I am staring at the wall. I missed the early morning prayer because Csilla was sleeping so peacefully by my side. I didn’t want to pull away from her as she was resting on my shoulder.
To be honest the past few days made me doubtful. I asked myself so many times: “How did I end up here? And anyway...What do I want here?”
I know Csilla and Anna are my reasons. I am here for them. We love each other madly, the three of us, but I am afraid this will come to an end. My heart will turn to stone again and I will turn my back on this craziness. This craziness that makes me so happy.
I would never be able to leave Anna. I love Csilla, but love is fickle.
I look at her and feel guilty.
I will never be able not to love her!
I feel so guilty I suddenly start fidgeting. She responds. Before she
