ALISON’S POV
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It’s been three weeks since little Jake is born and he is the cutest little guy . He looks a lot like Sean , but has Josie’s eyes . Every time Isaac asks me if I want to hold him , my arms automatically want to open and take him , but when his little shiny eyes look at me and I see his little hands , it makes me feel like I already lost something I didn’t even have . The stress I have been feeling has been so overwhelming these past few weeks . Isaac has tried to feel me up , but even if I were feeling better and in the mood , I lied and told him that I wasn’t feeling up to it , that I was tired and needed to rest . I have laid on that bed for several hours with my eyes closed , pretending to be asleep just to not try to have a kid and let him be disappointed in me .
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