Love Ain't Easy

Chapter Twelve - You're So Beautiful

OLWETHU'S POV

After reading Vee's message of us having to talk I kinda panicked a bit. I was scared.. not necessarily scared but nervous. What were we going to say..? That we should stop kissing and it was a mistake? s**t! That freaked me out a bit. I down low didn't want it to be a mistake.. I knew it was wrong but... I was fucked.. literally f****d.

I mean the first kiss was to shut me up.. and we got stopped before it could escalate.. but the second one. God! That was everything I needed in the past four years and more.

How I felt, how her touching me felt so familiar like we never stopped. I was in deep ish because she was slowly breaking down my walls and making me weak for her again. Scary as fuck.... but I guess us talking about it and addressing it was ideal.

"Umh... what's wrong with you? You look like shit..." Susan said walking in.

My phone was still in my hand and the message from Vee was open still. I looked at my friend, "nothing I'm good."

"Really.. let me see your phone.."

I shook my head, "it's all good Susan for real.."

Suddenly this i***t snatched my phone and ran away to the kitchen. I stood there speechless and looked at her, "the f**k Susan.."

She laughed and started looking at my phone. I watched and she sighed then gave it back to me. I looked at her expecting her to talk..

"So?" I asked when she said nothing and she just shrugged, "what?"

"Did you find what you were looking for?"

"The ghost you saw.. nope.. you suck!"

I laughed, "riiiight..."

She smiled, "so Precious and I have s**t to do tomorrow.... still don't wanna join?"

I shook my head, "nope, got staff to do tomorrow hey.. so I'm sorry I can't."

"No biggie, so are you doing Paige or what?"

I laughed, Paige and I haven't had s*x in a while and I don't know why. Since she found out about Valentia it's like she doesn't want to sleep with me, which I'm not mad about, but it's just strange and I didn't even ask her what's up. Our friendship was blazing though. She was a real company to keep.

"No I'm not doing Paige.. definitely not her."

She gasped, "so you're doing somebody else... just not Paige?"

"Oh my God Susan who else would I do. You know how noisy you are, you'd definitely know about it..."

She kissed my cheek, "awesome... I'm glad you know that. So goodnight now and we will talk on Sunday.."

"I love you too Susan."

I went to my bedroom. If I tell you that I slept immediately after getting in bed, don't believe me, I had a hard time. I was nervous about Valentia Louw coming to my place for the first time... it will just be me and her, the thought gave me chills and scared the living out of me, but deep down, it made me curious and a bit worked up.

I mean we have been kissing a lot.. Okay I'm overreacting, just twice, but who knew what could happen if she was to be here and it only becomes me and her. We were going to talk about the freaking kisses we shared. What was going to stop us from kissing again?

Me?

Her?

I don't know honestly.

But my friday night wasn't peaceful at all, I was super nervous...

..

Saturday came way sooner for my poor nerves. I woke up, fixed my bed then when I got out of my room I found my roomies gone already but there was a note..

Make sure you use a condom with whoever you're doing here... you're loved... P&S xoxo

I laughed, these idiots. I started cleaning the rest of the house. I furrowed my brows when I realized that the time was 9:30 and I haven't gotten any text from Vee.. really? Wasn't I supposed to go fetch her in 30 minutes?

I took my phone and texted her.

ME: Hey morning..

She responded.

VEE: Morning.

I asked how she was doing of which she responded fine.. we then started talking about useless things. Honestly I just wanted her to tell me to come fetch her, but it wasn't happening... so we ended up talking about me and why I slept late. Of course I wasn't going to tell her that she was the reason, I just told her I was busy with my book...and luckily she bought it.

After a few seconds another text from her came in

VEE: I hope you're cooking for me then..

VEE: Because I think you'll be fetching me around 12, something is holding me up a bit.

I shook my head nerves suddenly kicking in so much. Thinking about cooking for her. JESUS...

ME: umh, I can't cook.. nerves are killing me, so I'll go to the mall, what should I get?

She quickly responded.

VEE: it's not like it's our first time meeting, I don't understand why you're nervous. And don't be nervous, I don't bite.

I almost wet my pants when I read her last sentence. Was she kidding me?

Fuck!

I rolled my eyes and decided to pay attention to what we were initially talking about.. me thinking about her f*****g me wasn't healthy as all right now. She was married.. she was fucken married.

I typed again.

