Age Is Nothing But A Number

Chapter Thirty Three

We landed in New York the following day and we only had three hours to the shoot.

"Look, my house is close to the studio, why don't we go freshen up and then head there..." Susan suggested and I battled with my emotions whether to do that or not. I mean it was really reasonable considering I'd meet with traffic when I go to my apartment and then come back to the studio.

I sighed in defeat, "yeah... that sounds like a plan...."

"Unless you wanna rest... I'll tell Steph that you...."

"No no no...." I stopped her the moment I saw where this was going, I didn't want to sit at home and do nothing, coz then I'd go crazy thinking about Katherine and I.. "I'm good.. I want to work.. we can do this..."

She smiled as she opened the taxi for me, "is you ready with your script?"

"yea.. while you were busy dreaming in the plane I was busy with my scripts.. I hope you won't set me back..." I said truthfully. Since I couldn't sleep the entire 16 hour flight, I kept me from going sane by practicing my lines and that help forget a bit about Kat...

She rolled her eyes, "yea well when you was busy with Maud I was practicing my lines.. so we will see who really will set one backwards.."

I looked outside the window as I tried to be here in New York and nowhere in South Africa.

"Anyways, what's up with you and Maudy... are you like f**k buddies or something?" Susan asked bringing me back to here..

I sighed,"why? Are you jealous it's not you?"

She rolled her eyes, "Yes I'm jealous.... you know I want you... but I'm just keeping my distance because I respect you and your relationship with Katherine... otherwise I'd have made a move on you already..."

I gasped in shock, I mean this was New to me, in honesty I thought all she wanted was to get in my pants.

"Susan...."

"Don't... it's cool... I know, like I said, respect... so anyways why wasn't she at the airport this morning..."

I sighed as I remembered I didn't tell her the full story.

"I don't know.. traffic probably... Anyways did Steph say they are starting with us?" I managed to change the subject and Susan laughed as if she realized what I was doing.

She then looked outside the window and I was a bit thankful for that.

We finally arrived in her house.. yes, I said house because she wasn't renting like me, she owned the darn place. She was 25, had three cars and her own house. I was 23 with no house and two cars back in South Africa... Oh okay make it one car since I returned everything Kat gave me that night, all her keys were with her now..

Susan took out our bags and I followed with my script in my hand. She opened the gate then I took one bag and helped her in.

The house was big and very gay if I might add. Colorful couches and the wall. It was really beautiful.. And to think that I thought Susan was straight when I started Glee.

"I'm sorry it's a bit messy..." She said and I furrowed my brows at her. The place was spotless, ass was just trying to find something to say...

I shrugged anyways, "It's not bad.. I mean it's clean..."

She put her bag on the floor and looked at me, I smiled and poked her shoulder, "Are you f*****g with me? The house is amazing.. stop being an ass.."

She laughed adorably and cleared her throat, "thanks..."

I looked around and saw stairs leading up, then I turned back to the girl, "so where do we bath.."

"Theres a bath up stairs, second door on your right..."

"Thank you..." I said heading up stairs but of course this i***t had to say a crazy remark, "but you can come join me in the main... Please...."

I laughed, "nice try Susan.... I mean according to the script Imma get you naked... that itself is seeing you naked enough..."

She shrugged, "I tried..."

We bathed on separate bathrooms. While I was still in there bathing, I couldn't stop thinking about Kat and how things turned out. I felt like crying coz I missed her more than anything in this world and to think that maybe she was just chilling in South Africa not stressing even a bit about me killed me inside..

I finished up bathing and joined Susan in the kitchen. The girl had on her puma navy blue track suit on with white sneakers. Her hair was up in a messy bun. She looked cute.... Way cute that if it was back in my days, she'd be a perfect candidate.

I hated my thoughts, I haven't talked to my girlfriend for almost three days and already I'm thinking like a player..

"You good?" Susan asked taking me away from my thoughts and I nodded, "yea... I just need to send Maud a message...."

She shrugged and sipped on her tea. I went to my bag and took out my phone. I had three missed calls and two messages.

I automatically smiled knowing that Kat at least has to be on one of those, I mean it couldn't be one person.

I opened the missed calls and found that it's my Maa and Maudy.. my heart cut a bit as I went to open my messages with a bit of hope. Hoping that I'd see a text from her.

I opened them and my tiny hope was crashed when I didn't see nothing from her. My heart broke but I tried to hide it. Either way I texted Maudy that I landed and I'm okay, then texted my mom that I'll call her when it's in the afternoon.

Then I went straight to my girlfriend's contacts and texted her,

"Hey.. I landed okay.. I miss you.. And I love you..."

Then I sent it before I could stop myself.

