Lavender

Chapter 22 - Pissed

LAVENDER'S POV

I gulped, feeling my heart racing inside my chest as my eyes are staring back at Damon's grey ones. I don't know why I can't move my body as if it has its own mind and betraying me to stay still below Damon's hot body. 

Damon is a man who's six feet taller and I've seen his body just wearing a sleeveless tee-shirt, making me see how ripped his body that he's hiding with his business suit. And now that he's on top of me, I don't even know what to say. I want to get far away from him but I can't even utter a word as I can't also breathe properly. Damon's intense stare continues to stare back until I saw his eyes moving lower at my lips.

I feel slightly suffocated because of Damon's intense stare but what made my heart stop is the smile that curved in Damon's lips. It's the first time that I saw Damon has this genuine smile like what he's showing at me now and because of that, memories of him back then flash in my mind. 

The memory of him whenever he got his basketball team a score. The memory of him being smiley to anyone back then. Because of the genuine smile he's showing at me right now, I remember the Damon I noticed way back in our junior high school. 

I can't blame Jada, my best friend, for having a big crush on Damon back then as Damon is not that hard to like. Aside from being handsome, I noticed that Damon is someone who is approachable and friendly back then. Only that many things happened to change this guy who's actually a nice person before life became unfair to him and his sister.

"You are still beautiful, Lavender," he said that made my heart beats crazily again. 

I can feel my cheeks getting hot just because of those five words he said. And my heart, I can't stop my heart feeling it beat faster and it's all because of him. Because of Damon who is now getting near and near to me. I don't want to assume that he is planning to kiss me but damn.

"P-please..." f**k! Say a word, Lavender!  I must stop him from doing what he's planning to do. 

"Please what, Lavender?" he said as his grey-colored eyes glance back to my eyes.

Damn it! Why does he have to ask? Isn't our position right now not uncomfortable to him because it is, to me. I'm really confused at the same time, shock. I don't know what is with Damon to be really near like only inches away to me. He's like not Damon who is intimidating when I met him again on his own company. 

"C-can you..." I cleared my throat silently as I put my hand to Damon's chest and slightly nudge him to make some distance but Damon being weird right now, he noticed what I'm doing and so, he put his right hand in the side of my head, locking me more below him. 

"Ca-can you please move away? I don't want to hurt you, Damon but if you---" I stopped talking when suddenly, I smell a stench of alcohol coming from him, coming from Damon's breath that is touching my skin. 

Damn it! He's drunk. But why? I sighed. Trying to calm my system from the mixed nervousness and excitement I've felt since Damon appeared here in the library. I slightly try to push him again because I really feel uncomfortable right now. Because of what happening right now, what Larry said keeps ringing in my head, about Damon being dominant. And because Damon is on top of me, I can't stop the tingling sensation I'm feeling in between my thighs, making me more embarrassed for feeling this way. 

But this must be stopped. I can't have Damon as someone I'm attracted to again. I'm also starting to like his sister, making it more inappropriate as it seems for me as I'm just a caregiver even though I'm trying to be friends with Daisy. 

"Da-damon, you're drunk. I want to talk about your sister but---"

"I don't care about my sister, Lavender. You're the one I only see right now," he said, his grey eyes suddenly hooded with a hunger that I see from him for the first time. 

D-damn! "But, Damo---"

"Silence," he said before lowering his head and kissed me, on my f*****g lips as he closes his eyes while I can feel my eyes bulging out of sockets. 

I feel like the time stopped around us and that everything became blurry as I feel Damon's lips continue to move in mine, and just like what Larry said, I feel dominated. Dominated by Damon and his hot and ripped body against mine. 

I don't know what's gotten into me but I was so compelled. His kiss is extremely intoxicating that I clung my arms around his neck as I try to move my lips in sync with him. Oh, god! Damon tastes so good even if the alcohol he drank stayed in his mouth. 

Oh, f**k! Why do his lips feel so good and delicious? Every move of his mouth feels like it's making me give in too. I feel like I'm getting drunk too as I continue to taste him just like what I feel he is doing to me. 

And aside from his lips, I can feel Damon moving his right hand in my abdomen trying to enter my white tee shirt until he successfully inserted his right hand inside my tee shirt and immediately cupped my aching curved mounds with his calloused and hot like fire hands of his.

D-damn! What is Damon doing to me? I can't help feeling more turn-on as Damon continues to play with buds, feeling him fondle together with his fingers on my taut bud which made me moan as I feel my body getting hot.  

