I am yours

Episode 9

Andrej and our father were the only people who knew every detail about this story. About my feelings.

I took a few deep breaths.

It was time to go. To meet my favourite person. Actually I wanted to stay till the end of the week, but after this meeting I've got nothing to do in here. So I decided to go back tomorrow. 

I met Sofia. She didn't change at all. Again she put out every part of her body, what she thought would get my attention. I told her to show me the files, as I rushed, she wasn't happy with that, but there was no other way to go through it quicker. 

She gave me the files and invited me to have dinner with her. I refused. I felt happy when I finally could escape. 

I went back to the hotel. I asked for a bottle of whiskey, then I rang Mike to organize the route for me for tomorrow. Mike was one of our trusted people who came with me.

 I drank some of the whiskey but It didn't help at all. It never helped. I took a picture of her from my wallet. I had a few. These have helped me to survive. 

Flashback (Aleksandr)

I laid on the coach watched some stupid show on the tv. My phone was ringing, it was unexpected, as who'd call me this time. Eva called me sometimes in her brakes, but it wasn't time for that. I checked the caller ID and for a moment my heart stopped, that was Peter, Eva's father.

- Hallo.

- Aleksandr?

- What's wrong Peter?

- I need to ask you to do me a favour.

- What is it?

- Eva's teacher just called me and said she collapsed at class. They said she is awake now, but not well at all. I cannot go, my boss don`t let me leave, could you go for her?

- Of course I can. 

And immediately I grabbed my keys. 

- Please let me know how she is doing.

- Of course.

- Thank you.

I ran to my car. And drove quickly to the school. Peter told them already that her boyfriend was going to pick her up, so I could get in to her without problem. My dear baby, I never saw her in a state like this. She was white, and clearly I could tell that she felt like sh*t.

- Babe, what's happened?

- I don't know. I don't feel well, please don't come close, maybe you can catch it.

She said with teary eyes

- Fu*k that I won't catch it.

I frowned, and went to pick her up in my arms, to take her to my car. I think she knew that by then there was no point in arguing with me, so she held me too, and rested her head near my chest. I've put her down gently in the back of the car, so she could be more comfortable. 

I drove to the A&E with her. She fell asleep at the back. When we arrived I tried to take her out without waking her up but she opened her eyes.

- Where are we?

- I took you to the hospital. Just relax.

She closed her eyes. I put her down to a seat, just left her until I've done the registration. Then I sat back next to her. She folded her arms around mine, and rested her head on my shoulder. I kissed the top of her head and rested my cheek on it. It took about half an hour when finally they called her in, I went with her.

 The doctor asked what she's been eaten and some usual questions, but there was nothing that could cause this state. The doctor said that could be a virus or he frowned for a minute.

- Are you her...

The doctor asked and he waited for me to finish the sentence.

- Her boyfriend.

- Are you two had s*x?

- Yes.

And I frowned as I thought what the doctor's been thinking. 

- Are you using protection?

Eva lifted her head up surprised looking at me and the doctor. 

- No we don't, just trying to be careful.

I told Eva when she gave me her virginity that from now on we have to use something, but she refused. She said that she doesn't want to take hormone pills as she's been reading about them, and it's got a lot of side effects that she didn't want. 

But she also said that, when she is with me, she wants to feel me instead of latex coverage. I asked her what she's going to do, if she gets pregnant because what we are doing is not really safe. 

It wasn't that I didn't want to have children. I'd love to have one if she is the mom of the child, but she's been so young yet. She always said that, if it happens she doesn't mind being a young parent. She said she'll proudly take the role of being the mom of my child. 

- Then let's get a pregnancy test done. 

The doctor said. He sent her out in the bathroom, then when she finished we sat outside for a few minutes. We both were quiet. I've got mixed feelings. I didn't want to put her through this yet. Getting pregnant, worrying, giving birth. Then the first months with a newborn. 

But my other half would have been proud and happy and to be honest it wasn't just the thing we created a new life by loving each other, but the fact that we could have a child together would have ment that we never can go far away from each other. 

Doesn't matter what is happening, we'd have a bond, so even together or parted she always should stay close to me. 

I think it was the longest few minutes in my life. Finally the doctor called us back, I don't deny that, my heart started pounding faster. I was excited to hear what the result was.