ME: Vee, It would be the first time cooking for you.. so, nerves. Pizza or Mc D.. and which one will you want..? Ohh and what side snacks would you want? I mean I know I'm a snack but what side snack do you want?

I cursed after sending that. Why was I flirting with Vee?

VEE: Can't you just order in when I get there...? Ohh and I won't snack you

I laughed, I was looking forward to seeing her. Like seriously looking forward to it.. I thought she'd change her mind since time was now running but she was still promising. So this was good.

ME: good, coz I never said you'll snack me. I just saod I'm a snack... and well you'll do the talking when we order and I'll just stare at you...

I hit myself in my head a thousand times after sending that and there was no way I could take it back. What the f**k was wrong with me? Wait. On a scale of 1 to 10, how horrible were my texts and how s****l were they?

Argggg God.. I should just fucken shut up.. because everything I was typing was high as f**k.

VEE: do you have their numbers to order?

I sighed in relief when she avoided my stupidity..

ME: I do Vee.

VEE: good good, what are you doing now?

ME: I just finished bathing. And you?

VEE: I'm about to go bath.. I was waiting for my dad.

I smiled. She loved her dad.

ME: daddy's girl.. cute ?

VEE: lol f**k off

I laughed but was startled by the main door opening.

"The fuck.. Paige...?"

She smiled, "hey babe, I came to see you..."

Fuck nooo...

"Umh.. Paige I have a visitor and..."

"Vee...? don't worry it will be like I'm not here okay. I just need some quietness and you know my apartment is on the friggin main road. I will be as dead as a dead person..."

My eyes shot wide open at her asking if my visitor was Vee.. "who the f**k tol... shit.. shit.. f**k Susan.. f**k her.."

Paige laughed and kissed my cheek, "would you relax... please it's all good okay.."

I sighed, she was fucken determined to stay. I knew her, nothing I said was going to let her leave. She was fucken here to stay.

"Fine Paige, please don't do or say anything stupid.. especially about..."

"Are you guys going to have s*x? Just asking because you've been doing a lot of kissing lately..."

I face palmed myself. I regretted the day I told this i***t that Valentia and I kissed.

"Paige I'm going to the mall, are you staying behind or will you fucken follow me.."

She laughed, "let's go babe.. God why are you soo uptight.. you need sex.."

"f**k you Paige.."

She laughed more, "you don't do that anymore so yeah I do f**k myelf."

I shook my head and climbed into Precious's car as Paige got into the passenger's seat.

She teased me all she fucken wanted. Asking if I was nervous or not.

I ignored her and took some sour sweets, lays, soda and yogurt.

"She didn't tell me what side snacks she wanted, she better fucken like these..."

Paige took my hand, "you'd be the best side snack she can have.."

I rolled my eyes. I knew how to pick friends for real. Idiotic ones.

We made it back home and I got a text from Vee.. I smiled and Paige scoffed, "you are so sprung..."

I rolled my eyes and opened the text.

VEE: Come get me.

The smile on my face was wider..

VEE: oh and please freshen up, it's fucken hot.

I rolled my eyes, God this woman.. did this mean she wanted to f**k me?

ME: yes ma'am..

I sighed and ordered Pizza before I ran to the shower quickly. In 15 minutes I was done and going to fetch her, I put on my skinny jeans and a see through blouse since it was fucken hot...

I drove for 20 minutes to Sandton City mall waiting for her. Of course she was late...

ME: I'm here waiting for you... how come you're late coz you stay...

VEE: Relax... I'm walking there..

So I tried to relax my nerves, I mean how was the drive back to my place going to be? Awkward or whaaat? f**k! I needed to breathe.

I sighed.. my phone rang and she was like she's here and she can't see me. I tried to tell her where I was..

Let me tell you something.. that day, I realized that Valentia Louw is bad with directions. So I knew the direction of her place and I went to stand next to the entrance that she'll reach first, but the older woman made me go to the other entrence, only to call again and say she is where I was.

After 15 minutes of not getting each other, she was getting frustrated and I was internally laughing but getting frustrated too, I mean the time was now going to 3pm and we didn't have much time. She'd have to leave as soon as we get to my place..

Fuck!

'can you see a white truck?' She asked during the last phone call and I nodded because I could, "yes..."

'and a yellow taxi?'

"Valentia yes I can see them I'm walking to their direction..."

'then you should see me because I'm opposite those cars and I'm wearing a freaking pink shirt..'

