Age Is Nothing But A Number

Chapter Twenty One

I arrived back up and threw myself in bed. Then my thoughts started wondering around. As much as I wanted to know what Simone was talking about, today wasn't the day. Today I had different plans and I was going to concentrate on that now and then Simone later...

My girlfriend slowly walked in... I opened my mouth before she could, "can I say something..."

She shook her head, "Thandy..."

I nodded, "no let me... this isn't how I planned today.. you are here and I'm here and we just had mind blowing sex... I planned on giving you your gift after sex... And I'm going to do that.. Simone can go f**k herself... I'm with you and I love you...nothing you say will change that or scare me away..."

She laughed, "I'm glad you think like that, but I think I should tell you too... I don't see it as a bigger deal... so..."

I took in one deep breath, "Okay it's not a big deal..."

She laid next to me and the gift box that I put under the pillow was already next to me. She looked at it and smiled, "but first I really hope I get to open this after this confession..."

My eyes shot wide open, "Don't f**k with me babe, you said it's not a big deal..."

"It's not... but... okay just have an open mind please. It was big.. I know it was wrong of me to do that and I'll never do it to you.."

I sighed a bit stressed, "Oh s**t now I'm stressed..."

"Baby... don't... please... just let me get this over and done with..."

God, my mind was all over the place.. Like what was she going to say? She cheated too? Maybe she did.. I should get ready for it.. God... that's the only thing you can promise never to do on someone else.. cheating... oh fuck....

"So.... I love sex... I don't know if you have noticed but I do so much.... so Simone always made it a big deal.. She didn't want to have it the way I wanted.. it was her way or the high way... And I'd wanna go down on her but she'd refuse at all or wanna bath first.. it was always a mission with her... So I didn't know she was f*****g someone else, and I did something I still regret even today... I got drunk and f****d someone else....."

Oh fuck..... I closed my eyes...

She continued, "I did that over eight years ago and two days after, I confessed since I couldn't live with that lie.. that's when she told me she's been cheating for two years with our friend and then I felt like s**t and had no remorse for what I did.. Coz it was a once off thing and she's been doing it behind my back with my friend... then I filed for divorce after we tried to fix things..."

I kept quiet and looked at her.

She breathed out, "there... yah... I'm f****d up I know.... And I'm sorry I didn't tell you...."

I took the box that was next to me and laid on my stomach, "I think it's time you open your gift..."

She ached her brows, "so you'll just pretend like I didn't say I f****d someone else while I was married..."

I shrugged, "what you did is not right, you know it and had the decency to come clean and apologize about it... now I'm not going to hold you against something that you did a long time ago.. I myself am not perfect.. I love you and that was in the past.. And I think you should open your gift now..."

"Can I kiss you?" She asked with the hugest smile on her face and I shook my head.

She laughed, "you know, Simone can call you a kid all she likes.. but you are more matured than her.. And that's what I love more about you.."

I rolled my eyes playfully, "Jesus I'm a matured kid... niceeee.."

She laughed and pushed me slightly. I laughed too and then she laid on her stomach too and we both faced each other...

"I love you..." She whispered and I smiled, "I love you too..."

She leaned in and just as she was about an inch from my mouth, I backed away and put the gift box in front of her and she kissed it instead...

I laughed at her hysterically as she faked a frown, "but you don't love me Thandy..."

I laughed, "yeah I don't..."

She took the box while laughing and opened it...And her jaw dropper as her eyes popped wide open. She held the ticket, "babyyyyy....God a return ticket to New York... baby why are you doing this.. it's expensive... I mean you are here also... so Why is there a need for us to go to New York in two weeks....?"

I sighed, women, "Baby, If you can open all this box and read everything that's inside, you'll know answers to your questions.. Like why don't you check everything out and then ask after that..."

She opened the box again and my invitation to the graduations popped up. She opened it with a smile, "well this is wrapped up all beautiful I swear I don't wanna mess it up...."

I laughed, "open woman and shut up..."

Immediately when she saw the invitation and read it, I saw tears waltz down her cheeks... I wiped them and she laughed a bit, "so... I'm this important huh...?"

"You are a whole lot important to me.. so will you be there..."

"Baby .. of course yes, you don't even have to ask to make sure... but the tickets... I could have bought them myself...."

I rolled my eyes, "a thank you would have been nice... but how about I make you my p********e instead of you spending your money for me, I spend mine on you.."

Her face immediately changed, "that's not funny..."

"Okay... I'm sorry, but I can't not joke about it... Look I'm not buying you and you are not buying me. So don't let it affect you this much..."

She nodded, "I know.. I'm sorry it's just, with our age difference and the color of our skin... a lot of things will be said... And..." She kept quiet and looked at me, then she shook her head a bit, "I don't know..."

"What don't you know?" I asked and she got up into a sitting position.. "I don't know... it's just...."

"What?"

She put the ticket and the invitation back inside the box and then put them on the side... I looked at them a bit confused and then turned back to my woman who now looked so darn worried.

My heart broke at the sight, I hated this face, I mean I was seeing it for the first time and I did not like it at all. She looked torn and tired, like she just heard bad news and now had no idea what to do.

I sighed, "Baby what's wrong.. what are you thinking?"

She shook her head, "a lot...."

I kept quiet waiting for her to go on. Well I thought she was going to tell me what that lot was, but she just sighed and looked away. Scaring me a bit more.

"Babe?"

She sighed and shook her head, "let's not do this now.. I don't want to send you running..."

