To Love and Avenge

Chapter 34

It was from an unknown number but I certainly knew well who was that message from.

Before this event, I left him a very strict instructions to just stay at bay because anytime soon, I will contact him and continue what we have started. Which he promised not to let me down.

I turn to Roldan who was currently staring at me too.

And by the look of his face just now, I assumed that he saw Mang Kanor too.

I’ve been itching to go and call him out, but I must be careful or my plans will end up exploding right in my face.

Dad knew Mang Kanor when he was still dating mom, so I guess Mang Kanor is getting extra precautions, we cannot risk anything.

So I just let it go, what is more important was no one saw him.

The visitors come to us one by one and this made me forget about Mang Kanor for the moment. Greeting us endlessly.

My jaw started to get numb by the fake smile that I wear since this morning.

Now, this day had finally come to an end, smoothly yet dreadfully exhausting.

Some visitors have gone home already, and left with us are our few close families.

I tug Dauis's sleeve and told him that I was too tired and that I need to rest so I need to head up and get a nap, but he refuse to allow me, Instead, he ask permission from our parents that we will go ahead so I can have rest.

Of course, they understood, or they might have something going on in their minds so without any questions they immediately let us go easily.

“Oh, please go ahead and attain your wife, she must be very tired. Do not exhaust your wife okay?” I heard his mother say teasingly.

It’s so pity that our families were victims of our lies and personal interest. I just hope that they won't hate me for that if they will find out someday.

He was saying something to his mom, but I distance myself a little, not interested in what he will going to say.

He walked in my direction and pull me leading me to the exit.

“Where are we going?” I curiously asked. We were supposed to stay in the hotel for the night and go for an out of the town trip the next day as planned.

And we agreed that we will stay away from each other as much as possible after this.

“No, we are heading toAurora now,” he informed me seriously.

I didn’t argue with him anymore this time, instead, I followed him silently. Thankful for the turnout of the event.

No one noticed our agendas, thus, no one will know unless one will inform them.

“We will be staying in Baler, Aurora for two days, after that, you will move to my place,” he informed me.

I only nod in response as I closed my eyes. too tired to wait a little longer. I immediately drifted off to sleep and didn’t know how long I slept while we are on our way.

Feeling that the car has stopped and because I was too sleepy to even bother opening my eyes for a check, I doze back to sleep. Until then that I realize that I was lifted and carried out from the car.

I didn't worry a bit 'cause I know it was Dauis. I wanted to pull myself but I was too tired to endure it.

I haven't been this tired my whole life except of course that day.

He laid me slowly on the soft cushion which I assume was his bed and covered me carefully with a soft fabric. therefore I curl up comfortably and sleep off back again.

I was woken up by the bright sunlight that reflected directly through the window pane making the whole room so bright. The current ambiance was renewing, but I'm afraid to say that I am not fond of a brightly lit room.

I was still tired and still wanted to go to sleep so I turn my back from the window and huddled with the man who at this time was still soundly sleeping next to me.

I know it was Dauis, but I don't care. It feels good.

Sensing my movement, he just hummed and bring me closer to him. I steaded myself as I lay comfortably in his arms while my face burrow in his chest. He said in a croaky voice. “Sleep more, it’s still too early” he then kisses me at the top of my head and snores softly again.

It was so unusual for me to get as comfortable as this in such a position. I have never gotten used to the idea that I will soon sleep next to someone this way and ended up feeling the warmth.

It seems that it was so natural for him to hold someone in his sleep this way.

My sleepiness had finally gone making me fully awake and aware of what have happened, yet I didn't move and just stayed still, afraid that I might wake him.

Perhaps he was so tired as we drove all the way here for hours, I must not disturb him.

I’m wondering how I hate someone to the bones yet I can still be comfortably sleeping beside him like it was both natural for us.

I look up at his face, he was peacefully sleeping. He looks so handsome and very vulnerable in his sleeping state. He was like a superstar, with features that were sharp, thick brows and long lashes, and lips that are full and naturally red. Very seductive, very inviting… and it was like it is asking for attention.

