I waited anxiously in Brooke's office, sitting on the chair next to her table, wondering what she was going to say, I mean I had a tiny idea what this was going to be about, but I just wasn't ready to talk about it, which is why I never bothered talking to her about it.
Her office wasn't too big, she was our drama professor, thought us everything we know about drama.. Which was basically being on stage. She was good at it and very much married to a man, but that didn't stop her from....
"Hey... I'm sorry for taking long... you know my husband.. he talks a lot..." She said walking in, immediately disturbing my thoughts, I gave her a friendly smile, "It's okay... I don't have a class now..."
I didn't know much about her husband, but the guy usually comes once a week to bring her flowers or take her out on lunch. It was like a thing she said. They do it to keep the "spark" in the relationship.
She smiled and set her books on the table, "great... we will talk well then..."
I mentally cursed at myself for blurting that out.
She poured herself water in a glass and taking a closer look at her I realized that her hand was shaking.. like she was nervous? I shook my head to brush that off..
She sat down on her chair and looked at me, "Chloe told me what happened.. how are you?"
I was praying to my ancestors that what Chloe told her about was my mother and nothing else. I smiled a bit, "under the circumstances I'm okay... really I'm getting there.."
"Why didn't you tell me?" She asked.
"Umhh... Brooke, I didn't tell a lot of people.. I only told Chloe coz she's my roommate and then she told you and Stacy... if it was up to me I wouldn't have told anyone at all.." I answered honestly, I mean I hated the attention I was going to get, If I wanted to tell people I might as well paint that on my face... I hated pity and having to say I'm fine all the time, I hated what was happening right now...
She ached her brows surprised, "Why?"
I sighed, "this... what's happening right at this moment is what I was avoiding.. and the pity looks... I don't want that coz it will take me time to heal. I'll constantly have to remind them that I'm fine, if I cry they'll assume it's because of my mom.. I just hate it okay..."
She nodded in understanding, "Well writing helps... or just acting it out.."
I smiled genuinely now, "you just had to remind me that you are my professor..."
She laughed, "It's in me."
"And you are good at it.. so I give you the credit..."
"Thank you..."
"So...." I said trying to cut the awkwardness that was going to build in as soon as we went quiet, "how have you been..."
She looked behind me, probably at the door, and then she looked at me, "okay... Umhh... and you?"
I nodded a bit, "good... I have been okay..."
"That is great..." She said and then looked at her watch, then by the door and back to me. It was like she was stalling, "Hey... I wanted us to...."
My phone started ringing cutting her off. I looked at the called ID and it was my girlfriend, now, without even meaning to, I felt a smile grow on my face. I looked at Brooke, "I'm sorry can I take this?"
She got up nodding, "yes... I'll be back.."
I answered excitedly, "Hey you..."
"And she's awake... how are you?"
I closed my eyes and smiled wider, "I woke up like three hours ago and I was in class since then... now I was summoned to the office by one of the professors, Brooke... I think I'm in trouble..."
She laughed, "Don't make my mind race kid... well where's Brooke..."
"I asked her to answer the call.. I mean the most important person in my life is calling me... the world has to stop so I can answer..."
"You got Shakespeare next to you now? Wow... I just came from another operation... I'm full of blood.. and guess the first thing I think about...?"
I laughed, "me.. Coz you almost killed me of course..."
She scoffed, "I think I miss you.."
My heart melted at that, and I looked at my watch, "will you be able to Skype in four hours.. I'd love to see your ugly face..."
"You are not funny...and babe it will be at 11 almost midnight for me...."
I sighed a bit disappointed,"this time zone will be the death of me..."
"I'll try okay... I didn't sleep the past two days... if I don't sleep again I'll kill people..."
"It's okay... I understand... it's good hearing your voice..."
"Okay.. let me not keep you any further, I'll call again... or you can..."
I nodded, "I will... later.."
"Bye..." and then she hung up. I felt my heart drop with the call.. I looked at the phone and sighed.
The door behind me opened, startling me a bit and Brooke walked in, "Hey... can we move this.. when are you free?"
"Umhh... I don't know... I... can we do this tomorrow...?
"Are you okay?"
I nodded, "yah..."
My voice was shaking a bit. I fucken hate how vulnerable and broken I sounded right now.
"Are you sure Thandy you don't sound okay..."
I got up, "I'm fine professor.. it's just...the call.. it's from home and... I... I have to go..."
I hated how much effect Katherine had on me.
....
I was woken up by my phone blurring again. I put it over my ear and answered it with my eyes closed, "hello..."
"Oh hey there pretty ear...can I see your face instead...?"
Confused I put my phone in front of me but my eyes were still closed.
"Hey... you look beautiful..."
I heard her giggle adorably, "but babe your eyes are closed....."
I laughed and tried to open them and then I saw her beautiful self, "Oh you really look beautiful..."
She looked at herself. She was wearing the same dress She was when we first kissed at the bar. Feeling a bit jealous I asked, "where are you going?"