Until Damon left my lips to go in my neck and bit a part of my skin. "f**k it, Lavender. I want you," Damon said that made me feel like water just thrown in me. 

"N-no..." I shake my head before pushing Damon, exerting force as I realized how intimate we have made. 

Damon was like a wall that I can't move but feeling embarrassed and angry, I push Damon off of me, making him fall to the wooden floor of the library with a loud thud. Before Damon can even get up again, I stood up and looked at him.

"I-I hate you!" I said, still feeling my heart race because of excitement that doesn't even subside in my body. 

I'm still f*****g turn-on for Pete's sake but I can let Damon do what he wants to me. Even if I admit that I like his way into me, it's still inappropriate. Aside from being drunk, he's still my employer and I can't mix work with love or s*x. It's not right with Damon and Daisy that's why even if I liked Daisy in a different way, I'm okay with hiding my feelings for her as I don't think that my s****l orientation being bisexual matters being a caregiver here. 

So before Damon can even look at me, I immediately ran out of the library. I run and run, around the mansion just to get far away from the library until I reached the garden where Daisy planted seeds. I walked slowly as I entered the entrance of Daisy's garden where we anyone can see the sea here. 

Still feeling my heart beating crazily, I sat down on a wooden chair facing the view of the sea from here in the garden. I can feel my body sweating but I neglected as what important at this moment is what will happen tomorrow. 

But whatever happens tomorrow, I don't care. I will stay f*****g mad, even if I ended being fired or not. I feel conflicted but I won't let this feeling get ahead of what is right. I want to stay here even if Damon and I will end up being awkward to each other if he ever thought that he made a mistake and that he should be sorry but if he's dickhead who happens to want s*x with his employee without feeling conscience, then I will be more happy to leave his mansion. 

I also remembered what he said before he kissed me earlier. It's like he doesn't give a damn about his sister, Daisy, that is really making me more mad. Damn that i***t! I should have given him a slap for putting me in this place where I'm so conflicted because of what just happened. 

I don't know what to do anymore. I admit that I've acted a w***e back there for answering Damon's kiss but it just made me realize how I'm still attracted to him. I have already said that I don't want to feel anything towards Damon but what just happened only brings back the times that I am so attracted to him and that my imagination of what Larry said about Damon being dominant keeps replaying in my head. 

"f**k! Get out of my head!" I hissed before gritting my teeth as I fist my knuckles. 

"Lavender?" someone suddenly said and when I turned to know who it is, my heart instantly beat again, seeing that it's Damon who is looking at me with his serious gaze and cold appearance. 

"What?!" I said and stand up from sitting before turning my body to Damon and faced him. "Don't talk to me if you are still drunk, Damon. I don't care if you are my employer but what you did is something out of the line. You kissed me!"

Damon shrugs his shoulders while both of his hands are inside the pockets of his slack pants, making me grit my teeth as I feel the urge to punch him. 

"You liked the kiss, Lavender. Don't deny it," he said before smirking like an evil character who came out of a book again. 

"Damn you! Even if I liked the kiss, Damon! You shouldn't have done it! I'm your f*****g employee and you are my boss! Do you know how inappropriate it feels, huh? You are my f*****g boss, Damon!" I said, really pissed. 

God knows how hard I'm trying to stop myself from punching but what made me shocked is when Damon suddenly passed out in front of me, making me squealed in shock. Damon's body was lying flat in the dirt, making me panic. 

"Oh, s**t! Damon?" I said, feeling nervous as the thought of bringing him to his room is troublesome. 

He is such a big guy for Pete's sake.                                                                                                                              

STILL pissed, I continue to not look or even get near Damo as I can still remember what just happened last night. Even if we can't avoid facing each other as we are both facing each other while in front of our breakfasts, I stayed my eyes on my food. Not wanting to look at Damon because I f*****g hate him.

Like how dare he?! He said that he needs my help reconnecting with his sister but what he did last night is damn making me angry. Getting his self drunk then drunk-kissing me and saying he doesn't care about what I'm trying to say, maybe I should have wait for him some other time to talk. A perfect time where he is not drunk and he is in the right mind to think about what he's doing and saying.

Grrr! Still feeling more pissed, I continue to eat, not even leaving my eyes on my food as I want to leave the dining now, right now. I eat, slicing the bacon and munching it much faster than I usually do because I love bacon and I usually savor.

God, I think I want to eat bacon later again. Once that Damon goes to work with Larry who's silent right now which is unusual, I will surely eat all of the bacon left.