Me: yes I love Tristain Pia Mia plays her well no were not doing this bonding over a book that I love just go get a hotel room I will deal with this later and I mean talk and not s*x
Sebastian: I will be waiting for the time to talk to you do I not get a kiss for a goodbye like modern-day Hardin Scott
Me: what one of the other in the book
Sebastian: Steph don’t tell anyone but she a snake
Me: how many books did you read
Sebastian: enough to know Vance is Hardin dad
Me: wow okay good I never knew that I would get you deep into a book
I turned away and smiled he was cute and he knew what he was doing and I turned back around and gave him a pack on the cheek and walked away in some part I shouldn’t have done when I got back to Grandma manor she was at the table doing some work and I was supposed to do some work that I had emailed to me class and homework I sat down with an apple in my hand with my laptop.
Grandma: you don’t have plans what happened to that guy
Me: he left he got scared by my past and left it fine he just wasn’t the one anyway
Grandma: sometimes the past is a scary thing look at my parents they killed them because they didn’t want to deal with their past they never got to meet Jane or Damon wife or kids that pain killed Hunter she killed herself and Truth learned from it
Me: Grandma I’m so sorry to hear that I don't know well about the suicide part
Grandma: that the part you don’t hear on the news
Me: what happened to Kylie
Grandma: she wanted my father money she was nor friend or foe she was evil she was greedy and she was in my part of the cases the killer of the writer and the gangster
(breaking the fourth wall )
Fun fact that was the first choice of the name for queen gangster but we stuck with queen gangster because it suited better with the story in the written version and also Mal was supposed to be a cop and going undercover and she was supposed to bring Lion in and not fall in love but did but in the dreame version she did
Me: wow that must hurt how old were you
Grandma: I was 12 when I moved in with my aunties
Me: Elizabeth and Ashley Sage-Blake
Grandma: yeah them it was hard to live with them for a while my dad twin my mom sister I would rather want to go in to foster care but my mom knew what she was doing that places was wrong for the wrong kids
I didn’t want to hear anymore it was sad okay I can’t take it I know what would happen to me if my dad died I would be with my grandma and I know that may be in a moment Sebastian would have took me in but were not on best terms well we are but he thinks we will get back together
Grandma: you want me to help you with your work
Me: no it fine but
Grandma: you want him back go to him
Me: no I’m in London he in the united states
Grandma: no he not I paid for his ticket and he knew where you went on your date
Me: he knew everything cause you told him
Grandma: you love him and he loves you I wish I knew what love felt like but I don’t
Me: grandma your asexually you know what that is right
Grandma: what that
Me: it when you have a lack in s****l things or wanting a romantic relationship
Grandma: so what I’m loveless
Me: no your not loveless you can love just not sexually you won’t have any care for another sexually there nothing wrong with you okay there a lot of people who go through this
Grandma: okay did you know that you know your mom liked boys and girl
Me: what there was no way the way dad describe mom
Grandma: he keeps the thing that he doesn't want you to know because he has the control but he doesn't
Me: okay I have work that I complete
I walked up to my room and took out my phone I got a text from Cameron, Sebastian, Ashley, Alexis and Victoria, and Kaley also Summer
*Cameron: I’m sorry our date had to end like this but with the man you called dad friend and it was too much
*Sebastian: I would really like to talk to you before the day over
*Ashley: is he here Liz
*Alexis: I’m sorry
*Victoria: let go shopping
*Kaley: what the hell is wrong with your dad why
I didn’t know what or who to answer but I will be not talk to Sebastain we broke up and he dosen’t need to be here when I’m trying to fix myself
*Me: Sebastain I can’t help you okay and I can’t be with you okay and you know
*Me: cameron I would love to go on a date and I will explain everything to you
*Me: Ashley yes Sebastain is here
*Me: Alexis you know your not sorry
*Me: I would love to go shopping
*Me: Kaley with my father you don’t about him
Sebastain and Cameron texted came in at the same time which was werid but that not the werid thing that happend this day and I know it won’t be the last to and I know there boys and they will act like such but I can’t have them acting this way
