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“Hello? Wow, you called first. I never expected that” when I heard her voice, I don't know what to feel. My heart starts racing right now and I don't even know why. She is just on the phone but… why am I starting to feel this way?
“We need to talk, Makaria” I seriously said as I softly put some ice on my bruise. It still hurts somehow. Raiden is good at punching people huh.
“Woah… woah, there are no formalities now huh? Is it because of our intimate night?” Damn it. Why does she have to mention it all the time? As much as possible I don't want to think about it as of now. Maybe later, when we start to talk.
“Makaria, let's meet. Are you available tonight?”
“Tonight? Oh wait really? TONIGHT? Are you sure about that? Do you want to have some whisky again?” So what does she mean about that? Is she trying to tease me? It's not funny. I am being so serious here! Everything is getting so complicated and I need to fix it.
“Makaria, please stop that. I need to talk to you. Raiden went in my house earlier this morning”
“Oh… is that so?” by the tone of her voice, she is not shocked about what I said. It seems like she had expected this to happen.
“It seems like you are not surprised about that. You knew that he'd come here, didn't it?”
“Well, I am not quite sure but… somehow I expected that he would come to you” I am damn right! She knew but she didn't do anything about it. She didn't even try to warn me or something!
Of course, why would she do that? She doesn't even care.
“Let's continue this talk later. I'll come by your house at exactly nine in the evening.”
“Wait what? I haven't agreed to it yet!”
“Bye. Just expect me to come there” I just ignored what she said and I immediately hung up my phone. It is so urgent and I can't wait til tomorrow to talk about this. It is too personal. We have to make things clear. I need to, before it gets so much worse.
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It's been a while since I've been here in this village. I still remember the times when I was too ignorant to go outside alone…
The times when I was still living with Nemesis…
As I passed by Nemesis' house, I tried to bow my head down and cover my face. I don't know why I am doing this but I just don't want her to see me if she is still in that house. I don't know what to tell her if we'd meet again. I tried to take a glance for a moment and I saw that it's dark inside her house. I wonder if she is in there? I also wonder how she is or what she is doing but… never mind.
I left her. I chose to be alone and I chose not to be with her. I should deal with it.
I just let out a big sigh and started to walk faster until I reached my destination. I am now in front of Makaria's house.
You are that stupid man on the road
Uhm, I am not stupid hehe… by the way hello hehe…
So it seems like you followed me? Are you my stalker?
What the heck, why can't I control these memories of mine? It's all coming back to me.
Don't touch me. You dirty individual!
I'm sorry I am just…
Just what? Looking at me? Then what? You will r**e me or something? I am going to call the police right now!
No! No please… you are making a mistake. I am not what you think that I am
Then what are you? A p*****t?!
No! I am not
I said don't touch me!!!
Sorry, sorry! I just want to ask you something
Do you want me to believe you? Did you follow me up to my house because you just wanted to ask something? Oh please, at least give a credible reason
I didn't follow you… I mean somehow but no, wait, it is hard to explain
Because you can't admit that you are my stalker!
The second time we met, it's a mess. Now, we're still a mess. It never gets old. I took a deep breath before I went near her door.
“Okay, Thanatos you can do this!” I said to myself before I pressed the doorbell. This is it, the moment of truth!
*Ding! Dong!*
*Door opens*
“Thanatos! Hi, come inside.” I was surprised when the door opened, Makaria showed up and welcomed me with a smile on her face. I looked at her thoroughly and she is wearing a red fancy dress. She even had time to fix her hair as if she's going somewhere. What's going on here?
She held my hand and pulled me close to her. I was stunned and I don't know why I am just letting her do what she is doing right now. I am not sure what's happening here.
We went inside and my eyes automatically widened as I saw a small round table with candlelight in the middle of it, a glass of wine, and two plates of steak. What the? There are even some red petals scattered on the floor!
“What is this all about?”
“Really, Thanatos? You don't have any idea what's this about?”
