me go. Gusto ko lang siyang mayakap.."

Mariing iniling lang ni Violet ang ulo niya. I felt my anger building up. Hindi ba niya ako maintindihan?!

"Ano bang problema mo! Gusto ko lang siyang makita at mayakap! Hindi mo ba ako maintindihan?! Bitawan mo nga ako!"

Marahas na tinanggal ko ang kamay niya sa kamay ko at tatakbo na sana ako ng marahas akong hinilang muli ni Violet sa braso at paulit ulit na sinampal sa pisngi.

Napapasinghap ako at feeling ko nabibingi ako sa bawat pag sampal sakin ni Violet. Bawat sampal ay unti-unti kong na r-realize ang ginagawa ko.

"Oh s**t. Baby! That's enough."

Hunter intervene pero tinulak lang siya ni Violet at sinabing "Stay out of this, Hunter."

"At ikaw naman, nahihibang ka na ba ha?!"

Hinila ulit ako nito sa braso sabay sampal ng malakas sa pisngi ko.

I just sob in silent at hinayaang siyang pagsasampalin ako.

"Kahit anong ipilit natin, hindi na talaga pwede naiintindihan mo ba? Ito ang kapalit ng desisyon mo, Mara. Face the f*****g truth! Hindi mo na siyang pwedeng makita!"

Napa upo nalang ako sa panghihina ng tuhod at puso ko kakaiyak habang iniisip ang consequences ng nagawa ko.

The Doctor earlier, Dra. Kapta explain to me the consequences of what I want to do. And it broke me over and over again..

Because if she did see me again, pwedeng maulit ng maulit ang nangyari sakanya..

Kaya pala sinabi ni Violet na It's now or never..

What choice do I have? There's just one option.

Pinili ko ito. I chose to be selfless just for her to lived even if it broke me, even if I just died because of what I learned.

"Mahal na mahal ko siya best.. Mahal na mahal.."

Nilapitan ako ni Violet at niyakap.

"I know best. I know. Mahal na mahal ka rin niya. But you have to understand the fact that this is the reality. Her new reality. The reality where you and her never happened.."

I covered my face with my palm.. All the memories I have with her will only remain in my mind..

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Violet Santini-De Laurentis.

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"You don't have to say all those things to her you know."

Hunter said coldly habang nasa sasakyan kami pauwi.

"I have to."

Maikling tugon ko habang naka tingin sa labas ng bintana.

Alam ko naman na sumobra ako kanina sa best friend ko but I have to do what I had to do in order for her not to get hurt again and again.

I'm just saving her for her possible heartbreak.

"She knows that already. She just want to see her. I think you know how that feels like."

Natahimik ako sa sinabi ng asawa ko. Napa pikit ako sabay ng pag buntong hininga.

"I'm sorry baby. I'm just concern about my best friend."

Hunter let out a loud sigh.

"Let's not talk about this."

Hinayaan ko muna ang isa't-isa saming makapaghupa ng inis.

Alam ko kapag ganitong naiinis si Hunter, dapat lang munang humupa ito dahil baka mag away lang kami.

It happened once and I don't want that to happen again.

Masyadong masakit sa puso.

Pag dating namin sa bahay namin dito sa Washington DC. Hindi ko na muna kinausap si Hunter hanggang sa naka ligo na ako at nakahiga na sa kama namin.

Mabuti nalang at tulog na mga anak namin, inaalagaan muna sila nila Venus at Helena kanina habang nasa hospital kami.

Pumikit ako nang naramdaman kong lumindo ang kama at yun naman ang pag tabi ni Hunter sakin.

"Hey,"

Hinimas niya yung tyan ko, obviously trying to wake me up.

"Hmm?"

Tipid na sagot ko. Not minding to open my eyes.

"I'm sorry about earlier baby.."

Hunter said softly tsaka ako malambing na hinalikan sa labi. Hmp! Nagtatampo parin ako.

Hindi ko parin siya kinikibo. Hmp!

Napatili nalang ako ng pumatong ito sa ibabaw ko kasunod ng pag atake nito ng halik sa labi ko. Making me moan her name.

"I love you."

She whispered while staring intently at my eyes.

"Hindi dapat ako umakto ng ganon. I'm sorry. It just that, I felt bad for Mara and Bellarose. You know how I love the idea of them being together again. I guess, naiinis ako sa mga nangyayari. Bakit kailangan nilang pagdaanan yung mga ganoong bagay. They deserve each other. I can feel Mara's pain earlier, that's why I acted that way. I'm sorry Misis ko."

I offer her a small smile as I caress her soft cheek. Mahal na mahal ko talaga itong dominant kong asawa.

"Apology accepted.."

I lean in and planted a sweet kiss on her lips.

"Maybe someday, they will find their way to each other again. We can never tell baby. Tignan mo nga yung satin dati, pilit tayong pinaghihiwalay pero sa huli tayo parin, we find the way to each others heart again."

Tuluyan ng napangiti si Hunter. Kapag ngumingiti siya ng ganito, palagi niya paring pinapasaya ang puso ko.

"You're right. Aasa parin ako na one day, they will have what we have right now."

"Like s*x?"

Natatawang pahayag ko. Hunter wiggle her eyebrows. Oh no, kapag ganito na, nasa mood na siyang makipag s*x sakin.

"Let's forget about them for awhile and let's have that making love thingy."

Wala na akong nagawa at tuluyan na akong napatili ng marahas na binaba nito ang nighties na suot ko.

We were laughing habang naghihilaan kami sa damit ko.

I like to tease her like this..

"No, let's sleep, Hunter."

Nangingiting umiling-iling ito sakin.

"Not gonna happen, wifey."

Tuluyan na akong napatili ng bigla niyang sinira ang damit ko. Natatawa ko siyang tinampal sa pisngi.

"Too eager as always."

I said laughing. I then kissed her sinful lips passionately deep and long.

"I'm sorry, I still can't help it."

I only rolled my eyes at her as we made love all night long.. 

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