Maybe it’s better this way, anyway we can never be together, maybe I can forget about him easier if he is not around or it’s will be just worse. I don’t know.... I don’t know anything, I just feel empty like nothing else matter at this point. I hope I can forget about him soon because it’s a terrible t*****e to think about him. Even though he is still here I already miss him and he is just working in an other hall, I can’t even imagine how it’s will be when he is not around at all and he will be in an other country, far away from me. We have a lot of memories together, everything is going to remind me of him in the work, at home, maybe time will tell, time will heal the hole in my heart.
Deep in my heart I still hope that he is going to change his mind and stay here, but I doubt i