*Sebastain: Lizzie I want to talk to you
*Cameron: I will love to have a date with you
*Me: Cameron I will love to do
*Me: Sebastain we can’t okay I have to move on and I’m trying to move on
*Sebastain: with who Cameron he was the boy at the ice cream
*Me: yes Sebastain but you can’t hurt him or do what my great gandfather would
*Sebastain: don’t test me I will do it you do it
*Me: okay we can talk but I want to know after this you will leave me and Cameron alone
*Sebastain: okay I just want to talk okay can we
*Me: yes okay we can talk where do you want to meet
*Sebastain: in my hotel room
*Me: no somewhere were there will be peolpe and we’re in the
*Sebastain: not were alone I get it
*Me: yeah well I have a date tonight so after okay
*Sebastain: yeah with Cameron right
*Me: don’t do that okay you know who he is
* Sebastain: yeah I also know he isn’t good for you
*Me: you could have never have to deal with that but that because you said if I left we were done and that was on you and that was your fault
*Sebastain: yeah that true it was all my fault us being over was my fault and
*Me: and I have to go bacause I have a date and I have to get ready for that date but we can talk after
I went to the closet were all my clothing were and I looked throught I needed something that ment a 50% chance of me getting laid tonight and I’m looking forward to it and when I found this nice outfit and the dress was v-neck and holographic and I loved it and I need to find some shoes and before I was done and I was walking out the door Cameron text
*Cameron: I can’t tonight sorry
*Me: yeah it fine okay I have plans anyway okay
*Cameron: oh okay
*Me: yeah
I texted Sebastain cause I need to talk to him about something
*Me: I will meet you at your hotel I want you in you in your boxer when I get there
*Sebastain: he ditched you
*Me: do you want to have s*x yes or no
Sebastain: I w ill be ready when you get here you know I will wear that teal lacey underwear set baby
I smiled at the text and I get in the shower and I put on the teal blue panties and underwear and I love the way he sees my body he loves it I put on the jacket nothing else but that I had clothing in my bag when I got downstairts my grandma and Alexis look at me
Me: what okay I’m going out
Grandma: where
Me: with my Romeo he came all this way to be with me and Cameron and me were a mistake and I should have never went on the date with Cameron and he and me is not a good thing
Alexis: your meeting Sebastain really b***h he f****d up with you
Me: shut up okay Sebastain has more balls
I got a text from youi know who and I love him but he can be to much at times okay and I think I
^Me: I will be there okay I have to do something and by that I mean ice cream
^Sebastain: what were going to do something sexually with ice cream
^Me: no were acutally eating it okay
I walked to his hotel is not that long and I also had to get ice cream cause I want ice cream and I love icecream when I go there I sat on the bed looked around and thought about anything
Sebastain: are you okay Lizzie
Me: yes I’m fine okay
Sebastain: come here
He had his hand under his my head and I kissed him I moved ontop of him and I kissed him and I wanted him okay we broke up and this is make-up s*x
Sebastain: please tell me this not make-up s*x this better not be make-up s*x Lizzie
Me: umm
Sebastain: Eilzabeth Stone we are not having make-up s*x
Me: it hot and this you know you wnt to do make-up s*x and that is hot
I kissed him and he bite my lip and he botton down my coat and I wanted more from Sebastain his eyes lit up when he seen what was under my coat he smiled when he seen me without the coat and he loved it
Sebastain: I see it I like it I want it
Me: you got it
Sebastain: do we really have to go back to united states we can’t stay here
Me: I know right that would be so sweet if we could
Sebastain: we could drop it
Me: Is this another set in tip were you want to marrying me
Sebastain: it an idea
Me: no okay Sebastain I think we should jsut have s*x okay and marriage we can think after college
Sebastain: so I can prospose I just can’t marry you until 5 years from now
Me: yeah pretty much okay let me guess you brought the ring
Sebastain: that I did
Me: no I will not take it until you get on one knee and prospose
He got on the floor and got on his knees and took the ring out the box and it was cute was really loved it and maybe just maybe I would marry him before
Me: yes
Sebastain: excuse me
Me: I said yes okay I want to marry you and I may do it before college
Sebastain: okay I like that but
Me: but what
Sebastain: but now I just want to hold you
Me: umm Sebastain are you okay