"Send me running? To where..."

She just looked at me and said nothing.

God, she had no idea how scary this was. How scary what she was doing was. She had no idea..

I looked at her and her acting all weird was worrying me so much. She shook her head a bit. She looked like she had something to say but something was stopping her..

"You know...." I said after a while, "I'm really scared...."

"Of what?"

I laid back down and closed my eyes. I silently asked myself if I should just make myself vulnerable, and tell her all my fears. Asking if she was going to take it well or just run.. or maybe think I'm too much..

She climbed on and crawled to where I was, she laid on her back and then patted her chest... I got up and opened her legs apart, she gasped and I laughed, but laid on top of her, squeezing my body in between her thighs and rested my head on her chest.

She smiled, "so talk to me.. tell me what you are scared off..."

I shrugged, "it's... I don't know.. I'm just scare of losing you..."

She removed the braid that was on my face and then brushed my cheek, "Baby what's scary about losing me...?"

I furrowed my brows and looked at her face, "is that a tricky question Katherine?"

She looked down at me, "it's a true one.. And God you saying my full name just does something to my womanhood...."

I poked her ribs and she laughed, "stop..."

"You mean pussy.... the name is p***y babe...."

She laughed, "it wouldn't hurt to respect some parts of the body you know..."

"How about you name it then.... I'll say yours it's Katherine.. since I call you Kat a lot...."

She laughed more, "and I'll name yours T... nice.. this is very romantic.. now back to you being scared..."

I sighed, I was trying to avoid that coz then it meant being vulnerable and a tiny possibility of rejection...

"Why don't we...."

"What are you scared of?"

"I love you okay... And I feel like I'm in way too deep, so I get scared... That maybe you'll get this age thing way too much into your head and then it will end up affecting us, that you'll find someone your age and leave me hanging... that one day you'll get tired of my drinking and childishness and want to control me or tell me what to do..."

When I finished saying all this, her jaw was on the floor. She shook her head, "first things first, I love you for you.. for who you are and I'd be an i***t if I change you into something else... I love you the way you are.... secondly, I don't want anyone else.. thirdly, Baby the age thing will forever be here, but I won't allow it to ruin us... I love you too...."

"Babe...."

She shook her head, "I'm scared too you know, that you will find someone your age, someone who won't be boring and who isn't old.. I mean what am I? Just an old woman who isn't even attractive..."

I scoffed at her, "Please.... you are Katherine Omarley... no one can beat that. You are very sexy babe and I'd chose you over and over again... I love you and I so want 'Katherine' by just thinking about you..."

She laughed, "and I thought I was the only one who loved s*x here..."

I rolled my eyes, "you know you can't have s*x without me right.. so we might as well both love it..."

She laughed and I pushed my body a bit up until my face was right above hers. Then I connected our lips...

"You know I didn't think you had fears or anything... I thought everything was just awesome and your ass was brave enough that it has me... I mean I'm hooked..."

She wrapped her legs around me and pulled my head on her and kissed me, "would you shut up... And f**k me..."

I smiled in between the kiss, "you don't have to ask me twice..."

I kissed her and started grinding on her a bit. She moaned a bit louder and grabbed my ass pinning me against her...

My hands were immediately on her breasts...

She pulled away from the kiss and whispered, "I want you.... I wanna feel T on Katherine... please... Now...."

I smiled and took off my blouse, "I love you Kat..."

"I love you Thandy..."

..

In a week I was home and have just handed them the plane tickets and the graduation invitations... the latter indicated that it has five family passes so much mom asked, "where's the fifth one honey?"

I shrugged, "might have given it to..."

"The person she's dating..." My little sister said a bit excited and I laughed but gave her a side glare.

"Oh I'll finally get to meet him..." My father said and I rolled my eyes, "maybe not yet dad... I don't know, we have been seeing each other for 7 months.. I think it's a bit soon, she'd probably think so too..."

"Seven months? I should have given him the talk by now.. when will I meet this boy..."

I took in a deep breath, "girl.... dad you mean girl, It's a 'her'..."

"What?" He asked seeming a bit confused..

I cleared my throat, "the person I am dating is a woman... not a boy..."

He was holding a cup of coffee, as soon as I uttered those words the cup slipped from his finger tips and I heard it shutter on the floor.

I closed my eyes, here comes the lecturer...or the f**k off

"What are you trying to say Thandy?" My mom asked and I swallowed, "that I am in love with a woman..maa.."

"But... since when?" Daddy asked..

I shrugged, "since I can remember.. when I was thirteen.."

"You were too young to know who you like then..."

I rolled my eyes, "well I liked Zininzi then... And many other girls I did after her.."

"This is crazy. I have never seen this before, you are just experimenting this thing now... maybe you will I don't know... change.." he said and I laughed sarcastically,

"Dad that's crazy, what you just said.... I am not going to change... I have never been with a guy before or even ne attracted to guys.. and I know I'm attracted to women.."

"How can you be so sure if you have never dated a guy before..."

I was getting irritated by the questions but I figured they are asking because they don't know anything about this. So I calmed down, "Dad.... I am sure you don't need to date a guy to prove that you are in love with a woman..."

I suddenly felt something connect with my jaw and I swear to God I felt like I lost my tooth...

"Don't you ever talk that nonsense in my house.. don't you dare.. I don't need a man to prove to me that I am attracted to a woman.... it happens naturally.." My dad screamed his lungs out after hitting me with a fist.