Darn, she was sexy when frustrated. But on another note, I didn't see her at all, that was before a guy moved and I saw her.

Shit! Couldn't this woman be less sexy and just look average. I mean I haven't had s*x in a while and her looking all sexy with her backpack was just f*****g with my imagination.

She hung up when she saw me and rolled her eyes when I parked next to her.

"Hey..."

She got inside the car, "hey to you too... why aren't you dressed... wait, did you come all this way dressed like this. You're practically naked..."

Fuck...

Listen to her. I was smiling like an i***t.

"I'm not naked. I'm dressed.. so stop it it's hot."

She smiled, "you look sexy with that naked thing on."

I blushed and started driving.

Traffic was fucken heavy going back. It was now past three and people were coming back from work.

Yep.. talk about meeting at 10am that turned to 3pm. This woman. She should be lucky I love her. Shit.. I didn't just think that...

"So... f**k, you stay far, you been driving for how long now? An hour?"

I rolled my eyes, "really Vee? It's traffic...it's moving slow.. and yeah maybe I do stay far a bit."

She looked at me for a while and then I suddenly felt a slap on my thigh.

"Ouch.. what the f**k Vee.. what was that for..."

"Those s****l texts you sent me, and then you come to me naked, Stop being naughty.."

My face flushed.. f**k Valentia. I kept driving and ignored what she said.

We started talking about this and that.. how hungry I was and why I didn't eat. I was honest, I told her I was a bit nervous and I don't know why. She told me I'm an idiot... until she complained about where I was staying again and I told her we are only 15 minutes away.

"Oh nice.. So who are you with at home...?"

I fucken forgot.. Jesus! I looked at her and cleared my throat, "umh.. Paige.. she's visiting."

She ached her brow, "Paige your girlfriend...?"

I rolled my eyes, "she's not my girlfriend."

"You kissed her."

"She's not my girlfriend."

"Right... so I hope you won't be loud then." She said and I heard her loud and clear, but I wanted her to repeat it. My heart skipped a bit.

"What?"

She smiled and looked outside the window, "nothing.."

Fuck.. I could literally feel me getting warmed up at the thought of me not being loud.

I parked outside the place and we both got out.

I opened the door and was welcomed by Paige's dog barking. I was startled when the door closed behind me and Vee wasn't even inside.

Shit!

"Paige come and get your fucken dog cat... Vee is here.."

"Your pizza arrived and I paid for it. You owe me.." she said taking the dog to the bedroom.

I opened the door and found Vee leaning by the car, "is the dog gone?"

I laughed, God she was just cute.

"Come in.. it's gone."

"If I see an inch if it I'm going back home Olwethu."

I laughed, "Come on Vee, I won't let it touch you even one bit. I'm here." I said the last part extending my hand towards her and she took it freely and walked inside with me.

Man. I swear she was fucken cute.

Paige walked back in, "hey Valentia.."

"Hey Paige... unh Lin can I have water.."

"Cold?"

"Yes please.. it's hot.."

I got up from the couch and went to get her water in the fridge.

I handed her a glass, she sat on the couch and started drinking. Paige walked in and stopped her music that was playing, then she put Rihanna on. Some CD I put when I clean, "you guys enjoy this. I don't wanna bore you with my music.." then she disappeared.

I sat at the wing on the couch and looked at her, "why are you so beautiful..?"

She furrowed her brows, "why am I what? Lin what the f**k?"

I laughed, "s**t I'm sorry that just came out.. I'm sorry.."

She drank and then finished..

"You look tired.. make something to eat.."

Man.. this woman, I smiled, "I am tired.. let me make Pizza..." I said the last part standing up but I didn't move.

She looked at me, "go make Pizza yeah..."

I nodded my head, "It's happening."

"Or do you want me to come help you?"

I blushed, "nah I'm good."

To my surprise she got up. When she was about to go past me I stopped her, "baby I'm good.. I'll make me food.."

Of course she's stronger, so she pushed me until I give in and we both when to the kitchen.

"Are your hands clean?" She asked when I handed her the box of pizza. I smiled and showed her the tap and she went to wash her hands, "bring the plate.."

I loved how free she was being. It made me less nervous. Maybe s**t wasn't about to go down. Maybe I wasn't going to lose my job. Maybe everything wasn't as how I thought it would be. My bloody over thinking mind will f**k me over I swear.