I turned back to Susan checking out my ass.. I furrowed my brows at the girl, "Susan.... the f**k?"

She laughed and lifted her hands up in surrender, "God I'm sorry... I just see me tapping that..."

I sighed and approached her, "Oh God..." I then took her tea and sipped on it. I nodded my head a bit, "nice tea to have been made by a fuckery idiot...."

She laughed and took her script, "let's run before we are stuck in traffic..."

I took my phone, script and a toast of bread then followed the girl. We headed down to her garage. She opened and...

"Holly f**k? You have five cars?" I asked shocked and she shrugged like it was nothing..

She opened the BMW that she usually takes to work.

"How much does Glee fucken pay you ass?"

She laughed as we both got inside the car, "non of your business... you gotta be my girlfriend to know how much I get paid..."

I laughed and she started the engine and drove off. All this way she kept on looking at me a bit. I'd pretend as if I don't see her. That was until she smiled and shook her head while looking at me. I furrowed my brows,

"What is it..."

She stared at me in a way that she has never before, "God knows how much I am falling in love with you... And I really can't help it now.."

Fuck!

What!

She laughed a bit, "I know it's crazy and I respect you and Kat.. but God Thandy I love you so much... everyday I just am falling uncontrollably... Look to be honest I went home with you to support you in any way I can, I didn't go because I thought you'd do the same for me.. Coz we both know you'd never do this for me. So I went there because I love you and wanted to support you..."

My head was racing. This was just crazy, this wasn't happening for real. I mean no... Susan didn't love me. It was impossible.. She just couldn't...

"Breathe.... I'm not trying to scare you off.. I just want you to know how I feel, coz I can't hold it in any longer.. And like I said, I respect your relationship with Katherine.. so..."

"What relationship?" I snapped and she ached her brow at me. I sighed, "I'm sorry..."

She shrugged as she drove inside the studio and parked in her place. We both got out. When we arrived inside the team was already expecting us they gave me those sympathy faces. I shook my head a bit, "can we do this.. I have been waiting for a week..."

Steph came to me, "Are you okay?"

I nodded, "yep....I'm good..."

The woman smiled and gave me a hug.. She then looked at the team, "guys.. we are on Scene 59... Bridgette and Amanda are walking from school to Amanda's place.... is everything ready...?"

They shifted a few staff and then nodded their heads, she turned to us,"girls... are you dressed?"

I had my white shirt and black jeans as my character was supposed to. I looked at Susan and she had on what she was supposed to have too, short dress and a tank top...

"Their school bags..." Steph shouted and George threw them and then apologized.

"Okay good... are you girls ready?"

We both nodded and as I got myself into character.

"AND.... ACTION!"

I got out of my car after parking it on the pavement and then walked down the street to make it home. I had my phone in my hand trying to figure out who I was going to chill with. Since my 'girlfriend' wasn't available... This day was a bit boring.

'Amanda....' Bridgette called for me and I turned around and my eyes landed on my secret girlfriend since she's lying to everyone saying she's straight wheres she kisses me behind closed doors.

I waited for her, 'hey... how are you'

She smiled, 'good... I just missed you..'

I turned back around and started walking towards the main door. Apparently I was mad coz she lied again about not being in a relationship with anyone. I mean don't get me wrong, I wasn't forcing her to come out. I just wanted her to admit that she was seeing someone so people will stop assuming she's not.

'baby come on.. please wait up...' she said running and finally catching up with me...

'baby?' I asked and she gave me those puppy eyes of her that I loved dearly, 'don't... don't give me that Bridgette...'

'but baby what did I do?'

I sighed, 'you are asking me that after the stunt you pulled during rehearsals..'

She rolled her eyes like the drama queen she was, 'oh come on.. you don't understand...'

I opened the door and walked in, the house was empty coz my parents were workaholics.. She walked behind me as I headed to my bedroom..

'you are the one who doesn't understand... you don't want me seeing anyone coz of your jealousy yet you scream about how single you are to every guy who's asking.'

She sighed, 'it's just that...'

'just what Bridgette.. you know exactly how I feel about you and you are here toying with my heart... I love you... God Bridgette I love you.. but if you will keep on doing this, I'll be forced to just move on with people who'll at least admit that they are in a relationship even if they don't wanna come out.....'

I took off my shirt revealing my sports bra and then I went to my closet to look for something to wear.

'Amanda you don't understand....'

I turned around and faced her, 'I do not want you to come out of the closet Bridgette...the least you can do for acting all jealous and refusing I date someone else, is to admit that you are in a relationship or at least are seeing someone.. not to have you advertise yourself like I'm some dirty little se....'

I didn't even finish my sentence, her lips were on mine... I pulled away and looked at her, 'and then you kiss me like you always do.. please, thus has to sto....'

