My Not So Forbidden Love

CHAPTER 6. True Feelings

ANDREW'S POV

I sat alone on the balcony while pouring myself some whisky. The sight from up here is so peaceful with the amazing lights twinkling like a star around the city. I left Therese in my room already sleeping. I just can't bring myself to sleep, I was troubled about the dinner topic earlier about Sarah. I really can't help myself from being anxious, about how suddenly she decided to date a guy. It's not that I want to stop her from doing so, but I don't know. Fvck! I can't be thinking this way, she's a family.

"You can't look at your sister that way my son," I remembered dad's words when he caught me staring at Sarah.

That day was her school prom, she's wearing a backless sparkling navy blue gown showing her smooth bareback where her long curled hair bouncing beautifully. Her face with light make up looks so angelic and innocent as always. Her eyes, nose, and plump lips made me forget that she is my sister.

I never thought that she'll grow up like this so alluring. The cute little sweet, fragile girl before is now the ever sweet, innocent, and beautiful lady and I don't want any other man around my little sweet. Except for Peter, because I know he has no chance because Sarah doesn't like him.

But that young varsity boy? How badly I want to crumple that young man and bury him six feet under just by thinking about it. I gulped the liquor I am holding, thinking about it is making me furious.

I tried to distract my emotion towards my sister, I dated random girls, I even introduced them to her just to make myself believe that I will never be attracted to her, but it seems like I'm just making myself a fool.

Until Therese came, she's the only one who stayed with me this long. She is different, she never gets jealous of Sarah not like the others. She also treats her like how I am to her, she sees Sarah as a sister. But for me, she's more, the worst way.

I never knew my thoughts were too deep that I didn't get to notice my mother's presence. She is sitting beside me. Looking at me smiling with her tender eyes.

"Mom, why are you still up? You should be sleeping by now."

"Well, I got it from you, I can't sleep because I was bothered about something." She said, smiling.

"You don't have to bother yourself too much my son. It'll only cause you more confusion." She added while she caresses the small of my back with her soft warm hand. I don't know if she knew what I was thinking, but I just smiled back at her.

"I love the way you are being so protective of her and I want you to keep on doing that till the rest of your life." She started.

"We both know that even our little sweetie is as fragile as a flower, she also grew up smart and sharp. So don't worry too much and just trust her." She explained, smiling, looking ahead of the city lights, while I held myself quiet listening to her.

"And we're always here to support her, right? We always got her back." I only nodded, not sure if I should agree.

"And I'm here to support you as well. Everything will eventually come to the right places when the perfect time comes." She said with amusement in her eyes that is now looking at me but before I was able to respond, she stood up and left me astonished by her words.

After a while, I decided to go back inside my room, and I saw Therese awake, sitting on the edge of the bed. She's wearing soft pink silk lingerie that shows each of her perfectly built curves. Her cleavage, her smooth thighs. No man can ever deny this beauty in front of me, which is a good distraction for me.

I walked closer to her and leaned forward to kiss her, but she stopped me.

"Why?" I asked.

"Where have you been?" She questioned me back.

"I just needed some fresh air," I said, caressing her smooth slender legs up to her thighs.

"There is something that I want to tell you." She opened up.

"What is it?" I look at her waiting for her to continue.

"I will not be staying here for long." She started.

"There's this project that I wanted so bad where I auditioned." She announced with so much joy in her eyes.

"Okay, so you got it?" I asked but was not surprised. I'm used to this kind of conversation with her actually.

"Yes! I got the lead role! Before my flight back here I got an email from one of the producers!" She let out excitedly, while I'm starting to trace my fingers to her neck down to her shoulders.

"Congratulations!" I said and kissed her roughly, I bit her lower lip to give me access to her mouth which she allows. Then I started to caress her full mold with my hand while the other was on the back of her neck pulling her more to me. She moaned with pleasure, but when I'm about to lay her in bed, she pulled away again. I stopped and looked at her in disbelief.

"There is still something that I need to tell you." She said while catching her breath.

"Tell me."

"You know that I love you, right?" I just nodded.

"But I guess we need to end this now." She uttered.

"End? What?" I know what she means by that, but out of curiosity I still asked.

I met Therese at my colleague's party, she looked so stunning in her gold sparkling long gown with a high slit showing off her smooth long legs. We danced and talked all night, we made out until we ended up in her apartment.

She's a performer and dreamed of performing on one of the popular Broadway stages in London one day and playing a lead role. Just this year she's been invited to play a role in Westminster, that is why she left and lived there alone for six months. I never really imagined that we can get this far with our relationship.

"You know how badly I want to live with my dream right? And this is it! Finally and I just can't let it slip away." I just nodded as I didn't know what to say and just rolled to sit up beside her trying to listen.

"I don't know when I'll be coming back or even not sure if I could soon. I just can't leave you hanging waiting for me, I also want you to be happy" She continued looking down.

"I understand."

"I know you always will. Thanks!" She exclaimed, cupping my face with her hands and pressed her lips to mine.

"But, just let me pleasure you while I'm still here." She said enticingly while kneeling to bed pulling down my trousers.

"Yes. Baby please." I groaned as she started to do her tricks.