God I feel awful. My head hurts and I know my face is all blotch again. These nightmares or dreams I keep having are totally screwing with my head and my heart. I don’t know how much I can take with it all.
Somehow it all felt so real this morning, I dreamt Dale was here for breakfast with all the family and he remembered me and more importantly he remember Abi. God it felt so real. We sat and talked upstairs after eating and he apologised for everything. Not that by of it was really his fault it was an accident but he still felt guilty. It was all in my dram though.
Now I have to face the day, well try to face the day knowing it never happened. I’ll put a brave face on like I have been for the past month. I know I should really open up to someone but it just hurts too much.
As I lay he
