Age Is Nothing But A Number

Chapter Fourteen

That week went by very slow. I isolated myself from everyone even Chloe too. She'd ask me what was wrong and I'd just ignore her or say I was okay.

I hated this part about love, you trust a person with your heart and they screw you over. But in this case it was different, I hadn't given Kat a chance to talk and "explain" why her ex was in her office and answering her calls or why she's been acting weird and distant.

Thing is she tried calling but I just couldn't put myself into answering. I was terrified of the things I'd hear. I was terrified she'd hurt me, but what I didn't realize was that not knowing was killing me more.

And by the look of things, it seemed like history was repeating itself.

See, my ex when I was nineteen.. we weren't even on a long distance relationship, we could see each other everyday if we wanted.. and everything was going well until I got accepted in NYC... She started acting weird, avoiding me and ignoring my texts, then her ex answered her phone and she told me that the girl just dropped by it was a surprise, but turns out they been screwing behind my back....

Now, was this maybe what was happening? Was Kat screwing Simone behind my back. But it's been eight years.. eight flipping years of separation and....

"That's it... you are going out with me..." Chloe said budging in my room. I closed my eyes and took in one deep breath trying to calm myself down from killing this girl.

"Thandy what's wrong? I am worried about you..." I shrugged, "I'm fine...."

"No.. no... and we are going out.."

A part of me considered going out but while I was feeling like this? I knew I'll do something stupid and the thought of doing it scared me so I shook my head, "no Chloe... I'll just study...we got exams next week and then in three months it's graduations.. I should study to keep my record good... I want to find something quick when I get out of here.."

She came to sit next to me in bed and gave me a hug, "Maud misses you... you haven't been talking to her.."

"I'll call her...."

"I love you okay...." She said kissing my cheek and I nodded, "me too..."

She got up and left. The second she closed the door I was on my phone trying to call Maud. I didn't even check the time.

A part of me wanted her to help me, Just check on Kat a little, but I didn't want her going all detective on her.

"Hello...." a very sleepy Maudy answered and now I checked the time.. it was around six, which meant it was almost midnight if not after in South Africa.. I cursed in my head for just calling..

"Babe....Thandy... Babe talk to me..."

Those words, they reminded me Kat's last words before I hang up and stopped talking to her.

"f*****g ass, I'm talking... you called me didn't you?" She said sounding pissed and I rolled my teary eyes.

"History is kinda repeating itself..."

"Which one? Did you sleep with someone?"

I gasped, "what the f**k Maudy no.... I have a girlfriend in case you forgot and I don't do that s**t when I label myself with someone..."

"Then you might as well try to elaborate coz it's midnight and some of us can't think fully..."

"Kat... She has been seeing her ex and I'm terrified... what if they get back together..?"

I heard her sigh, "Then I'm going to kill Katherine..."

"Idiot..."

"No I mean it.. I'm going to. She can't f**k with you like this...it took a lot from you to give her a chance... so if she's screwing her ex she'll deal with me.."

I found myself smiling, "I miss you and I just feel like I'm going to die miserable here.... I wanna talk to her but what if she lies.... Maudy I'm oceans away, she can lie about it..."

"Look... I'll do something to check if she's.."

I shook my head quickly, "no.. please no, I'll be forced to ask and I wanna talk to her face to face... I don't want the possibility of her lying to me over the phone..."

"When is the face to face going to happen?

"After graduation hopefully... I can't fly there now....."

"So you won't talk to her for three months... what if she moves on...." She asked and I sighed, "Then she never cared about me the way I care about her.."

"Look I'm sleepy... if I was you I'd call Kat and talk... I love you and have an important case tomorrow.. Bye..."

Her ass didn't even wait for my response, she just hung up. But I didn't blame her, it was midnight and very stupid of me to call her...

I scrolled up to Kat's numbers.. I idioticly saved her as "Babe" on my phone.. I called her and put it in my ear but quickly hang up before it could ring. I wasn't even putting tabs on her working schedule now, so I didn't know if she was fast asleep or not.

I tried to close my eyes but couldn't. I haven't talked to her in a week.. I felt like Shit..

'come on... just try and call her please..'

I finally gathered strength and called her phone and it was on voicemail, 'hey this us Kat, I'm currently operating or just not in the mood to talk.. if this call is important I'll call you back....or you can tell me if it's important after the beep... beep..' and I found myself laughing at how stupid the ending of her voicemail was...

My heart sank coz her phone was off I mean that was fueling my suspicions.. but on the other hand, it felt so good hearing her voice, even though it was a voicemail...

I finally slept.. by the grace of God. I managed to stop thinking about her and sleep..

..

I woke up sweating because of a horrible dream, I mean you are fighting with your girlfriend or in this case whatever the f**k is happening between me and Kat, which I don't know what it is... and then you dream about them happy without you..

