(10) Regrets

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REGRETS I've made mistakes in life and I regret some The worst was choosing friends and people around me I'm a loner I must admit, like a lone wolf my life still rolls I fake my happiness until it becomes obvious I might be happy but deep down I'm hurting I might be smiling but deep down I'm frowning Some don't really understand me and they'll never will Even the closest people I call friends know nothing I laugh to fool them around but I really know what I want I make mistakes and they blame me, but the worst was choosing them I don't do revenge that's why I let go of things that make me sad I replace them with a fake smile, reassuring them of my wellbeing I might be in a company but I'm alone I might be smiling with them but I'm regretting Reasons behind me still keeping them is something I only know I make them believe I'm okay to avoid those weird questions I no longer trust anyone even myself sometimes So I see no need to give someone my trust I did that not once but many times and they failed me a big time A loner never believes in fake company @laizah ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Lisa's life had taken a different course drastically, her life was proving to be happy and she was contented with that. Her love for Adrian was growing day by day and it was the most beautiful thing she's ever had. It was six month after she said yes to Adrian, everything seemed like a dream to her but it was the reality from the outside. Adrian was doing anything possible to make her happy, everyone in around the campus knew about their relationship, it was like her dream come true. Lesley on the other hand was not happy for her. Despite smiling and assuring her of how happy she was for her, deep down she was hurting, she was wondering why Lisa got all the good men she ever wanted. First was Tyler and now Adrian and not just that even Aiden whom she thought would throw a glance at her ,proved otherwise, everyone was after Lisa. Whatever she had that made boys to flow around her and fail to recognize her presence was so nauseating to her. She remembered one time when they were leisurely walking from the University compound towards the gate,she encountered such an embarrassing moment of her life. They were approached by a guy who seemed to be interested in Lisa,the guy knew Lesley well since they were both in the school drama team. "Hey Les?" "Hey Barry, w*****p?" "Nothing much can I talk to your pretty friend over here for a sec?" She only nodded to him and allowed Lisa and Barry to catch up as she followed closely behind,she was dying of anger and wanted to do something about it. Lisa all along thought her friend was happy for her but nonetheless it was what she ever wanted ,a perfect relationship for herself. It was almost the end of the semester and as it was her norm,Lisa occasionally travelled home to go see her granny before she settled down for her exams and then later break for the long holidays. It was just a few more months before she finally started her third year, time was really flying. As for Adrian he was a happy guy, having found his perfect match and the girl of his dreams he was delighted. It was on a Thursday night ,the night before she travelled back to her home in kisumu the following day. Lisa spent the night at Adrian's place so it would be easy to catch a bus to her home. Since it was a hard task finding a bus to kisumu straight from Narok, Lisa had booked an early bus which was to depart at exactly 4:30AM in the morning. The night was long for her, they spent the better part of it cuddling and making jokes, after making love for at least two hours, they finally got some time to rest. Lisa was woken up by Adrian at 4, she took her shower and Adrian took her to the bus station, made sure she has boarded and he went back to his house. Lisa left her house keys to Les, she trusted her with her house. Lisa arrived in kisumu at around eight. Her home was quite far from town, so she opted to go to the mall first then take a cab to her home She shopped some few household items for her grandma then proceeded to take a cab to her home. Milimani estates was not far from town so after a few minutes of drive they finally reached the gate. She paid for the cab and opened the gate. She knocked on the door and the house help opened. Maria was their childhood maid back then since they were, kids even after their dad died Maria still retained her work as their house help and her grandma moved in to stay with them. "Wow, what's surprise, Lisa you home" Maria said happily as she hugged Lisa who in turn hugged her for long, she loved Maria, Maria was always there for her after her mom left them,she was like a mother figure to her. " Yes Maria I'm home, I decided to pay you a surprise visit, and you know we are almost coming home for long holiday season" "Maria who is at the door?" Lisa's grandma asked and immediately she saw Lisa, she smiled. Lisa ran up to where she was and gave her a mighty hug. "Hey grandma I missed you" "I missed you more princess, how you doing?" "I'm good grandma, I decided to pay you a visit before I start my exams" "That's good princess, your brother also closed schools and he's back, I think he's in his room" Before Lisa could answer, Roy came downstairs looking all happy and ran to meet his sister. "Hey sissy I missed you" He said as he hugged her "I missed you too little brother, hows school?" "School's fine and guess what?" "What!? Tell me you know I'm not good at guessing" "Of course you never are, I improved in my exams, I had an A minus " "Wow congrats brother, I hope Ray won't forget to take us for that trip once I'm back" "I hope so too" "Ray ,bring your sister something from the kitchen, you're all being chatty for nothing" Grandma scolded him and Lisa laughed. The day rolled quite well, Ray called and Lisa Informed him that she was home. They were now watching TV from the living room,it was around 10pm ,grandma had already retired to bed early and they were just the two of them. Her phone started vibrating from the couch and Roy brought it for her, not before peeping through to see who's as calling. "Teddy bear with an emoji, who's that sis?" He asked naughtily and Lisa scolded him. "Hey babe" When Roy heard that he laughed, and Lisa sneered. She walked to her room and continued chatting with Adrian till late. As she retired to bed that night, she smiled to herself. It was something she had been dreaming of, a perfect relationship and there was her Adrian.
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