Second Chances

Morning Confessions

Sara's Pov:

I woke up feeling safe and warm for the first time in a while I didn't have a single nightmare. "So comfy", I mumble snuggling closer to the warmth. "Glad you think so", I hear someone chuckle and feel arms wrap tighter around me. I feel slight panic as look up to see who's holding me. I look up and see it's just Evan holding me and I start to relax into him again laying my head on his chest. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to frighten you", Evan says running his fingers through my hair. 

"You don't have to apologize it's not your fault I just didn't realize it was at first", I explain wishing I wasn't so skittish around my own mate. "You know I wasn't always like this you know", I tell him wishing I was the same person I was before my mom died. "You don't have to explain if your not ready", He says as I sit up looking into his eyes. "I know and your right I'm not ready to talk about her yet it still hurts she's gone", I tell him fighting back the tears. 

"I Can't say I know exactly how you feel but I do know the pain of losing a parent", He says making me look back up at him. "I know you've probably heard the rumors about me", He says. "Evan you don't have to tell me and as for rumors yes I have heard them people talk but not everything they say is true", I tell him. "Yeah but sometimes they are and I'd rather tell you now and get the rejection over before I fall for you even harder than what I have I already", He says. 

"I was so excited that day I had been gone from home for a good while training to become alpha it was even more special cause I was coming home on my best friend's birthday", He says smiling slightly. I would be there when Max found his mate", He explains further. "what about Mia you were friends with her too right", I ask him curiously. "Yeah she was the sister I never had", He says getting a faraway look in his eyes. " I turned eighteen six months before them so I had already found my mate", he says shocking me.

"You're my second chance mate", he says still looking away from me. "Mia was your first wasn't she", I ask already knowing the answer. "Yes she was but even when I found out she was my mate it didn't feel the way it does with you don't get me wrong I loved her than the same way I do now as a sister which is why I planned to reject her just not in the way it happened", he says looking down at the ground.

"I was on my way to their party when I caught a scent I didn't recognize so followed my dad told me never go after someone alone always have backup with you but I wanted to prove myself plus it was only one scent and I was an alpha's son next in line", he explains. "So you went alone didn't you", I ask him making him nod. "Yeah and it was the dumbest thing I could have done", He sighs running a hand through his hair.

"I followed the scent for about an hour before finding its owner a witch named Sydney", he tells me. "I had just shifted back and was about to ask her what she wanted when I realized I couldn't move she had managed to paralyze me", he says "I thought she was gonna kill me sometimes I wish she would have", He says getting that far away look in his eyes again. "Please don't say that", I tell him taking his hand in mine causing him to look at me. "I don't know what spell she did but it was like I was locked up in darkness next thing I knew I was cell being accused of multiple crimes", He tells me. "At first I didn't remember anything I was confused but then all the horrible things I did started coming back", he explains.

"I rejected Mia on her birthday put her in immense pain not only physical but mentally too, I slept with her best friend both willingly and forcefully, I terrorized my pack for months and caused my mother not only the pain of losing her mate but the pain of having to watch her own son kill his own father", he confesses with tears streaming down his face. 

"Evan", I say trying to get his attention as he sits there looking at the wall in shame. "Evan look at me please", I try again as he continues to still look away. I put both my hands on each side of his face turning his head to look at me. "What happened was not your fault you were under a spell you weren't in control of your actions I'm not going to reject you I haven't known you that long but I can tell your not evil and if it hadn't been for that spell you would have never done all those things", I tell him as he just stares at me. All at once, he wraps his arms around me burying his face in my neck I feel his tears on my shoulder as he lets his grief and guilt out.

"It's gonna be okay", I tell him I rub circles on his back till he calms down both Caroline and I hate seeing him hurt like this but we both know he needs to let it out. "I don't deserve you", He says pulling away from me. I start to say something but before I can he continues. "But I'm glad I have you your my second chance at happiness", He says smiling at me.

I don't know what came over me but I leaned forward kissing him on lips, I feel his arms wrap around me as mine go around his neck playing with his hair. Then suddenly his phone beeped startling me I jump away embarrassed and run into my bathroom I hear him laugh as I close the door behind me.

I can't believe I just did that I think to myself the feeling of kissing him still lingering on my lips I can't help but smile. When I woke up this morning I didn't expect to kiss my mate nor did I expect him to tell me his story but I meant every word I told I don't plan on rejecting him because of his past. I know some people will think I'm crazy for staying with him because of the things he did but I don't care what they say. No matter what he is still my mate and will be unless he rejects me when I tell him my story and I don't mean what happened with Trey I still need to talk to him about that. 

I open my and see Evan has left the room I head to my closet and grab some and go back to the bathroom ready to shower and get ready for the day.