She cut me off again and kissed me.

Out of frustration I pulled her closer and deepened the kiss.. She moaned as I lead her to my bed. I laid her down and surprisingly she let me, I climbed on top of her and connected our lips again. After a few seconds when she felt my hands on her waist she pulled away.

'are you okay?' I asked in a hoarse voice, 'we can stop...'

She shook her head.. And in my f****d up mind I saw.... Kat..

I closed my eyes and started sweating. What the f**k. I should concentrate.. I opened my eyes and she was laying there smiling at me.

The bed, the setting, the surrounding were still here. I quickly got up and rubbed my eyes.

"Cut..... !"

Steph shouted..

I heard footsteps approach me. I still had my hands on my eyes. I felt hands on me. I removed mine and saw Steph.

"Are you okay.."

I looked at her a bit confused and then turned to look in bed and Susan was a sitting there looking at me. The look on her face was saying it all.

Fuck...

"Okay guys... let's take five...." Steph said and then pulled me aside. Just as she was about to say something Susan arrived...

"Can I have a word with her Steph..."

She nodded and went away. Susan looked at me for a while and then sighed, "I know... just if you can't do this coz I'm me, then think of me as her.. please take out what I said earlier.. this is work.. please just..."

I listened to her as she said all this and then thought about Kat again, maybe she has responded and she apologized for not calling me. My heart felt at ease... maybe.. just maybe she was going to call..

I held Susan's hands and looked back to Steph, then I shouted, "We are good to go Steph..."

She came to us, "are you sure?"

The tiny hope inside me screamed and I smiled, "Yes.. I'm sure.."

She smiled, "we need to talk after the shoot okay..."

I nodded and then she ordered us to go back to the position we were in. I climbed back on top of Susan and she stayed the way she was...

"AND ACTION...."

'we can stop...'

She shook her head, 'no it's not that... I'm just a bit nervous...I have never done this before...'

I leaned in and kissed her collar bone, and then her neck, then I went up to her jaw. I looked at her and found her eyes shut. I pecked her lips and then whispered, 'just tell me if you want to stop... okay...'

She nodded without opening her eyes. I smiled and connected our lips again for one passionate kiss. She moaned and rested her hands on my waist, pulling me closer to her.

I felt her hold the hem of my trouser and try to unbutton it. I pulled away from the kiss and looked at her, 'are you sure?'

She nodded her head and then started unbuttoning and unzipping it. I removed my hands from her face and then helped take off my trouser...leaving me in a bra and panty. Then my hand caressed her inner thigh and her body responded like crazy.

I slowly took off her tank top and then slowly slid her dress down. When I made my way up her body I placed kisses on her tummy upwards. I pulled a sheet over our waist as I started to kiss her lips again..

"AND CUT!!!!!"

"God, that was beautiful girls.. I think I just turned gay..." George said and I rolled my eyes as I still laid on top of Susan. I could tell that her breathing changed. I whispered on her neck, "Are you okay?"

She sighed, "Yes... I'll need a moment.. You can get up..."

I got up and put my clothes on. I lifted my head up and saw staff staring at me. God this woman had no chill honestly.

After our scenes were done I had to wait for Steph coz she asked me to talk to her and I agreed. While I was waiting something said I should check my phone.

I did and to my surprise I had no notifications at all. I checked again and still, nothing.

Stupidly I checked the text that I sent Kat and realized that it was delivered about five hours ago. And she hasn't responded.

My heart dropped.

I felt like something was ripping it off painfully. Like the veins that are connecting it to my body were slowly being cut off with no mercy..

I sank on my couch. I felt it, the distance, I felt her slip away from me. Tears walked down my face freely.

It fucken hurt. I don't wanna lie it was hurting like hell.

After about fifteen minutes of crying I washed my face and fixed me with a bit make up then got up. I wasn't in any condition to be talking to anyone. So Steph was going to forgive me. I just wanted to be alone.

I went on set and found that they were shooting, but as soon as I walked in, she spotted me. I waved at her to come over and she silently did.

"Look I don't think I'll be able to... to wait... can we talk some other time...."

She nodded, "It's not that argent... I just want to talk so you can leave.. see you tomorrow.."

I nodded and left immediately..

...

Without hearing from Kat, days turned to weeks... And I felt like I was going insane. I felt like I never meant anything to her. I mean if she could go on without talking to me for three weeks, I knew that I didn't matter as much as I thought I did to her.

I tried texting her and calling her a few times but I have up when she didn't return my calls nor messages..

Right now, I haven't tried calling nor texting for four days.. it was the hardest thing I have ever done but I knew I had to do it if I wanted to move on with my life, coz early she didn't want me to be a part of her.

