I stare down at the three sticks that sat on the counter, all of them telling the same thing- PREGNANT. I wasn’t shocked but I was definitely horrified.
We are still in our mid-twenties and Kavin is just beginning his carrier in cricket.
There is also this small part of me that is secretly celebrating this news.
I am going to be a mom and Kavin a dad. Nothing can be more joyous than this but how in the hell am I going to tell him? And how is he going to react?
A baby would change everything in our lives and how are we going to cope with it?
My heart rate begins to shoot up, hearing the opening and closing of the door to our bedroom.
“Nithi, I’m back..”
“Just a minute..” I quickly hide the white sticks into one of the shelves and splash water on my face several times, so to remove the tension written all over it.
“Good morning..” I try to act cool as I walked out of the bathroom.
“You are up early today..” He remarks looking everywhere but me.
I perch on the edge of the bed and begin to play with my fingers nervously, “Yeah, couldn’t sleep for any longer..”
He hums, “Nithi, listen, I have something to tell you. I have been trying to tell you this for a while now but I didn't know how..” My heart rate spikes up at the seriousness of his tone.
“Really?” I clear my throat, “I too have something to tell you..”
“Oh, what is it?” He asks, sitting with me on the bed.
“No, you go first..” I say with shrug.
“Uhmm, Nithi, this is really important..” He begins, “Please understand, I do care about you a lot..”
“I know..” I smile at him encouragingly.
“..but you also know that we don’t love each other..”
I watch him swallow before continuing, “..I tried to fall in love with you but I never could. I mean, I never felt the spark and thrill that people talk about when they are in love. Have you experienced that with me?”
'Yes, a thousand times.', I want to tell him but I don’t, like the million other things I haven’t told him.
So he adds, “No, right? Even I have never felt that connection.. with you..” His emphasis on the last word which gets my undivided attention to him.
“What do you mean, Kavin?” I snap my eyes at him.
He hesitates slightly but adds anyway, “Uhmm, I love someone, Nithi..”
At this moment, I know, it's over between us. The tears automatically start flowing down my face but I wipe them before he could see them. I shake my head, “But we are married, Kavin..” I breathe out. “I thought we were doing fine..”
“I don’t know about you but I am not, Nithi. I am anything but fine in this arranged marriage that sometimes makes me feel suffocated..”
That’s it, I get up from the bed and ball my fists tightly. “So, what do you want to do now?”
“D-Divorce..” He suggests coolly.
I nod, looking over at Kavin who is as torn up as I am. “Okay, if that’s what you want..”
After being hurt by the only man she ever loved, Kavin- her first love, her ex-husband, father of her child and now a famous cricketer, Nithila has moved on with her life and all she has is her two-year-old daughter.
However when she thinks hiding the secret about their child from Kavin is her only problem, destiny throws them both at crossroads, where they are left to make crucial life decisions concerning their daughter’s health.
This is my first book set in India, the country where I live. I am dedicating this book to all my Indian readers and friends. I hope you guys like it.