JAX'S POV
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Walking away from Alison felt like relief , my mind wasn't yelling at me , my thoughts weren't spiraling like usual and I kept the voices away . I never thought it would be possible to make them leave , but they did as soon as I thought of Celeste . My mind feels so empty without those annoying voices drivng me towards Alison and it feels great .
All these years , I have been obsessed with her , I loved her - I think , looking at it now , it doesn't feel like love . It doesn't feel like what I feel for Celeste , I care about her , I didn't at first because she was just something to distract me and get me off , but getting to know her , it's like my heart bloomed for the first time in forever .
As I laid sprawled out on her bed last night , she was curled up against my bod
