Deep down I knew Antonio could never love me as I wanted, I accepted that but it didn't suppress the hurt in my heart. The regret I feel for the day I almost let those words slip out my mouth continued to grow as the days passed, with no sign on Antonio. I waited up every night for him in his bed but would fall asleep and wake up alone. Eventually, the thought of him bringing another girl passed through my head and I was unable to bear the pain of seeing it with my own eyes, so I moved back to my room. Loneliness started to consume me, and I let it eat away at me. I wallowed in self-pity on how my life never went how I wanted. I tried texting Dr. Hersheys about dog sitting but even he wouldn't respond. I was left completely alone, again. I tried to shake myself out of my downward spiral in