Sebastain: Yeah why would you say that
Me: I have to go there doing half off drinks and I’m going to get them and the age limted is 18 and I’m am 17 and I have a year you know and I need a drink
Sebastain: and you have to write that homework you keep by passing it
Me: I will do my work okay Sebastain but let go out get drinks
Sebastain: or we can order in and we can stay here
Me: I have a paper I have to work on and I should start it now and what was it again to
Sebastain: what you think moive or book or song compair to your life
Me: I have some in mind about teacher and student love I can talk about how the s*x is good and more cause it is oh you
I pulled out my laptop and I started writing about a childhood book the princess diaries and when I was always little I want to be a princess and I would love to help peolpe and I would always love to find my prince even when I think I did find mines already and he everyhting I could want and as I was writing this I handed him the laptop to see what I wrote it was more
Sebastain: turn it in I will grade it when we get back
Me: I’m not done okay I have a whole another page to write okay I have to write
Sebastain: you can complete it later okay just rest okay
Aww cute he really doing this sexy s**t wow Sebastain is something okay he can’t use my thing over me like what the f**k Sebastain it was cute tho buut still a move I would which is smart for him to take a rule out of my play book and I’m proud
Me: wow a rule out of my play book I like
Sebastain: I learned from the best
Me: I know that me that smart b***h okay for college I wanted to visit a place here since I’m here and the one at l.a do you want to go with me tommrow
Sebastain: yeah I guess but your really thinking about moving all the way to Egland for a college
Me: yeah why not do you not think I can get in
Sebastain: oh I know you can get in any college you set your mind to but there some great college in L.a or the united states in genral
Me: I know but I just I want to expand my choices you know like go out my standers you know
Sebastain: yeah I understand you but Lizzie there is a school that would meet you stander in the United states you know
Me: yes I do understand you but I don’t think you understand me okay I want to just expand my choices there no a 100%
Sebastain: okay let just stop talking about it
Me: okay fine
I don’t know what his issue is like come on it ust a school and I will be back in 4 years like what the worst that can happen I fall in love with Egland that I don’t leave as if I love it here but I will also miss my home and friends and grandma and Sebastain and he knows that speaking of Sebastain he talking on the phone to this girl name Jade
Me: who that should I be pissed
Sebastain: Jade is Justin sister
Me: Justin has a sister and why did they stick with the J in the family like come on who thought that would be smart thing to do
Sebastain: what we all can’t have a family name Alexis and Eilzabeth and Luke like match it up a bit
Me: sitll with all the J really like mix it up
I rolled my eyes and laid on the bed I was in my underwear which I remember now wll Sebastain helped me remember when he started to kiss me her touched my boob okay I well I was feeling the moment now he removed the bra and he started to suck on my t**s and I started to moan okay the s*x was started to get good going into it and I loved him and I know s*x is one way some peolpe express love but I don’t think s*x should be a way to express love but were going to have s*x today I kissed himand I stuck my tounge in his mouth and I smiled as we kissed I moved my lips away from him
Sebastain: what
Me: nothing I think my boobs look werid
Sebastain: don’t you look amazing Liz
Me: I know beacuse I’m me and I look like a f*****g QUEEN
That self-love b***h and I have so much self love for myself to it crazy how much I love myself and some peolpe think it is to but I love the self-love for me and I smiled and moved ontop of him and I removed his belt and started to ride him and my boobs jumped up and down and Sebastain smiled as I was riding him it was fun cause I would never know what that was a month ago and now I know a bit of s*x still not that much but I know some stuff anyway to say I know some stuff in my life but you know you only live once and what you know is what you know is how you get to get more s**t and if me not knowing s**t now is what going to help me grow later on then I will use that chacee and now he kiss my neck is this really a move all guys do for s*x in nice but you can see it coming and I love it but I’m also in the mood for drinks and I didn’t have anything
Me:Let get drinks okay I want drinks we can have tommrow out okay but I want drinks
