Courtney
There's been many times in my life when I felt like I was so numb, I could stab a pencil through my leg and not even notice. It's a defense mechanism I've developed over time to keep myself from feeling pain. At least temporarily.
I haven't felt this way in years. I guess until recently, our lives have been pretty normal, so I haven't had much of a reason to feel this way. But how are you supposed to cope with your husband of five years fathering another child that you knew nothing about until two weeks ago?
Ryder sits at the table across from me holding the manila envelope that will determine our future. While he should be concerned about the contents of the envelope, he's more concerned about me and how I'm going to react. No matter what I say to him, he's convinced
