I had a hard time sleeping last night but Calix quickly fell asleep while hugging me. I only slept for about three hours. Binabagabag ako ng mga nangyari kahapon, ng lahat ng sinabi niya. Mula nang magising ako kanina, habang naliligo, at hanggang ngayong naghihintay na magising ito, ang mga iyon lang ang pabalik-balik sa isipan ko.
He fell asleep so peacefully, as if a huge weight has been taken off of his chest. Siguro mas naging magaan na ang pakiramdam niya dahil naisabi niya na ang dating inililihim niya sakin. He had this overwhelming joy emanating from him that I couldn’t really explain. He just looks really happy.
But unlike him, everything that he said only added to the weight that I have been carrying with me since all of this happened.
I don’t hate him being with me. I don
