Chapter 3 - Sister Talk.
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Nicole's P.O.V.
I haven't been able to focus on anything since we started this movie night.
All of the movies we've watched are a blur to me, any food or drinks I've consumed felt tasteless and even my baby girl's beautiful singing voice, her adorable chuckles and her overly infectious excitement when watching her favourite movies weren't enough to distract me from my racing thoughts.
My head feels like it's been fried and I don't know if it's because of the day in it's entirety or if it's because of the phone call I had with Cameron not too long ago.
I still can't believe he told me that the reason why he hasn't been there for his own daughter all of these years is because his precious Lily told him not to.
I mean, who does that?.
What kind of man is so p***y whipped by a woman that he'd give up on his child and never see her or build a bond and a relationship with her just because his ex girlfriend told him not to?.
Clearly, a weak one because there's no d**k in the world who could ever take me away from Lola, not one single one.
"Ok, what's wrong with you?"
Sidney asks sounding annoyed.
"Nothing, I'm just watching Frozen"
I tell her and she looks at me like what the f**k? as she narrows her eyes between me and the television.
"Babe, Frozen was three movies ago, we're watching White Chicks now"
What?.
I briefly looked over at Sidney before looking back at the television and I was shocked to see the infamous toilet scene from White Chicks was now on my screen but I didn't laugh at it like I normally would.
Now, I know I'm truly f****d if this can't make me giggle because it's literally one of the funniest scenes in the whole movie.
"Why are we watching White Chicks with my baby girl in the room, Sid?"
I ask Sidney who looks at me confused.
"Because Lola and Zoey fell asleep after watching the live-action version of The Little Mermaid, Nic"
What?.
"She did?"
"Mmm-hmm, look"
Sidney said as she pointed towards the other couch in my living room where Zoey was snoring away with my precious daughter fast asleep on top of her.
"Oh...I didn't notice"
I said feeling guilty.
The girls planned this night for me to celebrate my divorce but I've been too distracted by my ex to notice anything that's been going on.
God, I'm such an awful person.
I thought to myself whilst rubbing my forehead in frustration.
"Yeah, that's because you were too busy being away with the fairies, Nicole...what's going on with you? you were all happy and excited when we first got here but now you're acting like a zombie, is everything ok?"
"Everything's perfect, Sid"
I say as I take a sip of my drink.
"Really? because you've been unusually quiet ever since we came down from your room and you've been lost in what looks like painful thoughts ever since"
She said as I looked down at my drink.
"What's going on, Nicki? has something happened?"
She asks me and I let out a sigh.
"It's Cameron"
I say and she rolls her eyes whilst groaning in annoyance.
"What's the asshole done now? I swear, if he's said anything to insult you or Lola or he's threatened you in any kind of way, then I'm gonna shove my foot so far up his fucking...."
"Whoa, calm down, Jeez"
I said with a slight chuckle.
One thing I love about Sidney is how much she loves myself and Lola and also how protective she is of us.
Even though she's the childhood sweetheart and wife of my brother Andrew who has hated me ever since I can remember, she doesn't think like he does and she doesn't treat me the same way that he does either.
In fact, I remember she told me once that 'just because I married the jackass, it doesn't mean that I have to do as he says, think how thinks or feel how he feels and if he can't see what a wonderful and amazing person you are, then that's his los,s not yours or mine'.
Andrew has always been spiteful and hateful towards me ever since I can remember and for as long as he and Sidney have been together, he's tried every conceivable way possible to turn her against me but she's too strong-willed and strong-minded to allow him to talk s**t about me and I love that about her.
I love that she's her own person with her own mind and thoughts and won't allow herself to be brainwashed or corrupted to think the way someone else thinks, even if that someone else is her own husband.
I looked over at my sister in law who had her hand on her chest as she took several deep inhales and slowly released them to calm herself down before she looked back at me.
"Ok, so what did that slimy snail do to upset you now?"
"Well, he texted me at first asking if we could speak"
"And I hope you told him to f**k off"
She said and I chuckled.