She took two pieces and told me to warm it up. I cooked it instead because it was fucken hot when I had a taste. I poured me soda and went to sit next to her on the couch.

"You wanna sit next to me huh?"

I rolled my eyes, "I can go sit at the dinner table..."

She smiled, "no sit here...can I have water please..?"

"Not drink.. water?"

"Water."

I came with another glass and sat down then started to eat. She was watching me and making jokes about how I couldn't swallow.. if I was okay.

This woman was crazy insane and I loved it.

We talked about a few things.

When I finished the first piece I was fucken full.

"I'm full."

"You didn't even finish the first piece. Come on.. eat the other one."

"Vee..."

"Eat..." she ordered and I took a bite then sipped on my drink. She smiled, "go make me food now."

I looked at her, "go make it yourself..."

She smiled and got up then mumbled a, "I'm never coming back here again.."

I laughed because I didn't hear but quickly stopped her and sat her back down, "what did you say?"

"I'm never coming back here again..." she repeated and I laughed, "okay relax let me make you food."

I got up and went to warm two pieces of pizza and then poured her a drink and took it to the table, then removed my food next to her to the table.

"Can you please come eat here.."

"No..."

I sighed, "Veeee"

She laughed and got up. I opened the chair for her and she sat down.

We started talking again about a little staff. She asked me to go charge her phone and take her bag. I took her phone and bag then went to my bedroom and charged it while throwing her bag on my bed. I came back out and ww continued eating.

After a few minutes I touched my stomach, lifting my blouse up for her to see "I'm really full now.. I won't be able to talk.."

She looked at my plate and laughed, "your little six pack... are you forcing that in? Go put it in the fridge you'll warm it up later."

I did and then went to stand next to her... I was going insane. I felt the need to bend over and kiss her but I stopped myself.

"Wanna sit on top of me.. it's okay...you can."

I was tempted, so fucken tempted but I shook my head, "nope I'm good here next to you."

She ate her book and burped, "I'm full."

Without thinking, I touched her tummy to check if she was full indeed.

She laughed when I pulled away, "I'm sure you felt like you was touching my boob right here... with my big tummy and shit."

I laughed, "you're crazy, you don't have a big tummy."

"Can you check my phone.."

"Check your phone if it's charging?" I asked and she shook her head, "bring it I'll check it."

I shook my head, she probably thought I'd go through her phone, I wouldn't do it even when given permission.

"Can I have gum?"

I laughed, "I don't have it.."

But I went to my bedroom.

I took her phone and checked for gums then gave them to her. She did whatever she was doing and I took it back to my bedroom.

I came back out and we finished off our drinks. After a while I knew the talk needed to happen.

She had my gum though so I asked for it. She took out a tiny piece from her mouth and gave it to me. I ate it and then laughed, "are you kidding me?"

She shrugged, "what? It's gum isn't it."

I shook my head, "noooo"

She laughed handing me my gum back.

"Let's go to my bedroom.."

She smiled and got up. She has seen where I went but she had the nerve to point another door and ask cutely, "is this your room?"

I shook my head. She pointed at Susan's room, "this one.."

I looked, Paige was on the bed and playing on her phone.. I looked back at Vee, "the one behind you."

She smiled, "ahh this one. Alright.." then she opened. She walked in and I followed closing the door.

"This is your room? It's Cuteeeee..."

I rolled my eyes, she was a cute i***t I swear.

I stood next to the wall not knowing what to do or say. She turned and walked right straight to me, standing in front of me.

My heart was beating so fast on my chest. She smelt so fucken good.

She took my hands in hers and leaned over me trying to kiss me. My heart kept on and to my surprise I managed to back my head away from the kiss. I was nervous.

She smiled and licked her bottom lip. s**t. I wasn't going to say no. She was making me weak.

She pushed me against the wall and leaned in but towards my ear. I moved and she shook her head, "can I kiss your ear Lin.."

I wanted to jump and say "yeeeeeees" but I kept my cool and just stared blankly at her. If she was going to kiss me there. I was going to let her f**k me. It was like that!

She leaned over again and I moved. We looked at each other as she literally pinned me against the wall with my hands right above my head and she finally managed to get to my ear.

Her tongue slowly made its way in and she moved in then sucked on it a bit.

I sighed..

I was in deep s**t. I was getting wet by every living second. I wanted her to kiss me all over. So fucken much....