I know she and I been dating for a month and a half but in that short space of time, she has made me feel so important and special. What I loved.... fuck... no.. I don't love her ... what I liked about her was how she treated me like an equal, you'd swear there was no 26 years gap in between us...

I got up and got ready for school as usual. After attending all my classes I was walking down the hallway about to go to the library when I heard someone call my name.

I turned to my professor Brooke..

"Professor... what can I do for you?" I asked as the woman approached me, "Hey... are you busy?"

I shook my head a bit, "naaah.. not entirely, I was going to study at the library...."

"You are studying so much lately, I hardly see you around..."

I laughed, "by 'around' you mean at clubs and partied right..."

She nodded, "yes."

I shrugged, "I don't know.. just not feeling okay I guess, I'd be a mood killer if I went..."

She smiled, "walk me to my office... please..."

"If you'll let me hold your books for you then sure..."

She handed be the books, "such a gentle woman...."

We walked to her office side by side, at least doing something kept my mind off thinking about.. well my girlfriend who I didn't know if she was still my girlfriend....

"You are awfully quiet.. miss, everything okay?" She asked after closing the door behind me.

I put the books on her table and turned to only find her a few inches from me, I nodded, "I'm okay..."

"Can we have that talk...." She said and I sighed, "Brooke... we had s*x, it shouldn't have happened you are my professor and I respect your husband, I am so sorry..."

She stood there an looked at me, a bit surprised, I'm sure she wasn't ready for that response. I sighed, "I'm really sorry if I crossed the line, I know you were a bit tipsy and I didn't wanna talk about it coz you had consumed alcohol and I felt like I took advantage of you..."

She still kept on looking at me.

"Okay I'll shut up now... but just know I'm honestly sorry.. you just have to forget it ever happened..."

Seeming shocked by me saying that, she said, "what if I can't..." I ached my brows at her, "what?"

"What if I can't forget about it?"

I had no fucken idea what to say so my tongue caught my throat but I still talked, "Brooke you are married.. you have a loving husband.. s*x with me must just have been awful or bor...."

"It was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced..." She said turning away from me.

I was almost out of words and totally shocked.

"It was mind blowing... don't get me wrong I love s*x with my husband but what you did to me was different.. it was so beautiful... I felt.. I don't even know what to say..."

Shocked I said, "oh wow..."

She nodded, "yea.. and what's awful is that I couldn't stop thinking about it four months ago and it happened then, but it plays in my head like it was yesterday...."

Okay this was the total opposite of what I expected. I wasn't ready. She took a step towards me and stood in front of me, "I loved it Thandy.."

I shook my head, "you are married.."

She shrugged, "yeah but these things happen..."

"Brooke I... I have to go.. Chloe is probably waiting for me..." I didn't even wait for her to say something I stormed out of her office.

I couldn't believe what just happened, I was in a lot s**t with my feelings all over the place coz of Katherine and maybe I heard Brooke wrong. She said she loved s*x with me and she can't forget it... what the f....

I came back to reality when I collided with something...

"Ouch.. what the f**k dyke?"

Okay something.. and this something just added fuel to the fire that was already burning by calling me 'dyke'

I mean I had on my ripped jeans and a baseball top with sneakers.. was totally screaming gay but he had no right to call me that..

"What was that?" I asked calmly hoping he'd get the message and leave. By now we already had a few people gathering around coz this i***t in front of me was known to be the biggest homophobe, well biggest away from me. He has never said anything to me until now...

"You heard what I said, I don't have to repeat myself..." he said cockly, big mistake. I went right into his face and said, "what the f**k did you call me when we collided?"

He looked around us and then at me, I could see a bit fear flash but it was gone as soon as it appeared and he said, "want me to repeat it in front of everyone?"

I smirked, he loved an audience and they were boosting his arrogant coward by continuing to gather around us, "Collins... what did you say?"

He looked around and then at me and shouted, "I called you a dyke, dyke...!"

People laughed and a few that knew not to f**k with me shook their heads, I asked, "did you call me that because you don't know my name or because I been f*****g your girl for over three months before she dumped your stupid ass..."

His audience laughed but I heard something connect with my jaw. It was f*****g painful. I looked at him shocked and that is when I realized he threw his fist at me....

I held my jaw with my left hand but lifted my hand and hit him right under his jaw and I felt his teeth crush with each other...

"What is going on here Collins...." I heard someone from the crowd yell but I hit Collins with my fist on his ribs and then immediately felt hands pull me away from him...

"It was you? b***h!" He shouted and I shrugged before spitting blood, "She's a screamer... of course you wouldn't know this coz you weren't hitting the right spots... I should start s*x lessons.. your stupid ass should be the first one to sign up..."

"Shut the f**k up.. you need d..."

I cut him off, "I'll f**k you up Collins... I'll rearrange your balls instead of your teeth okay..."

