KISSES & BEYOND (The Damned Series #1)

Kabanata 6

DR. CICELY ESTRELLANES is one of Caelian’s collection of women. She’s a psychiatrist that Caelian meets up with for therapy and… s*x. Nagkakilala ang dalawa sa isang bar at naging malapit na simula noon. But the two has already agreed to only have a patient-doctor relationship with a little bit of benefits－sex. Cicely is already married and Caelian’s not interested even a bit to her. s*x and therapy, that’s just all they have between them.

Hindi na kinailangang mag-doorbell ng babae o ang kumatok sa pinto para makapasok. Caelian leaves them open. At ilang beses naman nang nakapunta rito ang babae kaya alam niya na ang daan, alam niya na rin kung saang kwarto didiretso.

The second she entered his room, Caelian surprised her from behind. Binagsak ng binata ang pinto at marahas na hinila ang babae papunta sa cabinet. Pinatalikod niya ito rito at walang pakundangang inangat ang palda nito, binaba ang suot nitong underwear, at walang habas na ipinasok ang p*********i niya rito.

Cicely laughed at his actions. “You’re pretty aggressive tonight than usual. Did something happen?”

Caelian did not answer her. He only continued to roughly thrust his shaft to her core as she noisily moans. Hindi nagustuhan ni Caelian ang malakas na pag-ungol nito kaya tinakpan niya ang kaniyang bibig. Thana’s room is just next to his, at ang marinig sila nito ang pinakahuling bagay na gugustuhin niyang mangyari.

Marahas niyang hinila ang damit ng doktora dahilan upang pumutok ang butones dito. Lumantad ang malusog nitong dibdib na siya namang marahas at mariin niyang niyapos ng palad. Even if Caelian gets this rough, Cicely still likes this about him. She would prefer someone as harsh as him than her husband who can’t even satisfy her as much as Caelian’s big and long d**k can.

They’ve been railing like crazy for a few minutes now, Cicely has already came but Caelian still can’t. She is his therapist, kaya alam niya kung may problema, alam niya kung may mali sa pasyente niya. Every thrust he makes, there was frustrations and anger etched with it. Sa bawat paglamas nito sa s**o niya o sa kakaibang dahas ng galaw nito ngayon, Cicely knew for sure that something is bothering him. But she kept quiet, she only waited for him to finally speak.

In the end, Caelian frustratingly pulled out his shaft, leaving her there hanging and dumbfounded. Sinarado na ng binata ang pantalon at bigong napabagsak ng naupo sa kaniyang kama.

Napapangiting sinusuot muli ni Cicely ang underwear na hinubad ng binata kanina. “You’re f*****g me and yet, your mind is somewhere else.”

Hindi pa rin umiimik ito. Sinakop niya ng mga kamay ang magkabilang gilid ng ulo na tila ba naiingayan na ito sa kung ano mang tumatakbo sa isip niya ngayon.

“You’re thinking about her,” she declared surely.

By just the mention of her, Caelian quickly lifted his chin to finally look at Cicely.

“She’s in the next room.”

Agad na nambilog ang mga mata at bibig ng doktor. Bigla itong nag-alala at baka narinig sila nito. Nagulantang din ito dahil parang nitong umaga niya lamang pinayuhan ang binata na puntahan si Thana tapos ngayon naririto na ito, kasama niya pa sa iisang bahay.

“What?! When did you－”

“This morning. I did what you advised me to do. I went to her house trying to find a closure so I can stop thinking about her, so I can finally be at peace.”

Cicely tried to find the ‘peace’ that he is talking about but she couldn’t find it. Imbes na kapayapaan ang dalhin ni Thana sa kaniya, mukhang mas pinagulo lamang nito ang isip niya.

“And what happened?”

Caelian ran his fingers through his hair trying to shove away the rage starting to wrap him.

“Saw her being f****d by someone, in front of her f*****g mother.”

Cicely was even more shocked. “Jesus! Cael! She needs help, they need to be sued-”

“I already did… killed them. I was so angry, I couldn’t stop myself, I couldn’t…”

Hindi na matuloy ni Caelian ang sinasabi dahil sa biglang pagbibigat ng dibdib. Para itong hindi na makahinga sa pagpipigil ng galit. Pakiramdam niya’y sasabog na ang ulo niya sa galit nang maalala na naman ang naabutan niyang eksena kanina, nang maalala ang imahe ni Thana na binababoy ng ibang tao.

When Cicely thought she couldn’t be anymore shocked, para na itong iniwanan ng kaluluwa sa pagkakatulala ngayon. Naupo ito sa sofa dahil pakiramdam niya’y nahihilo siya sa mga nalaman.

“Caelian, if this goes out in the public I can’t help you with that anymore. What if someone saw you? What if Thana finds out about that?”

Dumilim ang tingin sa kaniya ni Caelian. Hindi ito nag-aalala kung may nakakita man sa kaniya dahil sigurado siyang wala. Ang tanging inaalala niya lamang ay kapag nalaman ni Thana ang ginawa niya. Thana hating him is the last thing he would want to happen.

Kapwa silang gulat na napalingon sa pinto dahil sa biglang pagbukas nito. Itinambad ng siwang ng pinto ang dalagang suot-suot pa rin ang malaking t-shirt ni Caelian na nagmukhang bestida na sa kaniya.