She smiled, "more like where do I come from... I was missing you so much that I had to relive the moments we shared that day, the only thing that was missing was you..."
"I miss you.. I feel so miserable right now...."
She smiled, "you look so cute, did you go to school looking like that?"
I laid on my stomach and brushed my eyes a bit, they still felt a bit heavy from...
"Thandy have you been crying?" She asked startling me. I had no idea what to actually say coz I honestly was crying before I slept.
"Thandy... what's wrong?"
"Nothing..."
She rolled her eyes sexily, "really? Coz your eyes say a different story..."
"It has only been a day and I miss you so much... I know that this will sound crazy, but my feelings for you are just weirdly growing strong and I'm scared..."
She cut me off, "of what?"
I shrugged, "I don't know, I am just terrified... I can't wait to finish this and come back home..."
"Talking about that, what does your schedule look like..."
I closed my eyes, "honestly... I didn't check, I'm scared of what I'll see, I'm scared I'll be forced to come see you in five months..."
She laughed and I opened my eyes, she blew me a kiss, "woman up and check it okay... I just want to know..."
"I'll just surprise you by showing up in your office or house don't worry.."
"Oh baby that would earn you one big amazing sex..."
After she said I blushed like crazy, she had no idea of the things she was already making me feel, I looked at her and she was squinting her eyes at the phone. And that's when I realized there was a presence behind me.
"Oh God when she said you was hot I didn't think this hot..." Chloe said and I sighed, "God Chloe....stop.."
Of course she ignored me, "hello Katherine...."
"Hi..." Kat said and then she looked at me, "does she know she's half naked?"
I turned to check Chloe and of course she was in her bikini and bra. She climbed in bed on my back and sat on it and rested her arms on my shoulders, "how are you Katherine?"
Kat smiled, "I'm good thanks and how are you Chloe....?"
"I am good.. it's just amazing to finally see you and to know that this i***t actually told you about me.. yippy.. I thought she didn't since..."
I cut Chloe off, "Chloe can I talk to my girlfriend without you nosing around...."
She kissed my cheek, "Bye Katherine.." then she climbed off and disappeared to thin air.
I turned to Katherine who was smiling, "do you ever think about getting your own place?"
I furrowed my brows at her and thought I understood what she meant, Chloe walking around naked.. "She's hardly here... She refused to leave today coz she was worried about me.."
She nodded, "your friends are really close to you....makes me wonder."
Oh God... No!
I cleared my throat, "what?"
"Have you ever slept with them?" She asked and I kept quiet, she continued, "Chloe and Maud..that is.. have you ever had s*x with them?"
I had no idea what to say and lying to Kat wasn't on my list. So I shut my eyes and cursed at myself a thousand times in my head..
"Okay... I guess that's a yes... I'm not going to ask you how many times.. relax..."
"Once....." I managed to say and I heard her sigh, "Look I have to go get myself useful or try to get sleep... one will depend on the other.."
I opened my eyes, "Umhh Kat... will that change things?"
She shook her head, "I won't let the things you did before you met me change things... unless they repeat themselves, then they sure will change things..."
"Okay.... call me when you wake up..."
"But babe when I wake up it will be midnight to you..."
A little Part of me was terrified things were going to change, but when she called me 'babe' I felt a little better but still not fully convinced. So I shrugged, "I don't care... please call..."
"Hey.... how about you call when you wake up and I'll call you back if I'm busy... you flew for 16 hours kid, you have to rest.. I'm not going anywhere... I'll be here when you wake up...."
That right there melted my heart, I smiled, "okay... I'll do so when I wake up..."
"Let me go try to sleep..." then she blew me a kiss, I caught it and placed it on my heart... "Bye Kat.."
Then I heard someone clap their hands behind me. I turned to Chloe. She looked amused, "so we had s*x once?"
I got up and rolled my eyes, "don't... if it wasn't for you walking around naked I wouldn't have gotten that question..."
She ignored what I said and told me, "it was 7 times... in case you forgot...or you can't count.. we had s*x seven times..."
"And you wanted me to tell her that? Chloe I really like her and I don't wanna ruin things.. She knows we had s*x, the number of times doesn't matter.. so just please.. stop it.." I yelled unintentionally.
She ached her brows at me and then lifted her hands up in surrender, "alright love bird.... I just wanna see how you'll be able to not go back to your ways... I mean you'll be here five months and after graduation you HAVE to find a job here at least for a year... I just wanna see how you won't have s*x for that long..."
"Get out of my room Chloe... just get out...."
And She did.
I sat down and sighed, my life was really f****d up.. bad past decisions were interfering and I hated it.
I looked at the door as soon as I heard my stomach growl, I was flipping hungry, and I knew this i***t didn't cook coz she never does.. I slowly got up and went to the kitchen, she was there making a sandwich..
"Want some?" She asked when she saw me and I shrugged, "sure..."
She made it and then came to join me on the couch, "Look I'm sorry about earlier... I don't know what I'm feeling right now... jealous I guess..."
