Ripped Away And Apart

Kafli 22.

I don't remember well what happened next but I remember him putting me into the car and then him talking on the phone. I remember him driving and then picking me up from the car and walking with me into some hotel room. We took a shower together and f****d, we ate and f****d, we went to sleep but I remember waking up in the night either to him doing something to me or me waking up and doing something to him. We did every single position, style and stuff that people do except for my ass, I am not into that. There was not much talking and I was just riding the high from all the orgasims and just the feeling of him touching me.

However now it is three days later and my head is starting to clear up and my hand was completely healed! I took the bandage from it and there were some scars but I was healed! Was this some werewolf s**t? I am standing naked in front of the mirror on the closet and staring at the huge bite/hickey that he gave me. My body is full of love bites but this one is huge and to be honest a little sore when I touch it but it feels like a G-spot when he touches it. I hear him get up from the bed, he was sleeping a moment ago, I see him come up behind me and he is ready for round? What a million? He starts to kiss the my hair and then move it out of the way from my neck but I move away from him. I walk around the hotel room and pick up his boxers and his shirt. I wrap his shirt around me and throw his boxers at him. He looks confused. 

“We need to talk so cover up” I say doing a  few buttons on his shirt. 

He looks at me and he smiled, now that I think about it, he has been smiling a lot these last few days. I like his smile. 

“I would like to be naked but if you feel better than you wish will be granted” he says while putting on his boxers. 

I start to walk back and forth rubbing my hands together, I see him take a seat on the bed and lean forward on his knees. Without stopping I force the words out. 

“So you are a werewolf?” 

“An alpha yes” he answers. 

I stop and look at him, does he think I understand that?

“I am like the leader of the group” he explains. 

I nod my head and start to walk back and forth again. 

“All of the people that I saw in that place are werewolf's too?” 

“Everyone except from the mates that are humans” 

“Okey mates, what is that?” I ask, still not really looking at him but walking back and forth. 

He sighs heavily and I see him sit up and rub his chin. 

“Mates are two souls fated to be together, like you are the perfect match for me and I am the perfect match for you. You feel it when we touch” he explains and I want to bang my head against the wall. 

Is he the perfect match to me? Are we destined to be together? Can I even be a part of this world? Do I want to be part of this world?

“Why did you choose me to be your mate?”

“Ooohh I did not, the moon goddess did and I am very happy about her choice because I would not trade you in for anyone” 

My heart skipped a beat hearing him say that but I still have my doubts. I look at him, he is rubbing his hands together but he is looking very intensely at me.

“What?” I ask, still wrapped up in my head. 

“When I was young, I always thought about how my mate would look like in my clothes but I never thought you would look this beautiful” 

I smile. 

“However you have met my father and you have seen how I turned out, I don't like to show my feelings and I am controlled by my temper and wolf. With every day that passes after my sixteen birthday I wished I would never meet you because I knew I could never give you everything that you would need to stay with me…” 

I feel tears form in my eyes. 

“But now after I have met you, I promise you I will kill everyone that tries to keep you away from me and I will do everything in my power to keep you by my side” 

I run to him and straddle him, I kiss him with tears running down my face. We f**k a few time, we order food and I feed him. 

“I don't want to ruin this happy moment here but we have to talk about it and finish it” I say. 

We are in a cuddle, I have my legs wrapped around his and have my forehead in his chest and he has his chin on the top of my head. 

“You mean the video or you doing drugs with some sleshy guy that I am using everything I have not to kill?” he asks. 

I sigh too but I don't move nor does he.

“Both” I say.

“That video is old and before I met you, I didn't know she had it but I will be sure to thank her properly when we get home” he says and by the end his voice sounded dark. 

“What do you mean?” I ask a little worried. 

“She will be punished for trying to break us up and deserves a few beatings but if you don't want me to do it, I know Noah would love to” 

That made me get out of his hold and move away from him and look him in the face. 

“Putting aside that I should just believe you that it is old I have a more serious question, are you seriously talking about beating up a person or are you being sarcastic?” 

“I am deathly serious” 

That made me get out of the bed and I walk away from the bed, I walk into the bathroom and put on the robe that is there. Then I walk back into the room and he is sitting on the edge of the bed but has the comforter over his private place. 

“Have you done that before?” I ask seriously freaking out. 

“Yes” 

“Do you regret it?” 

“No” 

I run my hands through my hair and I try to understand, is he a psychopath? 

“I am a werewolf Ana, there are things you will understand later on but right now you don't have to worry about it” 

I look at him and he just said that with a straight face, he does not look faced by the things he is saying! I lean against the doorframe. 

“Max..” 

He is looking at me but I can see on his face that he knows what I am about to ask him. 

“Have you really killed someone?” 

Silence. He just looks at me studying my face and just looking at me. 

“Yes” 

I let the feelings run free over my face and in my mind. He is a killer! I am fated to be with a killer! I just had s*x countless times with a killer! I look at his hands, those hands have taken someone's life! I look away from him and I slowly slide down the door frame to the floor. 

“Ana you have to understand” he started in a very serious, not so caring voice. 

I let out a ohh yeah right sound and he stopped talking but then he stands up and I freak out. I look at him, he is huge, almost a head taller than me, he has an eight pack, I can see the veins from his muscles and I am sure he could snap someone's neck. Even his thighs and feet look like they could crush someone's skull. I move away from him on the floor and I stare at him.

“Ana” he says. 

I look up in his face and I see his emotionless face but a little milder and with a hint of worry.

“You told me that we are fated to be together, does that mean I am fated to be with a killer? My perfect person is a killer and I should just spend the rest of my life with a killer?!” I say freaking out more and more with every word I say. 

I put my hands on my head. 

“What does that say about me? Am I that sick? Am I fated for you because I am supposed to be okay with you killing someone?” 

I look at him but I can see he is not sure what to say. I look past him and see that it is pitch black outside

“I need to sleep and I will take the couch” 

I stand up and start to walk towards the couch in the living room but this is one big room so he can see me the whole time. However before I could walk close to the couch, I feel him behind me wrapping his hands around me and burying his face in my hair. 

“I can not sleep without you, don't panic about this, Ana this is not as bad as you think”

I put my hands on his and push them so that I am free but his head is still on mine. 

“Killing someone is very serious and horrible. I need to think about this and I need to do that without you close to me. You cloud my judgement.” I say and walk to the couch.

I unfold the blanket on the couch and then lay down but I don't look at him, I hear him go into the bathroom but I fell asleep before he came back out. 

I woke up from a nightmare and there was almost pitch black in the room but I see him sitting on the coffee table before me. 

“You can not leave me, I will not kill anyone ever again and I promise things will change just please please don't leave me again. I can not live through that again” Max says in the dark and for the first time ever I hear so much emotion in his voice that I want to jump in his arms. 

He was afraid.