(Beckett)
Walking out of that room yesterday and leaving Elodie behind had to be one of the hardest f*****g things I have ever done.
I was trying to keep my distance. Needing to get my s**t under control and learn some f*****g boundaries but damn is it hard.
Yeah, I might not have snuck into her room last night, but I still waited outside of the building, staring up at her window and waiting for that small lamp to click off.
The worst part of it all was that she wanted me to come. I know she did. But I knew if I would've stepped a single foot into that room, it would be over. Elodie would see the type of s**t I warned her about and who knows what would happen if she realizes I'm too f****d in the head for her. I can't just give her up. That's why I plan on easing her into this.
So I
