THIRTY NINE
1598 Words
*heavy rains*
Nice, It is my favorite weather. I immediately went to the kitchen and made some hot chocolate to drink.
It is the perfect time to have this! It is cold and raining, I feel like I just want to snuggle under the sheets while I'm drinking this hot chocolate.
I am trying to avoid these feelings of mine… but when you are close to me, I can’t help myself.
And then again…
Ugh…
Damn it! I am trying to have a good time here! It is my day off! Why is this happening?! I want to relax and take a rest for a while. My head is not cooperating with me! It keeps buzzing me around.
My heart keeps beating so fast when you are around, why?
What the heck!
That damn voice, that's mine. It is part of my memories and I know I said these things to her but I still don't remember what exactly happened to us that night. It's vague.
With the fact that she is having symptoms of being pregnant… I cannot help but to think that she is telling me the truth. That something really happened to us that night. That we had s*x out of being drunk.
But I can't accept that…
We shouldn't have done that! If… that really happened.
*knock! knock!*
Then suddenly, while I am thinking very deeply as of the moment… I heard someone knocking. I am not expecting any visitors today. Dianna is currently in the office right now because she said that they have an urgent meeting…
Sephtis? He didn't even call me. If he'll be visiting, he will call me first but no missed calls.
Wait… is it… Makaria?
*knock! knock!*
“It's my day off. Please don't bother me” I said as I went close to the door. I am not opening it yet, I am just making sure if she really is the one who's knocking.
*knock! knock!*
No one answered.
“Hey, okay I know what you would say… that you might be pregnant or something. I… I am sorry but… I still can't remember anything and… for me it is still not possible that something happened to us… okay? ”
*knock! knock!*
What the? She keeps on knocking, really? She is ignoring my speech here! What's wrong with her?
“I… I am not opening that door. I still need some time alone… please Makaria”
“I am not her. Open the door, I need to talk to you”
What the?!
My eyes widened quickly as I heard that voice. It was not Makaria at all!!! Damn it, all that I have said should not be said in the first place. Thanatos you are a fool! How can you now explain all of that?!
I opened the door as I saw in front of me a guy that I least expected to be here…
“Raiden”
He is carrying an umbrella and seems a bit cold. Of course, it's raining hard outside.
“Great, you remember me. Can I come in?” his aura as of the moment looks so serious. Damn it of course, how can't he be? I have said something about someone who is so close to his heart. SUPER CLOSE.
“S-sure… sure,” I said as I led him the way. He closed his umbrella and left it outside.
I don't even know how he knew the location of my house and how he got here but I guess it is not the right time to ask about it.
I feel so awkward. As I think of everything that I said to him behind that door not knowing that it is him.
“Your house looks nice and small”
“Hehe, thanks. I am the only one living here”
“Is this place yours? Or… are you just renting this?” actually… some ghost gave it to me so probably…
“It's mine,” I said as I scratch the back of my head
“Woah… that's great. Even if you're just a janitor you are already able to buy your own house” what does he mean by that? Is he mocking me or something? Why does it feel like he is not having a good intention here?
“Yes… hard work has paid off hehe. Have a seat” then I let him sit on my couch while I just stood in front of him. I really feel awkward right now. I don't like the aura coming from him. He seems different.
"Thank you. Do you have something to drink? I am a bit thirsty you know, I hope you don't mind”
“I have some hot chocolate, you want some?”
“I mean… if you don't mind, let's have a drink. Like… WHISKY or something” wait… it is just me or he purposely emphasize the word WHISKY? What does he really want here?
“Whisky? I don't have whisky… and I don't usually drink” I awkwardly smiled at him, but he didn't even smile back. This is not good.
“Oh, is that so? You don't drink huh?” He didn't believe me.
“Y-yes, Raiden and… it's just eight in the morning, it's too early for that”
“Hmm… yeah you are correct. That's why you drank with her at night” suddenly, he stood up and threw me a glare.
“W-what?”
“Don't act like you are clueless about what I am talking about Mr. Salvador. Makaria told me what happened” his tone became different as he started to walk near me. I am a bit nervous about what is happening right now.
“What? No… there's nothing happe--”
“Shut up! Don't even deny it you punk! I've been so good to you, I know you know that. But you'll just pay me with this s**t?! You know that I am courting her but you hit her up?!” He didn't even let me finish what I was going to say. He pushed me hard and I didn't expect that.
“It is a misunderstanding…I… I…” I don't know what to say anymore! I can't even defend myself right now.
“How can that be a misunderstanding? I heard the news that she was vomiting and was dizzy yesterday. I called her and even went to her house the night after that and you know what she said? She said that she is not quite sure if she is pregnant…with YOU. She told me everything you son of a b*tch!” I was surprised when he grabbed my shirt up to my neck. I can't believe this is happening. He is blazing with anger. I can't blame him for that.
But… what Makaria said was not yet proven… I mean, with all of that… I still believe that nothing happened to us that night. I don't even actually know how to… UGH!
DAMN IT WHY DOES MY MEMORY ABOUT THAT LOOK VAGUE?!
I know I have said something crazy but… I don't think we did it. But Makaria keeps insisting that we did it. I don't know but I can't believe her! I just can't trust her words. And… although there is a huge chance that she is pregnant, it is not yet proven. NOT YET.
“Can you please… calm down”
“How can I calm down?!”
*Blag!*
And…
I was surprised when he punched me, resulting in me falling to the floor. That's so hard and painful! Goddammit.
I touched the side of my lips and it is bleeding!
“Look, Raiden… I don't want to fight with you”
“Really? Then why did you make out with her in the first place?!”
Now I can see. This is the other side of him. Is this the side that Meria saw? The brutal side of Raiden. I am not quite sure about why Meria hates him but… somehow, little by little, I am having an idea.
“I didn't okay? I… know I didn't”
“What do you mean you didn't?! Are you saying that she is lying?!” He went close to me again and pulled me up harshly.
“Wait, Raiden, please calm down. I am not sure what's up with her but… okay I don't actually remember everything about that night… I admit but I am certain that we didn't do that” I tried to get his hands off me but he just tightens his grip even more.
“She is certain that you had s*x! Stop that innocent act!”
“I am not acting… I… it's hard to explain”
“Yes, especially when you're guilty.” he then loses his grip but pushes me again. Damn it, I really don't like this. Why am I in this situation?! Things are getting so complicated.
“I… I am sorry… I… I don't know what to say, I… don't know how to prove it. I want to remember everything, I really do but… ” I just let out a big sigh while I am looking at the floor. I really don't understand, why is this happening to me? I regret everything that I did that night. What if I just stayed at home? What if I didn't accept her drink?
Can that change a thing?
“Stop it will ya?! I am telling you, from now on I won't get easy on you, Thanatos. You'll be miserable”
- Writer
