19 – To Get Back
Alexander’s Point of View
‘Ginamit lang kita.’
Her words rang in my head like a radio on repeat. Kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi ko ito magawang kalimutan. And every time I hear about it, mas lalong tumitindi ang inis na nararamdaman ko. I refuse to believe her but there’s also a chance she was telling the truth.
And that possibility irks the hell out of me.
Ako, ginamit niya? Ako?!
Naikuyom ko na lang ang kamay ko habang nagmamaneho ako pauwi ng condo. Hindi ko mapigilang mairita. I felt like I was the victim of my own scheme.
“It’s impossible, Alexander,” sambit ko sa sarili ko. “Girls like her don’t think like that,” dagdag ko pa. Para na akong baliw dahil nakikipag-usap ako sa sarili ko. Pero wala, eh, wala naman akong mapagsabihan. If I tell my friends about it,