I ached my brows, "jealous? Of what? And what do you mean Jealous?"
She shrugged, "really Thandy? You are a fucken idiot..."
"Wait..." I said as realization hit me, "your ass likes me?"
"A lot of people like you, they are just not groupies like Stacy.... you decided to shut everyone out and then now baaaaam your feelings are caught by a 49 year old milf..."
I closed my ears as soon as I heard the last part of the sentence, "good Lord Chloe you watch too much pornography.. Katherine isn't a milf..."
"She so is.... you guys would fit perfectly under the 'mother seduces step daughter' category.. but girl your woman is so hot for someone her age.. what does she eat...?" She asked and I shook my head after taking a bite on my sandwich, "I don't know how I'm roommates with you..."
She wiggled her brows, "you prefer me than Stacy...."
"Can we stop talking about her..."
She then laughed, "I'm so surprised she isn't here yet... she's been here everyday around this time...maybe she gave up on you."
Right after she said that the door opened revealing Stacy. As always she looked beautiful like a model that she was. She had on bum shorts and a tank top.. She was walking around practically naked..
"Oops spoke too soon..." Chloe said finishing off her sandwich.
"Oh God Thandy... you are back..." the girl said hurrying to me and I got up. She gave me a hug which I returned with no problem, "Hey Stacy...."
"Hey babe... I missed you so much..."
I held on tight and then pulled away, she looked at me as if she wanted to kiss me and I looked at Chloe. She rolled her eyes nd got up.. "Hey Stacy do you need something to drink?"
The girl in front of me shook her head, "no I'm good... but I'm sure Thandy could use one. She's eating a dry sandwich..."
I laughed, "Thank you for noticing Stass... Chloe handed me this sandwich... I'm choking to death here..."
"Yah fine, gang up on me..." She said handing me the drink and I smiled, "Thank you..."
She signaled to me that she's leaving and I shook my head. She couldn't fucken leave me with Stacy here, the girl was going to r**e me.. I know... She persisted and got up, I said, "Chloe remember you promised to help me with the assignments...and the staff I missed.. I need to do that now to keep my head busy please..."
She sighed, "but..."
"Please... please.. I just need to finish these and keep my good record..."
"I can help..." Stacy volunteered and I was so glad that she and I did different courses. I shook my head, "nah it's okay Stass... I need Chloe coz she was in class.."She shrugged and I gave Chloe the evil eye and she said, "fine... I'll go get my staff.."
"Bring my bag..." I called out...
I turned to Stacy and she smiled at me, "It's so good to see you.."
"me too, but Stass don't get me wrong okay, I need some time, I'm not okay and I have to catch up on school work.. so I have a lot to deal with..."
She smiled resting her hand on my thigh, "I'll be here for you babe.. don't worry.."
I sighed, I wasn't asking for that, I wanted her out of my life.
"Umhh Stacy honey.. I think what she is trying to say is back off a little bit.. She already has a lot on her plate and you are just adding up.. so just give her some space for a bit and leave her in piece...." Chloe said walking in.
Stacy got up and looked at Chloe, she looked so torn and sad. Then turned and left. I turned to Chloe, "What the f**k dude?"
She shrugged, "she left... so shut up if you won't thank me."
I sighed and kept quiet. I wanted her to leave but not with a broken heart.
Time went by pretty fast, before I knew it presentations were over and we were submitting assignments after a month. I felt pretty confident about my work, I honestly was working very hard.
I haven't talked to Brooke coz things were just too busy, I with school work and her attending her students.
Katherine and I were fine, well I thought we were fine until a few days ago, she started acting weird. More like distant. I couldn't get a hold of her and she didn't try to call me back. Just a text here and there saying she's too busy.
It broke my heart and I asked to Skype with her today and she said she'll make time. I did raise this up and told her that I really was missing her and she was acting distant. She assured me that we will talk and everything is still fine...
Until now.... I was on the Phone calling her and it wasn't answered the first time. I sighed, my heart hurting a bit and called her again hoping and praying someone would answer.. to my luck someone did...or should I said my worst nightmare..
"Hello..." and it wasn't Kat. It was a female, a colleague perhaps, maybe Kat was in surgery.
I sighed, "Hi.. can I please talk to Kat... or is she busy operating?"
I then heard a door open over the phone and Katherine's voice saying,
'Simone... what are you doing with my phone?'
My heart dropped. So now Simone was answering her calls?
"Oh I'm sorry... it has a US code and I thought if it's from the US you finally took my advice from the other day and applied for a job in a higher place.. I thought maybe it was important..."
'God' I heard Katherine say before the phone made a few sounds and the kept quiet...
"Thandy...." She said over the phone and I kept my mouth and eyes shut.. trying by all means not to let my mind be all over the place.. coz they have been talking from days ago, then she started acting weird those few days ago and now she was answering her 'important' calls...
"Babe.... Thandy, baby talk to me..." She said....
And I hung up.....