LUCIA
After our failed attempt to spend the night together , Joshua has almost completely stayed away from me , I have not seen him for days , not even for a single minute , the only way to know that he is still alive is through the few short text messages he has sent me a couple of times per day.
The situation has become unbearable for me , I feel confused and lost most of the time , I also feel annoyed that I let this situation affect me so much , and even the planning of Joshua's birthday party has not helped calm a bit my anxiety , if something has done is increase it.
I don't know what else I can do to fix this situation , to fix our relationship , he doesn't want to talk to me , he doesn't want to tell me what is happening to him , I don't know if it is because he does