My observation or rather say admiration flew away as he slightly open his eyes and said,

“Stop staring, go and get some more sleep.” he sleepily pulls me even tighter refraining me to move even a single bit.

Indeed, I didn’t move and I didn’t sleep either, just letting my mind wander at the possible result of this all.

Remembering what contains in Roldan’s last email that was supposed to be my next mission. It was stated there that a certain group based in Hongkong will be heading to the Philippines for possible expansion. Judging at the report, it was more likely similar to the syndicate that I have been hunting down.

But I was stopped by this sudden marriage.

I haven’t had a word with him yet, but I still hope that he wouldn't give it away to another agent as I can see the possible similarities. I have even sent Mang Kanor a copy to see what he can do.

There are still a lot of endless possibilities in it but I know I will be hindered by these loopholes and will be trapped in this marriage.

I cannot allow myself to submit to him, now that I started to get used to his company and found out that he wasn’t as bad as I thought. I must stop myself from becoming acquainted with him.

This feeling was so surreal that I can’t sometimes resist his presence and it is quite frightening.

I should suppress my growing comfortability with him or else I will suffer which I cannot afford for more, I have suffered enough. Moving a little, to test if such movement will wake him, but it doesn’t, so I move again this time trying to free myself from his embrace.

“Where are you going?” He asks. knitting his brows on me. I look up to see him grinning at me. I didn't speak instead, I avoided his gaze.

“Aren’t you comfortable?” he continues to ask.

“Yeah, I will never get comfortable sleeping with somebody next to me,” I said to him showing disgust for him.

“I thought–” he look confused but I cut his worst and said, “You only thought, but I am great alone with myself.” I have completely freed myself to him and I immediately stood up.

He was taken aback by my words. I know he didn’t expect it. But he knew me well, so he should have expected anything.

“What do you expect? That just because we are married we can already change the fact that we are two different people with different points of view?”

“Okay, if you say so." is all he can say. he didn't pursue any further. " Are you hungry?” he continues to ask, immediately changing the topic.

I only nod at him in response so I can get away with him. I was mesmerized by his hurt look at my words.

So be it. We couldn't grow acquainted with each other or else we will face another dilemma in our insipid lives.

He stood up and told me to rest for a while as he will prepare our breakfast.

After having breakfast, I propose to him that we should head back to the city in the afternoon. Anyway, we have nothing to do so better use our days productively.

“We can’t just go back at this instant,” he said without looking at me. He was avoiding me which is good.

“And why not?”

“Because we will only give them the idea that we aren’t happy, we are supposed to be in our honeymoon stage. What would they think if they saw us?”

I slumped down to the sit feeling defeated.

“I guess you are right.”

Without saying a word, he left the house with his car, I don't know where he will go but I kind of disappointed with his attitude.

He would at least tell me, but he didn’t.

Well, I should be happy about it that he is complying with my request but I feel the other way,

‘What now Ale?’ I ask myself.

Why ain’t I satisfied?

Deciding on what to do, then to be left being rotted here alone, I walk back to the room to see what I can do.

I didn’t bring anything with me when I came here so I might as well use his clothes again this time.

I wanted to go swimming.

What surprised me after getting in was the walk-in closet full of lady’s apparel, from Sunday, dresses to casual t-shirts and cotton shorts, and so on. When I look at the drawer, there I saw all undergarments, neatly folded according to color while on the other side was swimwear. All were of my size.

I wondered when he bought all this and has it arranged here.

Anyway, his money can do anything he wanted so this maybe explains. He runs a business so I guess money isn’t an issue for him.

Throwing away the thought about his personal life, I get the idea of going out for a swim, It will be a waste of time if I didn't dip myself in saltwater when it was already there waving at me.

I smiled at it.

I grab the swimwear that was first in line and change to it.

It was a black two-piece low-cut bikini that perfectly fitted me. I then grab a cover-up and walk immediately outside only to be greeted by a beautiful afternoon breeze.

It was warm yet the wind that blows was cold.

Just like my confused heart.