A World With You

I never thought it"d come to this. Never would have anyone imagined that the two of us would ever come so far in such a short amount of time together. The two most unlikely people ever to have felt such feelings for one another is just something no-one but ourselves would"ve realized up till now. I would even go so far as to say that this is too much of an indescribable event that had come to pass. An event that I could be writing pages about non-stop. But for now, I will have to make do with 1-2 page(s) max. Even if I do struggle to contain too much things that I could put into words. The only thing I may regret is the fact that I made quite a poor first impression with you from the very beginning. Remember the first time we met? You and I were the "formal" type to each other way back during that time. I met you through a good friend of mine when I took a request to her aid and none of us really had it planned out to be even more closer than just mere acquaintances. We started out well enough I suppose. But never again would I have thought I"d be meeting you again the second time after I successfully completed your best friend"s request. But alas, it took a dark turn from there unthinkably. All formality had gone through out the window for the both of us. A huge misunderstanding had come to pass between us. One that was so severe that you began to hate me so when you"ve barely known who I really am. It was quite the shock anyone could hate me as much as you"ve expressed yourself to be when I myself beared absolutely no hatred or liking to you that very moment. Of course - as shocked as I had been, I did not have the desire to get you to like me because I knew that even if you understood it was just an misunderstanding on your part (which you eventually did understood but still hated me for it) it was still an unforgivable mistake on my part knowing I had taken it to the extremities with your best friend. Apart from me being on your top "most hated" list of people, you had also wanted me to despise you & hate you for all my worth. But I never gave in. Even when you shouted & yelled at me with nearly everything you had, not to mention all the verbal abuse I get from you that time, Even so - I do not hold that against you nor do I now. At the time, I did not know why you were so intent to make me hold nothing but hatred for you - but I do now. You were tired of breaking many guys"s hearts. Too many had fallen for you that you no longer knew where to turn to as you do not have the very same feelings you could return to them. It is why you never gave me an opening nor a chance to even like you from the start. You were also not ready for a legitimate romantic relationship with anyone because of your past. Even friendship had proven to be very difficult for you as you weren"t completely positive on how to act around others. To which I have now understood from the very bottom of my heart. Even though you bear ill feelings towards me, I was never bothered by the fact that you do. After all, it takes much more than that to even affect me the slightest. But as time flies by day by day, I got to know a little more about you and so did you. Even though you could not have began to understand however mean you were & how rude you were to me - why I never thought you were a bad person at heart. The thing is, I knew you were a good person on the inside from the very start more or less despite what your surface tends to show around me. It"s just an intuition of mine given my observations. You have a heart for those that you love best. You also care very deeply for your friends well being - to the boundaries where you"d let anger take control of your actions and resentment to sweep you from under the rug if anyone ever messes with the bonds you share with whom you"d call "family". If there"s one thing that I had admired about you that particular time, it is how much you care. Your feelings knows no bounds is what I"m saying here. I have, in time, found out the real main reason why you had hated me so. It was because I reminded you of that one guy whom had promised would stay with you - probably till the ends of time for all I know but then left you hanging all this time without a word as you waited and waited in vain for him to come back to you to no avail. The clues were there from the very beginning and now all the puzzle pieces have been perfectly put together in place. But that"s not all, as you have learned that I too was in a heartbroken state on my own. My mind had nearly been wrapped in darkness & consumed. Or rather - drowned by the hatred I felt for the one I used to love and care for so much. The end result was pretty much the same for the both of us as you"ve had the time to learn. Slowly & surely your hate for me became only on the surface as you"ve taken quite the liking to me on the inside. I on the other hand - upon learning much about you had taken a great liking to you from that point on wards. Even though we"ve became friends during those bad times, we still barely knew one another. even though that is true, you had gone to great lengths in keeping my spirits up without really knowing what you were doing. Almost like you were unconsciously unaware of what you had been doing at the time this took place. Nevertheless, I was grateful for what you"ve done for me. For if it was anyone else, it would have not struck as much as of an impact as you had done an I believe I"ve told you this before and I"m telling you again just how much it had meant to me when you tried so hard to get her to get back with me. Even though it had yielded an unsatisfying result, you had put in the best effort you"ve ever had and that was what mattered to me the most - even now as I wrote this. It"s unclear who fell in love first but I sure knew that was the decisive moment where I started to hold a tinny bit of romantic feelings for you.