Ava's P.O.V
Distraught couldn't even begin to explain how I felt... knowing that I would never know the gender, never get to hold, touch, kiss and cuddle my baby was the hardest pill I'd ever have to swallow. It felt like fate was playing some sick twisted game. Dangling things just in reach and as soon as I wanted to grasp them, it got snitched from my hands. Everything in my life seemed to be going that way...
I didn't want to accept it. I couldn't. My heart felt irregular, it felt empty. Somehow my body mourned the loss of a baby. We didn't know about the baby we didn't even get to set eyes on... someone was having a f*****g ball of a time watching my s**t show of a life. Having Hudson by my side made things a bit easier, but only just a bit. To know that he was mourning just as much