"No, I told him we could talk when I became the queen of hell"
I say and she bursts out laughing which luckily enough didn't wake up the two sleeping beauties on the other couch.
"Who knew my sister could be a savage, huh?"
"I'm not that much of a savage, Sid because if I was, then I would've told Cameron to tie an anvil to his c**k and take a jump off Mount Rushmore after what he told me today"
"Why? what did he tell you?"
She asks sounding like she's desperate to hear the tea but is also angry because she knows my ex just as well as I do and she knows that whatever he's said won't be nice, so she's gearing herself up for whatever I'm gonna tell her.
"Well, first he told me that he wanted to see Lola and he got offended when I asked him why now after he's spent the past three years neglecting her"
"Why would he get offended when that's the truth? he has been neglecting Lola, in fact, I would've gone as far as to say he abandoned her as well"
She says sounding confused.
"I wasn't thinking to be fair, I just wanted to get off the phone with him"
I say with a sigh as I run a hand through my hair.
"I don't blame you, talking with the Parkers is like pulling teeth, only pulling teeth is less painful"
"You got that right"
I said with a chuckle.
"Anyway, to answer your question, Cameron doesn't think that he's been neglectful with Lola or with me because he's always given us everything we could ever want including money which in his mind is equivalent to him being there for us"
"Are you kidding me?"
Sidney says with a scoff whilst rolling her eyes.
"The last time I checked, Nicki, money can't give you safe, warm cuddles, money can't read you bedtime stories and money for damn sure can't kiss away your tears when you get hurt and it can't put a band-aid on your boo-boo either...fuck, that man is a moron"
"It's a good job she's got me then, isn't it?"
"Yeah, she has and I really hope you don't take any offence to this, Nicki but that's not enough...kids need both of their parents in their lives, not just a mom who has been forced to do both roles because her ex is a p***y whipped fool"
She says and I chuckled as tears filled my eyes but they weren't tears for me, they were tears for my child, my poor innocent baby who doesn't deserve any of this.
"Children need a mother to nurture them and a father to protect them....money and gifts can't do that"
"Parents aren't always necessary, Sid, I mean, look at us, my parents were cold-hearted to me growing up and they always treated me like I was the unwanted wheel in their perfect little family and you were raised by a single mother, yet we both turned out to be decent human beings"
"True but even you've gotta admit that parents, whether they're abusive, neglectful or just plain old absentees, leave a permanent and ugly scar on you, not to mention, it f***s you up mentally and leaves you with serious confidence and self-esteem issues"
"I know"
I said barely above a whisper.
"And I don't want that to happen to Lola but what choice do I have when her father refuses to be in her life because of his ex-girlfriend?"
I growl and Sidney looks at me confused.
"What are you talking about, Nicki? what's Lily got to do with this?"
"Everything according to Cameron"
I say whilst laughing slightly but it wasn't because I was amused, no, it was to stop myself from crying even further or getting angry which is the last thing that I want to be right now.
"Why? what did he say?"
Sidney asks me and I let out a breath as I wipe away my tears.
"He said and I quote, Lily told me not to, she said she wouldn't forgive me or take me back if I had a relationship with Lola, so..."
I drifted off while Sidney looked like a bomb that was ready to explode.
"What did you just say, Nic?"
Sidney growled through gritted teeth as her fists clenched together tightly.
"You heard me, Sid"
I said with a sad smile.
"I said that Lily told Cameron to stay out of Lola's life if he ever wanted her forgiveness and he did so without even blinking...he also said that he had to do what's best for Lily and he didn't seem to care when I asked him about what's best for Lola, so..."
"Right, that's it"
My sister in law cut me off with a growl as she stood up or more like stumbled up and stomped her little ass over to my front door.
"Wait, where are you going?"
"I'm going to give that bastard ex-husband of yours a rectal exam with my tyre iron, that's where I'm going, sweet cheeks"
Oh f**k.
This isn't good.
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