"Shut up... stop it.. what is wrong with you?" Brooke asked and I looked around us, "ask them.... I'm walking, he collides with me and calls me a dyke. I ask him what did he just call me and he starts being a s**t then I tell him to f**k his girl right so she won't come begging me to do his job and he lost his f****d up temper and hit me...."

Brooke looked at me shocked. I wiped my bottom lip, "so was I supposed to just let his homophobic ass beat me up.... People like him think they rule this world.. I'll beat his ass.. I'll do it again until he stops being f****d up..."

"Let me take you to the nurse room..." She said and I didn't argue.. when we got there they fixed my lip.

Brooke sighed, "you are not a violent person Thandy what went wrong?"

"I'm sorry... I'm just going through a lot of s**t right now and he was adding up to it..."

"You know you can always talk to the school's counselor..." She then looked behind us and whispered, "and you seem a bit tense.. maybe you need a release...."

Her lips were right next to my face. I swallowed, she was tempting, very tempting and the fact that she was old reminded me of Kat a bit.

Fuck... Katherine!

She leaned in and pulled me into a hug, "It's going to be okay.. you will be okay...I know it's hard..."

I hugged her back and inhaled her fragrance, God.. She smelled nothing close to Kat.. I pulled away and jumped off the bed, "yah.. I'll consider talking to a shrink... but I have to go..."

"Don't collide with anyone..." She said and I laughed a bit, remembering stupid advises like these Kat used to tell me.. "Don't crash again I still need you" or "drive safe, you won't hit a doctor, you already hit one.."

I hated how I missed her and how she looked like she don't give a fuck...

..

I arrived in my apartment around 3pm. I was f*****g tired and my lip kinda hurt a bit.

"What happened to you?" Chloe asked as soon as I walked in and I told her. She laughed, "dude like you f****d Bridget for more than three days.. it was once..."

I laughed too, "I exaggerated... you should have seen his face.. like I just made him suck a dick... f*****g priceless..."

"Okay babe.. look I'm going out... I'll probably come back on Monday..."

"You are f*****g with me right!"

She shrugged, "No... but I need to get laid.. it's been far too long... I mean you don't wanna f**k me.. Katherine is holding your pants..."

As soon as she mentioned her name my smile faded. I turned around to leave and she followed me, "you guys still not talking?"

I threw myself in bed and nodded, "What's worse is that I miss her so much... and she stopped calling. It's been four days without hearing her voice and I feel like I'm going to go crazy... I love....."

"Her.... you love her.... say it..."

I shook my head, "no...."

"Yes.. you love her.. God, It's been two f*****g months... the longest you keep up with someone is a day... and her, your face brighten up when you talk about her. And now you look so sad coz you haven't talked.."

I shook my head stubbornly, "I like her.. like.. like... get that in your head..."

She got up and nodded, "Yea.. you love her...call her man..." then she got out..

Could she be telling the truth? I asked myself as I laid down, I took out my phone and called her.. again, voicemail... f*****g great....

I threw the thing by the door and closed my eyes, and within a few minutes, sleep took over...

...

I was woken up by a knock on the main door. I got up, f**k I slept in a jean?

"Chloe open the door...." I shouted and as expected it was quiet. Has she left for her party?

The knock continued, "Chloe come on.. your friends are here..."

To my luck she responded, "I'm in the shower go open the door..."

I sighed, "you are f*****g with me right? I'm not the one who invited them..."

"Then go open the door so I can chase them out..."

"I hate you..." I said walking out of my room and She laughed, "Oh no you don't..."

I rolled my eyes and brushed the sleep off my face.. God I was still a bit sleepy.

I opened the door and almost had a heart attack when I saw who was standing there,

"What are you doing here?"

She was looking flaming hot. Wearing a navy blue dress and heels. I wanted to throw my arms around her and hug her.. but I stopped myself. She could have came all this way to ask for forgiveness...

She shrugged, "Well I came to see my....umm... girlfriend..."

I rolled my eyes and opened the door wider as she walked in. She was pulling a bag and had a small handbag too.

She looked around and then at me, "not bad..."

I wanted to smile. It was so good to see her.

"Can I hug you...."

Fuck... I couldn't say no... I couldn't bring myself to. She came closer and hugged me anyway, and I inhaled her fragrance. God she smelled so good..

"I'm still mad..." I whispered as I kissed her neck.

"I know...we can clear the misunderstanding...."

Then she pulled away and looked at me, "I missed you so much..."

I smiled like an i***t, "I missed you more..."

"Oh Katherine you're finally here.. thank God, I was really about to leave..." Chloe said as she walked towards us, she kissed my cheek and turned to give Kat a hug, "It's nice to see you... anyways. You girls should behave.. don't do what I wouldn't do this weekend..."

"But you said..."

She laughed, "just don't wake the neighbors..."

I looked at Kat and she was smiling at me, her handbag still under her arm and her bag next to her.

I took the bag on the floor,"follow me...."