Sebastain: and what do I get out of this
Me: me tommrow night all of
Sebatain: I’ll take it
Me: I knew you would now get dressed
I looked throught my bag and fix me something to wear because at the end of day I want to look nice when we go out and I walked in the bathroom to paint my smile on my face a smile that was fake but it shows that I’m happy and I never know real happness I wore a purple dress it was short and the dress was pretty I was in love with it and I walked to Sebastain
Sebastain: I like you like this and it a neck and I can tasty boobs
Me: cute
Sebastain: yeah I like this cuye look on you it hot and sexy do we really need drinks or we could order in
Me: Sebastain that cute but let go okay
I walked out the hotel room and down the hallway and smiled with my phone in my hand and I have this idea to do a dinner date I want to have a date with him Sebastain looked at me
Sebastain: what
Me: were going on a date
Sebastain: your funny really Lizzie
Me: no I’m not why do you think this is a joke us going out on a date
Sebastain: because we don’t the date thing Lizzie when have we ever did that
Me: you know what forget it Sebastain let go back to the room I’m tried I don’t feel like going anywhere anymore
I smiled and rolled my eyes and walked back to the room I didn’t like that the fact that he was ruining my plans because he didn’t like them I laid on the bed and put the pillow over my head because I was mad at the fact he took off my shoes and he started to rub my feet
Me: don’t I don’t care
Sebastain can’t come here and do this and I hate that I grabbed the phone and order wine and order the glass and when they came up I grabbed the drink and glass I thank the guy that brought it up and gave him a tip of 2 dollars and closed the door and I laid on the bed with a book in my hand and pour a glass of wine and took a sip
Sebastain: it like I’m not even here
Me: don’t start this bullshit
Sebatain: this bullshit really
Me: you bring down any idea I have that why this break up was a good thing for me to deal with because I wouldn’t have to fake me being happy that the bullshit I’m talkin Sebastain that the bullshit
Sebastain: why was the date a big thing why
Me: because it just us on a nice outing for us as a couple but you never want to go anywhere because why
Sebastain: I just think it a bragging feast
Me: then I want to brag about you
Sebastain: but why should it matter that the world we dat-e
Me:you know what forget it
I finshes the glaassand started to drink from the bottel yeah this is my week drinking wine no I will be going out now without Sebastain he not going to stop my fun I was drink
Me: I will be going out tonight without you
Sebastain: you can’t be mad
Me: I will not ruin my day I will be party without you
I took out my phonne and I called Victoria she was the party fox and I need her she get my party started
*Victoria: whats up
*Me: you want to go to a party
*Victoria: yeah let go I will get ready give me the address
*Me: I got it I will see you there
I got off the phone and I went and put back my shoes and I was going to drink more and I want to get more tipsy and I fixed my hair and my make-up and I was done
Sebastain: you are not really going out you half-way tipsy
Me: yeah I will be out and I will have fun Sebastain
Sebastain: I will get ready
Me: no your a party pooper I don’t want you to come Sebastain your boring
I smiled and grabbed my bag and I walked to my car there was a driver and the driver was a man close to his 30’s he was young but he was like a old man and when he got to the club he was like it loud in there to loud that what the club sounds.This guy who I don’t even know his f*****g name just told a long ass story story and he tried to kiss me
Me: I’m good
He pushed that aside and keep trying to kiss me there was a
Sebastain: She has a boyfriend
Me: your to cute
Sebastain: yeah I know
Me: why you come
Sebastain: because I have to meet my girlfriend
Me: well you should go to her
Sebastain: yeah I shouldn’t leave here I will go get a table
Me: yeah you should get one
I smiled at him and I order a drink I wasn’t going to ruin my night with story tells and Sebastain and had the bartineder who kissed my hand and gave me my drink and I smiled at him Victoria was no where to be found I walked over to Sebastain table he took my drink and took a sip rolled my eyes at him
Sebastian: you drunk a whole bottle before you got here
Me: yeah I know and I didn’t know that you were controling my drinking habits read me chapter two of pride and prejuice from you mind
Sebastain: were at a bar
Me: if you do that I will read chapter three of the book