Biglang natakot ang binata at baka narinig nito ang pinag-uusapan nila habang ang doktora nama’y napatitig sa dalaga. She quickly knew it was her, Thana. At napangiti na lamang ito habang tinititigan ang maamong mukha nito at ang kabadong mukha na ni Caelian ngayon.

“Now I can see why you’re going crazy about her.” Cicely smirked at him before turning to Thana once again. “Hi Thana.” Tumayo ito at masiglang kumaway kay Thana ngunit sa gulat nila’y hindi siya nito pinansin, nasa kay Caelian lamang ang tingin nito na tila ba hindi siya nakikita.

Nagkatinginan naman ang doktora at si Caelian. He fixed his pants before standing to go to her. Tuluyan niyang binuksan ang pinto at ngumiti sa dalaga.

“Nagising ka ba namin?”

Hindi ito sumagot at nanatili lamang na nakatitig sa kaniya.

“Siya si Cicely, kaibigan ko. May pinag-uusapan lang kami.”

Muling nagkatinginan lamang ang dalawa dahil sa hindi na naman pag-iimik ni Thana. He can’t tell what she is thinking. Walang ekspresyon sa mukha nito at nakatitig lamang ito sa kaniya.

“Oo, Thana.” Cicely came to them closer and decided to help him out, halata na kasi sa mukha nito na parang hindi na alam ang gagawin. “May importanteng pinag-usapan lang kami kaya kinailangan kong pumunta rito nang ganitong oras. Pero uuwi na rin ako.”

Cicely is smiling from ear to ear. Umiwas man ng tingin si Thana kay Caelian, ay hindi niya pa rin binabalingan ng tingin sa mukha ang doktora. Nilandas niya lamang ito ng tingin mula sa paa paakyat sa katawan nito. Huminto lang ang mata niya sa bandang dibdib nito dahil nakalantad pa rin ang kalusugan nito dahil sa natanggal na butones kanina dulot ng pagkakahila ni Caelian.

Agad itong tinakpan ni Cicely. Balak pa sana niyang gumawa ulit ng kwento upang gawing dahilan subalit naunahan na silang talikuran ni Thana. Without speaking a word, she got out of their sight and went back to her room.

Napatingin ang wala kaide-ideyang si Caelian sa kaniya na siyang tinawanan niya.

“She seems to like you, Cael. She’s jealous of me, in case you’re still not aware.”

Bahagyang nagulat ang binata sa sinabi niya.

“You think so?”

Cicely naughtily smirked. “We’re both women, Cael. I’m sure of it.”

Muling napunta ang tingin ni Caelian sa direksyon ng kwarto ni Thana. Hindi niya man na tanaw roon ang dalaga ay gumapang pa rin ang maliit na ngiti sa labi niya.

“You still can’t do it, can you? Even if you’re in one room, or even being that close with each other, you still can’t?”

Nagbuntong-hininga si Caelian bago bigong napailing.

“Why don’t you try little by little? Start with touching her.”

“I can’t.”

“That’s why you called me here? Too bad it didn’t work. You want me to tell you why? Because your body craves for her, that d**k wants her and not me, not anyone else.”

He wanted to avoid that topic. Parang bigla na lang nabuhay na naman ang nakatulog na niyang pagnanasa kay Thana. But as his therapist, Cicely wanted to confront him regarding his feelings because that is what she should do－help him.

“Unless you try it, you can never be at peace being around her. Try doing it once, and tell me what happens, or what you feel.”

Maagap na umiling ang binata. “I… I can’t do that. She’s too young.”

Bahagyang natawa ang doktora sa sinabi niya. “Haven’t you f****d younger women before? Don’t be such a saint now, Cael. You’re even hooking up with a married woman.”

Tiningnan lamang siya nang masama nito. Tumungo ito sa gilid at nagsalin ng tubig sa isang baso. He drank it quickly as if his mouth has gone all dry because of their topic.

“She’s so much younger than them, Cice. And… she’s not like them.”

“Why? How old is she?”

Alanganin itong napakibit ng balikat. “I don’t know.”

“See? You don’t even know.”

“You saw her, Cice. Anyone could tell she is young. So much younger than me.”

Cicely went to the place where he left her bag and picked it up, getting ready to leave.

“We wouldn’t know unless you ask her.”

Tinapik nito sa likod si Caelian bago tumungong muli sa pinto.

“You’re not going to spend the night here?”

Napahagikgik nito ang doktora. “Don’t you think you should clear things to her first before you ask me that? Don’t be such a d**k, Cael. She obviously hated seeing me here, seeing my clothes torn while being in the same room with you.”

“Why would she…”

“Gusto mo ba tagalugin ko pa? Gusto ka ng bata, Cael. Huwag kang manhid. Tarantado.”

At matapos iyon ay bumunghalit na sa katatawa ang doktora. Mas natawa pa ito nang makita ang gulat na mukha ni Caelian. Anyone could obviously notice that at first glance, it’s a mystery why he still doesn’t know that.

“Bye. My husband’s going home tonight so I’m out,” huling sabi na nito at kumaway na paalis sa kaniya.

Habang siya nama’y naiwan doong nakatulala. Kakainom niya pa lamang ng tubig pero ito siya’t parang uhaw na uhaw na naman. But it wasn’t water that his body wants nor his mouth needs. He knew it was only her who can satisfy this thirst.