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“What are you doing?!” she immediately pushed me away after what I did to her. Damn Thanatos, what is going on with your mind? Why did you hug her? What the heck?
“S-sorry, I was just trying to protect you”
“What? Protect me? From what?”
“From…” What am I going to say? From Sally? From a vengeful ghost? She barely even know her because she is not Mara anymore, not Mara before.
Mara is mine
Mara is mine
Mara is mine…
That ghost… she wants her… and I can’t remember why. I should know why. I don’t even know why she is still here. I have even mistaken her as one of the spectral beings like us. I have no idea that ghosts can do that to flowers and plants.
After all the years, Sally is still after Mara that is now Makaria?
“Hey, Thanatos? From what?”
“Uhm...from...uhm..”
“You really like me, don’t you? You are stalking me and now you hugged me for no reason” I saw her one eyebrow raised again. It is hard to say these kinds of things to her. She will absolutely not believe me. Who am I to her? I am just a janitor in her company. And she even thinks that I am her obsessed stalker.
“I have a reason!”
“What is it then? You can’t even tell”
“No… it is not that… I…” I can’t gather words to tell her. I am a fool. I can’t even understand why I am doing this. I should have let this go right? To stay away from her, to not fall for her again? But why am I like this? It feels like I am still doing things to get close to her.
“What? I think you already need a doctor, Thanatos. You are being obsessed with me. Well, I can’t blame you. I know that I am irresistible *wink*”
Maybe she is right, she is irresistible, even for me. I can’t stand a chance to see her be harmed by that ghost. I am actually worried even if I should not be.
I touched both of her shoulders that surprised her.
“Listen, I really want to protect you. Your life is in danger, that is all I can say.”
“My life? In danger? Who the hell wants me dead huh?” she immediately shrugged both of my hands so I took it away from her. I looked down. I haven’t been close to her like this. My heart is starting to beat very fast. I can’t help it when she is around.
“I… I can’t”
“Why not? If that is true, I should be calling the police with that matter right?” I know she is confused, but I just can’t tell her the truth. She may think now that I am really crazy.
“The...police, they can’t help…”
“What? Why? You know what, I am so stupid to even listen to you. You are a freak. Stay away from me” she then pushed me.
“B-but… I am telling the truth!” I tried to convince her even if there is no chance for her to listen. At least I tried.
I move closer to her once more.
“I don’t think so. Move, or I will fire you in my company” and she pushed me again, so I just move away from her. I let her go.
She opened her car and go inside. After that, she just left me here.
“Thanatos!” suddenly, I heard Dianna’s voice, next is her footsteps. I turn around to see her running towards me. She looks tired and worried.
“Dianna… you should have stayed inside. I am fine”
“No, you are not. How was it? Have you seen her?”
“Yes.” I don’t know what to tell her. I just ran from her earlier without telling her why. She has nothing to do with it. I don’t want her to get involved with any of this. She is a big help to me and she is very nice. I owe her a lot to the point that I don’t want her to be one of Sally’s targets. Sally doesn’t want me to stay here and she might think of a lot of plans to get rid of me. I won’t allow that to happen.
Even if Makaria did not listen to me, I’ll still keep my eye on her no matter what. I know I should be staying away from her… I know she is not even my responsibility… but I feel like I need to protect her, I don’t know why.
Even if my so-called mission is not to fall in love with her, maybe I could still find a way to protect her without any kind of feelings like that. Besides, I am still not sure if that is my mission here so I guess there is nothing to lose if I try to get near her for a bit.
I may not fall for Makaria either, with that attitude? Why would I like her? She is not the Mara that I used to know before, she is a lot more different. Maybe my heart is pounding fast just because of her appearance that is the same with Mara, not because I like her. Yes, I am certain of that.
Why did I hug her?
Because I want to protect her from Sally, yes. That’s all. Nothing more.
As of the moment…
No one can stop me or hold me back now, Nemesis is not with me anymore.
“Hey, Thanatos… What happened?” She touched one of my shoulders so I get back to my senses. I started to look her straight in the eyes.
“She left me” I softly said as I let out a big sigh.
“Well, that is not new to me. What did you tell her?”
“I… I just don’t want to talk about it. Can we go home?”
“S-sure. If you are not ready to share that… then let’s go” then she grabbed one of my arms and pulled me. We start walking towards her motorcycle and leave.
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“Thanks for the ride, again,” I said as I get off her motorcycle. Then I removed my helmet and gave it to her.
“No problem, Thanatos. You are always welcome. By the way, don’t you really want to talk about what happened earlier?” she also removed her helmet and seriously looked at me.
“What about it?”
“I mean… I know that you don’t want to share the thing about our BOSS so maybe you can share about what happened to you before you fainted?”
Huh? I am confused. Why is she asking about that?
“Before I fainted? Why? What about it?”
“One of my colleagues told me that before you fainted, she saw you talking to someone else but she can’t see who you are talking to. I remembered that is how I found you when we first met right? You are talking alone.”
Damn. I didn’t know that. I didn’t see anyone earlier… or maybe I just haven’t noticed?
What should I do? Dianna has seen me talking to myself before already and now she heard the news that I talk to someone that can’t be seen? AGAIN? She may think that I am nuts.
“T-that… Uhm… I didn’t know that someone have seen me”
“So you are admitting that you are talking to yourself again?”
DAMN. DAMN. DAMN THANATOS WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO SAY NOW? HUH?
“Uhm… not like that” I can’t even say a good reason!
“Don’t tell me that you are still practicing a script from the play because I've known for a long time that you're not really an actor”
“Yes… I am not, it is hard to explain Dianna” well, there will be no good reason to support what I am doing earlier. I am talking to Sally, a ghost! Maybe by just saying the word GHOST, I will sound crazy to her already.
“Are you really sure that you are alright? Do you want me to get you a doctor to check you further and… your… head… because you know, your head seldomly hurts… A LOT. I mean somehow it is severely aching to the point that you faint.” she tries to hold one of my hands to show that she is sincere. I touched hers and slowly put it back to her.
“Dianna, I really appreciate your care but… I am really fine”
I am fine even if I look sick or something. She doesn’t know anything and it is okay to be that way.
“Your amnesia seems a bit serious, Thanatos. Maybe it needs medication”
“No. I don’t need it. I swear. But thank you. I… ugh… I am so tired so… I need to sleep” then I started to walk close to the door of my small house. I took the key in my pocket and opened it. I need to stop this conversation with her. She might try to dig deep about it. I can’t afford to tell her everything about me. No.
“Fine. But Thanatos, if any of these become really severe, I have no choice but to call a real doctor about your case, okay?”
“Okay”
“Great. I gotta go. Take care of yourself” then she wears her helmet again before she started the engine of her motorcycle.
“I will, thank you, and good night”
“Good night” then she left.
I just follow a look at her while she is moving far and far away. After that, I went inside my house already and sat on the small couch. I let out a big sigh.
“You are doing good, Thanatos,” I said to myself as I lean back. Then I shut my eyes. This day is very tiring for me. A lot of things happened that I need to absorb one by one.
A moment of silence circulates all over the house…
It is quiet, again.
I am alone again.
*knock! knock*
But suddenly, I heard a knock on my door. It is late at night already, who might it be? Does Dianna come back?
*knock! knock*
I stood up and go to the door. I touched the doorknob but I became hesitant to open it.
*knock! knock*
“Who’s in there?”
“It is me...Sephtis!”
- Writer