This morning Steph texted that we needed to meet. Luckily we weren't shooting so seeing her wasn't going to be bad... now this meant I had all day to sit and do nothing. I don't even know why I didn't find a part time job.. I mean money was coming in.. a lot of it actually.. from Glee and then the shows Susan and I were doing for fun and the tour we were planning for Glee fans.. I didn't need money, just something to do.. to keep my mind busy...

The meeting with Steph was in an hour in a restaurant not far from home.

So I put on my shorts and plaid shirt. A straight cap and then sneakers too. God, I felt like a sexy nineteen year old.

I smiled as I took my phone and headed to the restaurant. I arrived there in no time and the waitress took me to my seat.

"God.. I just want to say you are beautiful Thandy.." She said and I smiled, "thank you... you are beautiful too..."

She blushed and took my order then left.

When Steph arrived I was half way through my appletizer. She looked fucken gay. With jeans, a shirt and timberland boots on and then her sun glasses...oh yeah and that cut that made her look like a sexy female version of a man.

"Hey... sorry I made you wait..."

I shrugged, "It's nothing.. you are right on time.."

She looked at me, "you look hot by the way..."

I cleared my throat, "and you look very gay..."

She laughed, "tell me something I don't know...."

We chit chatted about me as she tried to find out how I was doing after my sister and everything. It broke me because the person I wanted to ask me that wasn't even giving me her time of the day.

I managed to hold it in and tell her I was okay.

We ordered food and the minute it arrived Steph started to state why we was here, "so... I have been wanting to talk to you because the team and I see how dedicated you are and how amazing you have made this Amanda character to be... even viewers at home love you..."

I smiled, "I try Steph... I love my job, but you guys just make it so easy for us... you treat us as a family and we just flow easily."

She nodded probably agreeing with me, "we truly are a family.. so I was thinking... I'd love to extend your contract..."

I gasped in shock.

"Yes... that.. so I just want you to think about it.. in a month come tell me and I'll give you a new contract..."

I was speechless, "wow... Steph I don't even know what to say... I mean... wow... I'll think about it... but how long will the contract be..."

She smiled, took a piece of paper and wrote it down. I looked at it and the at her. She smiled, "of course we would have to up your pay and you are allowed to get other jobs on TV aside from Glee.. but as long as you will manage..."

This was just the best, but I had to talk to Maa and then the decision will be made..

We finished up eating and she paid. "Can I take you home..."

"Steph it's just fifteen minutes away.. I walked here..."

She got up, "and I'm taking you home.. you were hungry then, now you are full so you'll be tired..."

I laughed at her stupid excuse to take me home.

We walked to her car and she opened the door for me.

"God you are such a gentle woman..."

She laughed and started driving...

"So....." She said out of the blue, "Are you sure you are okay?"

I nodded trying so hard not to think about her back at home, "I'm good... I'm trying you know.. but I'm good..."

She parked outside my apartment and then shut the engine. I suddenly became worried. I mean if she was dropping me off she'd just let the engine run and then I get out and leave.

"Umhh so I'll go up...."

She got out and opened the door for me, "and I'll walk you..."

"Come on Steph.. you don't have to.."

I got out and she closed the door.

"I insist... I want to make sure you are safe..."

I laughed a bit nervously, "God now I feel like a kid..."

She laughed as she walked me up the stairs, when we were about to reach my floor she pulled me since she was walking behind me.

I looked at her confused, "Steph?"

She shook her head a bit and bit her lip coming closer to me..

"Steph? Uhmm what's going on?"

"Don't freak out... just... I wanna kiss you..."

I held my breath and looked at her shocked. Did she just say.. that she wants to.... kiss me?

"Is that okay with you?" She asked again and I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.

She leaned in and her lips finally connected with mine. When her right hand held my waist and pulled it closer to her, I felt my whole body grow hot. And my knees go weak... I stupidly kissed her back but the more I did, the more I got wet.

I pulled away and quickly looked away.

Fuck.... how did kissing Susan without clothes on not get me turned on but this did?

"Are you okay?"

"Yes... I just... umm.. need to go lie down a bit...." I stuttered and she laughed, "call me... please.. I just don't want thing awkward at work.. so call me later. Or at least take my call when I do call..."

I nodded, "yea... I will..."

She kissed my hand and then walked down the stairs. I tried to compose myself.

I slowly walked up and what I walked on almost gave me a heart attack..

"What are you doing here?"

"Can we talk please..."

I opened the door, "I'm sorry you flew from South Africa for nothing... but I have nothing to say to you.."

She walked in behind me, "but I do Thandy... please just give me a chance.. please..."

I sighed and looked at my watch. Then I looked at her,

"Okay.... you have 20 minutes....start talking...."