I spent the next few days in my room, not eating and not going to practice. The first day the girls came to my room but I just ignored them so they left and didn't come back. Someone came with food every now and then but I just ignored them and if they tried to come close I would just growl at them. Ellen once came in the room trying to talk to me but I just rolled over in bed and looked at the wall, she soon got the message and left. Bailey came three times I think but she always had food but she tried to talk to me but I was just hurting too much. My head was spinning, my heart was breaking all over again and my body was giving up. I could feel my heart hurting so much, it felt like it was ripping apart. I see him every time I close my eyes, I can not see his face but I can see him. I he
