The forbidden alpha queen

What About The Pull

VICTORIA’S POV

After being forced to turn, I needed some time alone to recover. I needed some time to feel like myself again, every time after turning felt like my wolf still had some kind of control over me and everything else that I dif. The last thing needed right now was having this wolf control anything that I did. I was still trying to keep some of the things about me to myself because I didn’t see a reason to tell anyone anything yet but having my wolf lingering was certainly a threat to that secrecy.

Turning always took a toll on me, and the worst part was that I had turned because I felt like my safety was being compromised. I didn’t really have any control over my wolf and that is why he always turned up when he felt like our safety was being threatened. He was like anniversary protective boyfriend or brother that I never got to meet

I had a love-hate relationship with my wolf, but I couldn’t deny the fact that he had my best interests at heart. His main priority was to keep me safe just as mine was. My wolf had done a good job in keeping me safe and the inly time I can say that he had failed me was when James threw me off the cliff. However this wasn’t something that I could bold against my wolf because there was much he could do because he had been suppressed for so long especially around James. Now I could understand why James never encouraged me training, he always knew that the greatest threat to what he was trying to do and achieve was my wolf. He was trying hard to make sure he supresses mh wolf and I never find the strength to fight and stand for myself. Of course I didn’t understand it or see it then but hoe I could and I wished I had noticed it back then

I had often wondered how this mate thing would work for me since my wolf was a male but James explained to me that in my case my wolf would have nothing to do with me being with my mate. He said I was one of the lucky wolves who could get to choose who I could be with. I guess that is why it was easy for my own mate to reject and betray me. He knew that I wouldn’t feel that hurt when he chose the position that James offered him over me.

I could literally just follow my heart and be with whoever made me happy, but that was also a disadvantage for me. I didn’t know the first thing about being a common wolf, I had grown up as a royal wolf and a king and now I was supposed to just ease myself into living a life of a regular girl. So how could I be expected to wisely choose who was best for me.

If not for my wolf, I would have probably been able to forge a new identity for myself, but unfortunately, I could never be separated from him. This was something that bothered me sometimes, but at times, It also gave me a sense of belonging

I felt like my wolf would always be by my side, and I knew that no matter how tough things got for me, I could trust him to take control and still look out for me. At this point, I already knew that I was Damien’s mate. He hadn’t said it to me, but I could sense it even when he touched me. Having a male wolf didn’t mean that I couldn’t find the mate pull when it was there. It just meant that I responded to it differently.

I knew that he would have a lot of questions for me, and I still wasn’t ready to answer them. I was hoping that he would just avoid me altogether, but I knew that was probably not going to happen. When I woke up the following morning, he was sitting on the ottoman watching me. I was a little taken aback and caught off guard by that, I wondered how long he had been sitting there and watching me. Did he not think that was weird behaviour? Or was this a normal thing for him? And this was how he generally treated strangers that he didn’t trust?

“Morning,” I said awkwardly as I tried not to show I was freaked out. He just stared at me and said nothing, I couldn’t understand how he could not see that this was creepy. Was this a normal occurrence out here or was I just so used to being served and evry9ne around me needing the permission to even breathe

“Is this how you guys treat guests?” I asked him

“This is not how we treat guests where-“ I stopped talking realizing that I had just almost dug myself a deeper grave”

“You are not a guest, I am under the impression that you intend on making this place your new home,” he said, I was praying he wouldn’t bring my past up in this conversation again

“and I am glad you are so talkative because you are making it clear to me and everyone else that you lied” he said “I already told you that you need to be upfront and honest if you ate to stay here. Unless of course you don’t ned a place to stay anymore” he said

“I didn’t lie to anyone, I don’t understand why you keep insisting that I did when I have barely said anything about myself. You think I have lied to you because I haven’t told you what you want to hear and I really can’t tell you what you want to hear because its not real” I said

“and what do you think I want to hear from you?” he asked med

"isn’t it obvious?” I asked him

“no. Please tell me what you think” he said “tell me what you think, I want you to say?’ he said

“I think you want me to tell you where I am from, I think you have convinced yourself that I am from some kind of mysterious land but I am not okay” I said

“but how do you known that if you don’t remember anything?” he asked me

“You asked me what I think you Wang to hear from me and this is what I think. So I didn’t understand why you are acting lime what I am saying is not what you are thinking and hoping I can say” I said

“let’s just cut to the chase, do you need a place to lay your glad?” I asked her

“yes, I would love to stay here”

“Then you will live by my rules. I don’t care who you were or who you are where you come from, but here I run things” he said, marking his territory.

“I ate rules every importantly and if you want to get along with me or anyone else here you will have to listen and adhere to the rules that have been placed. They are not to keep you under control but mostly to keep you safe. If you at any point feel like you don’t want tobe here you can feel free to leave. I will never hold you hostage because you are not kuchjof a benefit to me” he aaid and I swallo4rd yard.

“Okay”

“Good, I will stop asking you questions because you have made it clear that you do not intend to share. However, if anyone comes here looking for you or demanding that we release you to them, I will hand you over because I don’t know what unfinished business you have” he said

“Okay,” I said once more, I prayed silently that no one would ever come here and demand that I be handed over to them because j didn’t doubt for a second that Damien would do just as he had said

“I am still deciding on what role suits you, I will call you to my office when I decide,” he said as he got up and was about to head out the door but I cleared my throat to get his attention he stopped and looked back at me.

‘What!?”

“So are you just going to pretend you can’t feel anything?” I couldn’t help asking

“Fell what?” he asked me, seemingly confused by my question

“The…pull” I felt so stupid now that I was pointing it out to him. I felt even more stupid knowing that I didn’t have to point it out. I don’t even know why I was choosing to ask him that.

“What do you expect me to do? Forget that you are a stranger who refuses to tell me anything and accept you as my new mate?” he asked me

“I mean, I thought you would a-“ he cut me off

“This is not my first time okay, I understand if it’s your first and I know how hard it is to ignore the chemistry but you better ignore it until I break this mate bond,” he said as he walked out.

His intentions of breaking the mate bond caught me by surprise. I never thought he would want to break the mate bond when he could feel how strong the pull was. Was it because he was intimidated by my wolf? I felt like crying, but why? It’s not like I was attracted to him. It’s not like I was dying to be in his arms. He was a very strong and attractive man but I wasn’t attached to him. I couldn’t even picture myself being anything other than his king. I couldn’t even picture myself submitting to him as his subject, let alone his obedient mate. Who the f**k did he think he was to reject me and act like he was better off without me?

The more I thought about this the angrier I became. I felt so disrespected and disregarded by him