Well, the ambiance somehow looks so romantic. As if we're having a date or something. I just don't understand why she is doing this. We are not having a date, have we? I am here to talk. JUST TALK. WHAT THE HELL?
“We will talk right?”
“Talk? Yes, and… date? Right? That's why you wanted to meet me tonight” what the heck? She is not that stupid to misinterpret what I told her earlier on the phone. I didn't even mention this kind of thing. I am clear about it. I am confused about what she is doing, it is weird.
“No, we'll just talk,” I said seriously. She just started to put both of her hands on my shoulders and massage them softly. What the? She's different, she is too nice and that is scary. She is not being her.
“Okay okay, don't be too damn serious over there. Okay we'll talk, Thanatos, and I have some good news to tell you also” she is smiling, all the time. And I can't seem to convey the message behind those smiles.
That...good news that she is referring to, I don't think that is really good news. Maybe to her, yes? To me? Nah. She'd never brought good news for me. She wanted me to be miserable.
“What is it?”
“Can you just calm yourself and sit down first? I'll tell you when we've done eating the steak. I cook it” okay wait, am I still on earth? Is this a different dimension or something? It feels like I am talking to a different version of Makaria. She cooks? For me? Damn right. Everything is fine, nothing is different… as if.
“You seem happy,” I said before I sat down on one of the chairs that she prepared. Now I can smell the steak, it smells good and looks good. I am tempted to eat it but… I am trying not to. I am still having doubts about everything. About how she acts right now.
“Of course I am. It is the first time that you initiate seeing me here in my house, so I am happy” then she sat down on the chair in front of me. She took the wine and poured some in my glass before she poured some to hers.
“Can you please just quit the crap? What's going on with you?”
“Me? I am fine. Okay? There is nothing to worry about. We will talk, remember? Normal talk, no arguments” I just looked at her. She started to eat her steak and… I feel like I want to eat mine too. It looks so delicious. “Hey Thanatos, you can eat that. I didn't put poison on your steak so don't worry”
“You're different”
“Yes. I know, and I am beautiful. Anyways, what do you want to tell me?” she elegantly sips some from her wine. While me? I am not touching anything even if I am really so tempted to eat that steak. Damn it.
*gulp*
“It's all about what happened to us… that night. I still don't remember everything”
“Is that so?” she just continues to eat her steak and I am just watching her.
“Yes. But if… something really happened to us, I'll take responsibility”
“I know you will. How about Raiden? You told me he went to your house earlier? Is he the reason why you had that bruise?”
“Yes. He confronted me. I know he is courting you and compared to me, you deserve him better. I am just your janitor and I feel guilty if… we really did it that night, he must be very hurt.” I looked down as I remembered what happened. I immediately touched my cheek where he knocked me out.
“He's not. Don't worry. He's just pretending that he is” wait, I don't understand. I am surprised by what she said. Is she telling the truth or is it just based on her hunch?
“What do you mean?”
“It's just about his ego. Aside from that, I also know that he's just using me” THE HECK? SHOULD I BELIEVE HER?
Well, I can't even believe how she's acting right now so how can I even believe what she's saying?
“What? I am sorry I don't understand”
“Never mind that. Let's go back to what you were saying, you're taking responsibility for what happened to us right?” She was smiling again as she looked me straight in the eyes. That is why I tried to turn away.
“Yes, if… something really happened to us” my heart… is beating fast. Damn it. I should control my heart and mind from now on. It's not helping me.
“You are still not convinced? Okay then, I think when I show you some evidence, you'll believe me”
“What evidence?”
“This is what I wanted to tell you.*smile*” Then after that, she took her red bag beside her and opened it. She brought out a tiny white thing and gave it to me. I have no idea what it is! I just stare at it.
“What is this?” all I can see are two vertical lines. What does it mean? I have no idea.
“That's a pregnancy test”
“A…what?!” so there is some kind of mechanism like this. Is this used to know if she is pregnant or not?
“One line means negative and two lines mean… positive” what is she talking about? I am confused!
“I still don't get it. Can you please simply tell me directly?”
“I am pregnant, we're having a baby, Thanatos”
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